Like IT!!!...I Felt Bored So i Decided To RedecoRate the PLaCe....:P...

2010-05-31T12:54:00.002+08:00

So It's the end already...

no no im not emo or anything.. hahahha

School ended.. And this is like the end of my tertiary education

I mean I could take up A Degree in future no doubt...

But my compulsory Education is over..

PAP Kindergarten

Ahmad Ibrahim Primary School

Northbrooks Secondary School

Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts

Wow!.. Who'd have figured out that I would have ended up being a designer

at the end of this long education trail which lasted about... hmm 2 + 6 + 5 + 4 =...

(looking at fingers and counting)

OH 17 YEARS! OMG! i just realised 17 years of my life has been dedicated to education..

And if you're wondering how come Nafa took 4 years it's because i went in in 2007 July and left in 2010 May

And so it's actually 3 years but I'm counting the Numerical Years...

If not it'll be 16 Years but still That's ALOT right!!

Most countries don't even have more than 10 Years of education for their young generations...

But anyways

I think I need to do smthing about my room! (note to self)

Oh ya now that school's over I hv nothing to do

I used to be busy as fuck

and now I'm loose as a white sheet in the wind...

And I knoe I knoe I haven't been bloggin' for Like AGES!!!!!

ugh

I actually feel like switching over to Tumblr

I have an acct there just that I used to use it when blogger was being a bitch...

Hmm.. I'll reconsider But I love this too much to lose it uh...

My posts here since 2006 uh

Hmm maybe I'll just keep this blog as a reminder and move on.. to something better :D

It's time to for a change.. an easier more Grego intepreted Change.. Something that I can enjoy myself with :D

Ok...

Imma move :D

Take care all you Lovelies..

I wanna say thank you for all the memories blogger

5 years of Blogging and all the wonderful pictures

and people I've been able to share this wonderful blog with

so with that..

I'VE MOVED!

http://grieverez.tumblr.com

Love and Losts

V'ZeuLKiD

Grieverez

Heartz

Ezekiel

Grego

It's been real ;')

Stage 2 Aftermath

2010-03-28T02:15:00.001+08:00

I feel helpless...

drained...

rejected..

but above all

i feel unloved...

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

2010-03-02T10:23:00.002+08:00

Well I'm just blogging for the sake of blogging.. lets see..

I want to ee say dat... I'm bored and I just Fartted hahahahkz

peee ewww... i need to get out and exercise more..

err..

I don't really have ee much to eesayy.. soo I shall just go do my Digital media project... on Fad's Intro now hahkz..

Aite.. Taking care yawsss...

Grieverez V'ZeuLz

PS if you're wondering how come my name's changed its cox its 2010 and with every new year/decade there's gotta be some major diff hahkz right ...

Change is good

Thank you

2010-02-28T01:54:00.002+08:00

Over the course off today i've realised that I have alot to be thankful for and alot of people that I want to start thanking...

I want to thank my dance crew for being there to bring passion and purpose to my life

I want to thank NAFA for bringing me back to the arts and giving me a new avenue to express myself

I want to thank my friends for always supporting me and believing in me when I didn't believe in myself

I want to thank the people whom've given me so much in life that I should be more thankful for.. my parents... and lastly and most importantly the main reason I wrote this blog today ....

I want to thank people like Voguelicious, the Spice Boys and all outward and in your face gays and bisexuals that I know... You guys have taken alot of shit from the rest of the world not just Singapore and it was not just for yourselves it was to bring people to realise how we all... should have a say and how we too need to have our place in the world...

I'm not try to stir up a riot or cause activism over this issue but I just want to say thank you for representing a major discreet majority of us whom aren't brave enough to go out and scream at the top of our lungs that we are proud to be who we are.. THANK YOU!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! & GERLSSS HAHAKZ! :D

Love

Grieverez V'Zeulz

11.02.10

2010-02-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

At this very date in the moments of today and the day that has passed, I've been really happy... for some reason.. I just want to remember this feeling thus If I forget or feel sad... I have this post to remind me this moment.

it involved a day involving extra sleep Till about 1-2pm

a really productive start to my video project...

a reproach to my campaign on responsible consumerism...

about 5 to 6 episodes of pure hysterical enjoyment of the Big Bang Theory...

and some really enjoyable music to close of the evening :D

I feel a feeling of happiness enveloped in love and appreciation.. although it's all from within

I M Inspired...

Right now.. impossible really is nothing..

V'ZeuLKiD Grego :D

PS THANK YOU NAFA FOR THE HOLIDAY I REALLY REALLLLLLYYYY NEEDED IT!!!

PSS thanks to my personal GP for telling me to take a break every now and then to de-stress and to keep watching BBT.. LAWLS.... hahahah..

Well...

2010-01-31T12:48:00.002+08:00

Shall we dance?

Grieverez V'Zeulz

09' to 10' ... 20 isn't so great after all

2010-01-31T03:00:00.004+08:00

Ok ... sorry it's been ages since I've last Updated..

Lets.. see...

Last I remember I was enjoying the end of my 09' and then I was thinking that

this year 2010, it would be better... well.. it hasn't be great so far...

Don't let this smile deceive you..

My idea of a good year would be to do something worthwhile.. Didn't happen yet

My idea of a good year is that I might start off to a great jump in school... Didn't happen at all

My idea of a good year was to get in touch with a more sensitive side of myself to open up to someone I love... has Yet to happen I guess

My idea of a good year would be to just maybe make friends in my new class... Hasn't happened much...

It seems so difficult for some reason for everything..

No wait just before you go saying Greg things take time or things will work out DON'T

Just DON'T because that's not what I need right now

What I need is time to spend with someone, time to brush up on my dance skills and become better, a clear head to my research and maybe some company, to be able to just explode whatever is in my head into the rest of my body because I have so much to say and do and so little time before NS left...

NS is not the end of the world I know.. but it's somewhat an end to my youthfulness that's for sure... I have other goals in life that will sure to be unveiled after NS and that would last most likely the rest of my life... and so I want to focus on this now.. and maybe carry on some of these goals to the future...

I have so much more to say I guess..

And soo many people I'd love to just erase from my thoughts and life...

But.. I won't...

I'll just continue being what I can be.. I'll do things the way I want to

and I'll just make things up as long as I can think and make judgments... these judgements may not always be right but they sure as hell won't be wrong also...

As such... I'm going to abandon everything that has brought me down so far... and just focus on what I have to do to do as much as I can... and whatever people want from me.. I'll just give.. be it in design, expectations and life.. I'll just give till I have nothing left to give and then I'll just say goodbye and .. well I'll make it up as I go along I guess

the bottom line is .. 09' to 10'... 20 isn't so great after all..

Regards

Grieverez V'Zeulz

PS If you're gonna comment in my tagboard based on trying to make me feel better... forget it... try somethin' else...

PSS I might be revisiting my Emo Years...

PSSS I feel so sad right now it hurts inside... :.{

I feel...

2009-12-11T03:01:00.001+08:00

...Neglected...

V'ZeuLKiD

BOSAN!

2009-11-26T19:26:00.004+08:00

IT's like 7:30 and Yishun Primary/Peixin Primary is having some kind of musical Extravaganza.. Nice music... and cheering.. I'm hearing songs like Labamba and even A MJ Tribute.. not bad...

I am sooo Flicking bored... I wish I was working at least.. I wanna try retail Btw.. hahakz.. so into working for some clothing line or something.. but anyways..

2 days.. more

Just 2 more days and I'm out of my Teens... Or rather into my bonus year of being TWENTEEN~

baik 20... hahahahaha

But I Somehow don't feel the anticipation ... it's like ok it's gonna be another day.. hmm most likely I'm going to go see finals of DX4 with faddies.. whoever is going that is..

oh well I have nothing much to say.. cept that LUCKY STAR is sooo wierd....

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

Dear Devortants

2009-11-24T23:29:00.010+08:00

Swellll Welllll!!!...

I'm back after a very long unprecedented hiatus on blogger... Blame it on the bugs and errors...

Anyways... what's happened so far in my life? hmm..

I have completed up half way thru my second Year with I hope Passable and above average Results for my designs etc. I've gotten my

Major in Advertising Design...

And also I've participated in Dance Xplosion 4 Something I never dreamed of doing in a million years...

HAhahkz...

how life has passed me by...

In about what... 5 days.. I will cease to be a teen... Though I don't think my attitude of being young at heart would change much... hahakz

I've met someone and he's a nice guy... we talk ... we just haven't met face to face.. except from webcam to webcam hahahakz.. Oh did I mention, I cut off all that long hair I've been keeping... yes I have and now... I'm back to my Sec School Cut... Just hoping that my hair would get long enough by January so I can do my Sonic Spikes ...

ahhh-desu~ The Retroness is returning......

I've been hooked onto Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn! and I've freaking fallen in Love with the Series... Kami Korosu! (evil face) hahahahahaha

oh Anyways... I've just come back from Dance meeting and I'm taking Kamil's Advice.. Looking into House Style of Music and dancing... The styles very ... hmm... If I were to describe it, It's a very reactive style... depending on the speed, rhythm and type of music being played.. It can be very bouncy and beaty and it can also be very smooth and lounge-ish... It is indeed not easy to pick up but with training, especially in footwork, It's possible...

Here's a Vid I was Lookin at...

Anyways... I've decided to do some reflections onto my style of dancing based on dance Xplosion... I feel that Yes I do lack confidence... especially since I've been with Fad Faction... I think I need to train on sharpness and also one more thing... I notice that when I dance, It looks like I'm flailing my limbs around... I think it's body Control... But Even though I say it.. it's not something that I can easily correct... So far I've been dancing based on Instinct... I don't really know how to describe instinct but it's sort of like I dance according to how I feel and That may be different from how others feel...

Sometimes I look back at other crews and even my own dancemates and I think ...

"What Is it that they are doing right that I am not?"

Is it their confidence?

Is it the way they carry themselves?

Is it how they infuse dance as part of their lifestyle?

Or is it something totally unrelated to dancing?

I say this because on DX4, I saw something touching...

Although sometimes I see some other dancers as being arrogant on stage and in person, I have nothing personal against them.. for all I know it could be their style... even though they may be using the same steps or the same movements to depict that style... you can't change that because that style is a part of your personality and being...

Similarly, when I was at DX4, I noticed this guy was probably with an elderly lady likely to be his mom... I've seen him dancing before.. He's good and he's one of those dancers that I depict as arrogant when in character on stage.. but then when I saw the way he treated his mom, It was very touching...

Indeed the respect he shows her in her presence to support her son.. its' something that will stay in my mind for a while... I think that we shouldn't diss other people because of the way they dance, because we are simply bringing ourselves down by doing so... therefore from here on I shall not make fun of other crews... Starting today I shall try my very best to be neutral and respect all forms of dance and art because.. after all.. its self representational as well as personal interpretations of life...

Ok.. that's enough of that...

Here are some of my works to end of this post from year 3...

I feel that I've definintely Improved... since I started in NAFA... and I'm glad to have these in my Portfolio... =]

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

You make me feel better~

2009-10-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Thank you for the company... =]

~Love Grego

Joshua Simons for President..!

2009-09-28T03:52:00.004+08:00

I recently am into this really (not just good looking but profound) cool dood...

His name's Joshua Simon as on FB and he has this talent for entertaining..

He's soo visual.. Sooo Dynamic.. SOOO captivating that it's actually quite interesting when you get to hear his thoughts on life..

He's just amazing.. and I'm hoping he doesnt mind this but I'm gonna take a quote from one his posts...

"WHY should 'gay' be such a negative term, related to words replacing it like "that's so gross, that's so loser-ish". Why? I mean people find ANYTHING different to be gay. So if gay = breaking the convention, then basically everything we're pushing for in our industries is so gay. Why should I care about the way I am man? Let me ask you. When you walk around and do what you do every day. Do you stop and wonder "Is what I'm doing too straight?". So asking me a question like this is as foreign as the above question is to you. What I do is what I do, and if people put a label on it, hey... they put the sticker there, it doesn't belong to me."

He's just an eye opener to me.. Because for me as a human being one of the rare gifts we as people have that not many possess.. is the ability to change views and perceptions.. and if you can do that.. well you've pretty much got it made.. in my books that is.. hehe

But seriously.. I think this is something that's gonna stick on my mind for a while.. and I'm not going to let anyone affect me because I know I have this phrase to think about... and leave be in my head.. =]

Thanks bro.. although you don't know me hahkz..

I glad I got to know a guy like you..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS School's just begun again in term 2 Sem 1.. and I've gots AD to end and A whole new semester of surprises to begin....

OMG..!!!

2009-09-08T16:48:00.002+08:00

Finally Blogger is acting like how it should be!?

GRR soo much nonsense uh in the past month..

anyways I'm on my holiday break right now..

Or what it should be actually...

It's tutorial weeek with submissions for my term 1 work..

HEAVEN IS COMING... I'm only left with 3 more Pieces of Work To Complete

AWESOME!!

Presentation wasn't as smooth as I'd want it to be today!

BUT at least it's over.. All that sleepless night of work was worth it! Finally!!...

HAHHKZ

Ok that's about it la I need to finish my Computer Game Graphics Design and Television Commercial Storyboarding as well as my ENTIRE Graphic Design Publication that's totally Not done!

Ok See yous Peeps Tomorrow or Soon!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS There's another url I'm using for Bloggin on the go!

http://www.grieverez.tumblr.com

Temporary Spaces!~

2009-08-17T18:48:00.002+08:00

OK Snap.. there's a little problem with my blogger so guys if you wanna know what Im thinking etc... check out my tumblr..

Pretty simple address:

http://grieverez.tumblr.com

see the exact same..

But Don't Permanently link me up.. It's just temporary =]

Do continue tagging over here.. at my tagboard page..

V'ZeuLKiD

Uploads Uploaded!!!

2009-07-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hey all I've Uploaded the Photos from Da Shocase 8 Fashion Runway 2 into my Facebook...
Here's the Direct link.. And PLEASE SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST...

The MOMBOK BRUDDAS SPECIAL!!! Confirm you laugh until stomach ACHE hahahkz

V'ZeuLKiD

PS

Link here.. http://www.facebook.com/grieverez#/grieverez?v=photos

I love Fish~

2009-07-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

Yeay Fresh FIX... I'm sooooo very happy that you guys managed to do so well for Da Shocase 8..

I always believed in you guys and never for a second though you couldn't get a placing..

I'm so glad that you were the bomb and you followed their rules (Annoying Sick And STUPID RULES)
but at the same time played out your own styles..

Something I have to say about the Judges of this competition..
-Firstly, It's not a very huge event this year round compared to previous shocases and I found criticism to be quite harsh..
People will always be who they are.. not something you should tend to comment on even if you rule the judging..
-Secondly, the crews came here to perform/entertain and engage the audience.. Check out all the crews that went up on stage..
Notice the support... it came from most of those crews that dared to be different... Why? ask yourself before you comment..
-Thirdly, there will be criticism and there will be insult... Pick a dictionary if someone at your age doesn't know the difference between the two..

Other than that the event was really good.. the catwalk.. the people... the crews and even the Dancing Panda Bear...

I will upload the photos soon to FB...

YES ALL 400 of them T.T..

And last but not least thank you to those great people who made Shocase this year worth watchin.. I enjoyed watching every single performance!! The Tribute to MJ and also the rawkin' good times I had with Fresh Fix ytd and the past few weeks!! hahahkz

this is your photographer signing out

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

PS scream UNTIL SORE THROAT SIALS~ I sound like datuk jual Keropok!! HAHA

6 More days!~

2009-07-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Well so far soo good...

School hasn't been a nightmare.. It's Actually been fun this past few days.. I think I can afford to Sabo Kamil alot HUHUHU!!! (evil face)

Kamil's Reply: Shebuy!Shebuy!

LOL

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Today was a fun day for me.. Learning up on illustration design as a major and coming up with all new design ideas and schemes for concepts and drawings..

Whatsmore, After seeing the choreo today at Fresh Fix's Practice, I really am enjoying seeing the people here come together under one routine... ITS OOO SOOO AWESOME!!!

And now all I can do is praise them, Sync them as much as I can and also hopefully help them out with the costumes/props in anyway I can...

Hoorah To Fresh Fix!!!! =]

V'ZeuLKiD

All Good Things will Come to an End...

2009-07-18T11:46:00.009+08:00

And just like that Two Years In NAFA are gone.. =]

Year 3 Begins marking the end of my Promising School Life..

After this its off to NS..

Where I will test my mettle against the hordes of Men from this Country..

And Two years After that? work? Further Education?

Who knows... I don't...

In times like this its best to follow my Uncle's advice...

Go with the Wind Wherever it takes you...

You never know what tomorrow brings...

So lets spend the best in all our todays...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Happy Burpday Fee, Natiara & Ms Eng~ Greg misses you all =;D

All Good Things will Come to an End...

2009-07-18T11:46:00.008+08:00

And just like that Two Years In NAFA are gone.. =]

Year 3 Begins marking the end of my Promising School Life..

After this its off to NS..

Where I will test my mettle against the hordes of Men from this Country..

And Two years After that? work? Further Education?

Who knows... I don't...

In times like this its best to follow my Uncle's advice...

Go with the Wind Wherever it takes you...

You never know what tomorrow brings...

So lets spend the best in all our todays...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Happy Burpday Fee, Natiara & Ms Eng~ Greg misses you all =;D

Violence`

2009-07-16T13:58:00.002+08:00

I can't Believe last night,

I hit a Friend...

I really Hate violence..

V'ZeuLKiD

All the Things I want...

2009-07-14T12:52:00.003+08:00

Today I was thinking of all the things I wanna get with My Internship money!

I've had my sights set on a few things..

Shutter Shades..

Supra Shoes..

Some New Tees From Far East Or anywhere with cool Tees..

The Black Eyed Peas Latest Album The E.N.D. Exclusive in Red!

OMG!!!

I really can't wait for going on a spree but there's still something left on my list..

and that would be..

V'ZeuLKiD

Winners!~

2009-07-12T01:14:00.003+08:00

Winners appear in all walks of life..

did you know that a loser can be a winner too?

How?

Well I'll take one example.. Danceworks 09'

If at Danceworks Fad Faction had actually gotten through, Would Man, Kamil, Natiara and Bryan be able to perform for Breathe.. And Eventually Clinch 3rd Place?

Nope they wouldn't have...

In fact I feel that winners should be in fact abolished.. because the only thing that people gain from saying They won something is usually fame.. Negatively, leading to arrogance and jealousy from outside forces...

People should take winning humbly and keep it inside.. After all you could be today's news.. but tomorrows Trash... am I right?

That's why true winners never complain, never mention their trophies repetitively, never boast and never look down upon those they have triumphed over...

Today, I joined Fad Fact Batt 2!~

And I won the Solo Battle which Freaking surprised me la.. wth I seriously don't think that I am better than all of these talented pimples in my group.. Not at all hahkz... In fact If i had to say, I would have chosen Ashiqyn/Shahrul/Man/Kamil/Farid to win.. hakz I don't think that I should have won la basically...

But I have already said my peace in Fad Blog and I'm happy with it.. =]

Next after the session, we went to the airport where we actually learned the Boom Boom Pow Choreo and I was like SOO HAPPY TO LEARN IT.. secretly, I've been wanting to learn BBP for a very long time MY DREAM COME TRUE!

now i only got to nail one choreo that is I'm On.. and Brush up on Boom Boom Pow~

But other than that, So far, I forgot to mention that I will be a part of a crew called Fresh Fix that will be entering a competition called Dance Fury 09' organized by MDIS.... SO i'm quite pleased with the fact that I have made my move to step it up... Now I just gotta do it.. Step UP!

I Like that Boom Boom PoW!...hahkz

ok la on a birhgter note... MY FCKING INTERNSHIP IS OVER!!! FUHH~~~.... Which freaking gave me a headache... I GOT WHITE HAIR YOU KNOW BECAUSE OF IT!!! OMG LA! ...

I cannot believe it... anyways.. I think I'm quite tired to talk already..

OH YA I GOT NEW HAIR!!! SEE

I'm quite content with it.. LOL (inside Joke)... But all in all.. I feel very happy about it .. And I absolutely Loved the change Cept for my mom... whom doesnt like it all although everyone around her LOVES IT!! hahakz...

ok that's it.. I'm tired..

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

PS... Loved today.. Now if only I could end off my holidays with mhy head on someone's shoulder..

2009-06-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

I've got to some thinking and realised... hmmm... I'm contradicting myself once again...

I remember writing a post about relationships once this year...

It was talking about how I'd prefer to date someone i've gotten to know as friends first.. you knw.. I think that that is the best...

I've realised the benefits there are to getting to know someone before actually dating them.. that is you don't feel that you have to rush things, everything either works out or doesn't and if it doesn't to heck with it, there's nothing wrong, we can still be friends... =]

That's why I now remember that staying true to friends is important because they know you better, they can help you better and as the lucky suggest... It's lucky to be in love with your best friend because you can actually understand them better than yourself and vice versa..

I think that's the greatest relationship... =]

V'ZeuLKiD

270th and a Dedication

2009-06-28T15:12:00.001+08:00

My Tribute from my 270th Post... TO you Michael!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. Live on In Heaven..

2009-06-28T14:21:00.002+08:00

Ok I'll update for the sake of having to update.. hahkz

Well.. I guess..

I'm quite sad that MJ is gone.. been watching all his videos from the past..

I realised how's he's affected me growing up.. MJ is like my older brother in some ways that I lost contact with until I heard about his death.. and now I'm quite sad..

I mean this guy practically made a song that became my FIRST every favourite song..

It's that song you're listening to right now.. hakz

AND...

right now.. that's the only song that matters in my life because it plays tribute to a great singer/performer that no one will be able to live up to in my life..

MJ you will always be the best!

Now lets just take some time to concentrate on some other things..

Went out yesterday.. and the day before and the day before..

I've been going out NONSTOP sia.. omg.. it's crazy...

I really need to be released from my prison that is my INTERNSHIP!

a boring/horrible/unorganized work environment... OMG!

hahkz..

but yesterday was one of the best...

I was like I'm SO GLAD that I attended La' Da Fuse the Dance Comp at BBCC..

quite cool la.... hahkz!!...

went over there to support FFDC and everyone was so nice and good at the competition.. I tell you .. WOOO! my gawsh..

It's quite entertaining.. Plus... I'm SOO HAPPY FOR FHUNKIE STYLERZ and FFDC for Getting First & Third Respectively.. Well deserved wins!

Got to meet alot of old friends once again..

Though, I do have to admit, that I am feeling different.. as in I used to be so easy going and interactive that if I were to meet someone new BANG i get to know them immediately.. ahahkz.. but Rest assured I don't go around the street banging people.. HAHAHHAHA

Sounds wrong..

OOOOOK! o.O

soo .. i shall upload the pics to FB soon after I've filered out the good from the bad.. trust me I think this time there are a LOT of bad. hahkz.. My camera doesn't do so well in dark environments..

But I guess.. I will have to make do with it.. ehe..

OK!

So thank you Izzy and Voguelicious for the wonderful Entertainment... Thank you to Fhunkie for A Complimentary Victory and THANK YOU FFDC FOR BEING WONDERFULLY EXCITING TO MY EYES! ahahakz..

wonderful peeps and Wonderful performances...!!!!

see you guys around..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS HAIR CUTTING SOON!!! TRANSFORM GREGOBOT!

One Week~

2009-06-27T10:57:00.003+08:00

Just one more week of hell.. I don't really have a goal set for this internship because they do not have their priorities set straight in the first place!

So how am I supposed to know what they want now... seriously...

anyways

The great thing about this holiday was that Although I've had a Fcuked UP internship, I've been able to spend alot of fun time with my friends! and that's what counts... Oh and also.. THIS!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS ... Dance Comp Later!! GO FFDC!

Tears that never see the Day~

2009-06-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

I've been wondering to myself lately...

What's the point of waiting to be found or searching out there...

Today, I spent hell at work....

Like I've mentioned before,

My bosses know as much about design just as much as a new born baby knows how to do brain surgery...

I spent 6 weeks of my Life.. creating logos... Doing pointless PowerPoints, planning projects, contacting people from overseas, sending e-mails, template ideas, reading an over 200 page manual on how to do coding into a system that I've never seen and NEVER get used to in my Life and What's more, I have one more week left... To get everything done?

What's done you ask?

Like I've said my clients don't know what they want...

They've rejected and changed everything I sent them...

Boss (Day1): I Like this! I LIKE THIS!

Boss (Day2): Hmm I don't think this will work...

this is what my bosses do to me every 2 Days... so yea... this is the SHIT i've been facing for 30 over days...

I've been going to the airport lately for sessions...

I don't mind the sessions there and now I'm even getting to know more people from FFDC, but somehow, I don't know I feel like I'm just not getting it...

All I want is to be hugged right now...

Hugged and held tightly as I rest my head on your shoulder...

Whoever you may be.. :{

V'ZeuLKiD

PS What I want most right now.. is a Hug.. Nothing materialistic can beat that...

Friends!

2009-06-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

I miss lots of people since who knows when...

I hate my life right now... sigh... InternSHIT!

INTERNATIONAL INTERSHIT COMPETITION!!!

Sigh...

I can't stand all this BULLCRAP!... F*CKING BULLCRAP!...

I'm a designer..

JOB: DESIGN

NOT IN MY JOB: Editting, Powerpoint Presentations, Audio Recordings, Corporate Reports,

Coming up with Ideas for YOUR COMANPANY'S Campaign, Fitting your Company's needs according to your Style when YOU DON'T EVEN OWN THE COMPANY!

Heck.. Your Boss is telling you he doesn't like the designs... THUS you should?

a) Jump off the highest story

b) FcK the Wall

c) Go work as a Prostitute for Prostitutes

or d) all of the above and a bag of stale bread

I'm sorry your not even FIT to be in ANY category above.. That's HOW LOW YOU ARE YOU CRAP BOSS!

OH GAWD...

im turning into a demon bitch because of the stress that I'm facing at work.. I'm very afraid of myself...

I need this change...

I've posted my Pictures of the good times I've faced in FB...

what's my FB you ask?

http://www.facebook.com/grieverez

Coming soon..

Old Greg is coming back to a life Near You!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS louis? What movie you wanna watch with me?

is there anyone out there looking to help me find happiness.. I'll make you happy too..

Dance Subaru

2009-06-06T09:45:00.003+08:00

Would someone like to go watch Dance Subaru with me?

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps i wouldn't mind a date for this hahak!

Fatigued...

2009-06-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

Alot's happened this past 3 weeks...

Namely...

Went to church..

haven't been there in months... (Half a Year Literally)

"Celebrated" my Grandmother's 10 Year Death Anniversary with relatives..

The same day as Fad Faction's Preliminary round at LIVE IT UP!

Supported/Created and Preped up Fad Faction for the Breathe Dance Comp.

Did they're Props

Did they're Tee

Did they're Money

Witnessed and Supported the Faddies till they got the 2nd Runner Up in the Finals...

BAIK FAD!!!

Started my Internship...

Faced Helll of Shitloads of Work with deadlines everyday..

BUT i'm doing alot of non-designer work, bringing my Mac to word every Single day and Still having to learn programming and facing shit from my Upper people whom cannot keep their mind focused..

Fallen in and out of sooo Many crushes... But at the same time looking at the fact that I'm Unstable... and no matter How much I want a prince charming to come rescue me, I know that If I myself don't get my act together, It's gonna be useless for me to keep hoping something magical will happen...

So ya.. not a very happy holiday.. and not veryy happy weeks to come.. thank god Faddies won 3rd at breathe to boost my happiness level this hols.. sigh..

hopefully things get better...

V'ZeuLKiD

Sad Nothings

2009-05-24T00:13:00.002+08:00

Today was the BEST and the WORST day EVER!

Today,

I had planned to finish all my Crowbar work to submit to Bel cox I am working now and It's VERY VERY HARD to find the time to pass the work to school and get everything done properly as well as assorted.

So I was almost done with the work compilation this morning... Then suddenly I realised that I hadn't filled up the forms.. So I called Hui Ting up to confirm with her about the forms again.

From there, I saw that I wouldnt' be able to meet Bel to pass her my Work..

I had to fill up 12 FORMS...

9 entry Form

1 Payment Form

1 Final Submission List Form

and 2 Forms from school

That is A lot of Work to get done and so i decided to postpone the meeting with her to Monday Morning...

I have to take emergency Leave now or "Half Day"

In order to fill this time up...

Nevermind so I though later things would be better...

So I managed to finish the forms then I met up with Hui Ting cox she also went to meet with Bel to pass her work Up... and once that was done, I met her At timezone where she was playing games with her guy...

From here, we went to do a Check on my forms for submission... outside Timezone... After going through all the details and what else I haven't had the chance to get ready yet to submit, I went to Ishimura with Hui Ting And Sebastian and we just relaxed and ate some jap food before I left to meet Fad for Man's Birthday Surprise Celebrations...

I actually like the fact that Man was being appreciated today...

He deserved it all because I feel that whatever Hana said, it is true..

Man is a nice guy... He is a gentleman to the ladies... he is a Passionate person about his work/interest... He is also comical and very patient... Compassionate about people and animals alike ... I feel that he should deserve all the good things in the world...

GOD I wish I could have a BF like Man... SIAL

Anyways I was going to his party and i wasn't feeling so great... very tired for some reason...

I really enjoyed myself there today.. made a few new friends and stuff... and the activities rocked....

Man has some very good friends... and he deserves everything that happened today and more in future....

I'm glad I'm your friend...

anyways.. after that as we were leaving I realised that something was missing... And I felt wierd because I couldn't find it on over and over after searching..

ANd the eventually when I got home.... I confirmed it.. I lost my 243 checque that my dad gave to me THIS MORNING!!

FUCK MY LIFEE

I told my dad just a while ago about it hoping he would be calm and composed about it..

I was kidding myself..

My Dad told me to go Crack my head and that I should go and burn 15 dollars because that's how much it cost him to cancel a check

Sigh.. I'm quite tired now...

I think i'll take a nap for now.. and finish my competition work tomorrow... before I can submit...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS your words always do hurt to me... rarely does it make me happy...

Love~

2009-05-17T11:32:00.005+08:00

It was beautiful..

It was Amazing..

And one day I hope that we can all Love each other like this day..

Each day...

Every day...

Forever....

V'ZeuLKiD

PC died Intern Sucks PinkDots Love

2009-05-17T10:48:00.003+08:00

I love how ytd turned out.. it was a really wonderful day..

A day to honour all forms of love in one beautiful city and where the people of so many

races/religions/cultures have come together just to celebrate this one event

I dint cry off course but it was a day that i shall forever remember.. IT warmed us all

all of us from all over...

WONDERFUL DAY!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I have all the pics up on facebook.. so do check em out.. I didn't edit though ahkz...

The Dot is Changing(hopefully)

2009-05-16T02:05:00.001+08:00

It's Pink Dot Later... I can't wait for multiple reasons... hheeh lets have lots of fun later Is...

V'ZeuLKiD

Interning Insanity

2009-05-14T00:08:00.003+08:00

I start my Internship tommorrow and I'm kinda half hearted about it... I dont know maybe I can tell the lady that I don't feel quite comfortable with the arrangement of things and that I am afraid to cause them trouble rather then help them? hmm but then again I feel like I want to try it because I've never done corperate.. So it's my MAJOR chance to do it... CORPERATE BABY!

Should I ? Should I not ?

It's like the flower's already lost it's petals and my answer lies within the thorns...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... i have another post that I was supposed to post before this but it got messed up because of color schemes as they appear on my mac.. FCuKed UP!

Sayonaaaaaaaaaaaara Year 2

2009-05-11T03:08:00.007+08:00

Well Well..

School's a Bye Bye.. although I am not confident in Maintaining my confirmedd CHOP CHOP!! GpA of 3.0, I am VERY VERY confirmed.. CHOP CHOP going to pass.. and that's a DEFINITE YES YES!!!...

oh ya... Btw.. YEAR 2 IS OVER!! OVER I TELL YOU !!!

OMFG!! this is the first and hopefully last time i use that Abbreviation..

I just cannot believe that wow.. I spent 2 years in Nafa already... and It's showing but I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!....after the assessment Which went ok.. Not my best presentation.. BUT definitely Fun to go to...

It was very.. Hmm.. Bittersweet.. I was like.. Hmm I finally know who my true friends are and who are the people I can count on.. Who are the one's to watch out for and who cannot be helped with ...

I've also realised that I have ddefinitely grown out of this... for one.. I have unleashed a Bitch within me this year.. I have actually found someone that ACTUALLY irritates THE HELL out of me.. and in a REALLY bad way.. GOD HELP HER!!!

But anyways Hols have started and I shan't continue going on about it because I know I am better than that and I should NOT hold a grudge.. although I have to admit that I it is very VERY VERY!!!! important that I avoid HER for now. hahaha if not I might unleash my "KAMEHAMEHAAAAA" all over her sorry ass LOL!.. which I have kept silent since forever and don't wish to SHOW to anyone =D..

ok enough anime abreviations...

How's Life?

OOH Yello Jello after assessments WAS FUN!!! i dont know about my classmates but I ENJOYED MYSELF!!! I have fallen for Retro.. SHARMILA YOU HAVE CONVERTED ME!! haahhahahhaah

and next... ermm Dance.. ok I know STAGNANT... nothing coming up soon on my end.. but Faddies are dancing in an upcoming show on the 30th and I have to come up with a crew tee....

CREW TEE ... its a big step for me.. cox a crew tee means a crew logo and A CREW LOGO Means.. that I have to come up with something from the HEART... and yes this crew has definitely taken a part of my heart.. and become apart of me as well.. so I have to come up with a solid Logo... and it must be from my heart too...

hahah

that's my homework for the next few days or so.. and LASTLY...

INTERNSHIP!!!

INTERNSHITTTT!!!

Yess InternSHIT!!

I have to find one ASAP!!! if not DIE DIE Must do internship in December.. and I WANT TO TRAVEL in DEC!!!

FUDGE IT!!

hahahkz

I have emailed my resume to various companies.. and stuff waliao damn hard to do resume can...

Sooooo If anyone got lobang.. and I'm talking about the Job kind of LOBANGS arh.. don't come to me and point at your nose, mouth or ear holes and tell me LOBANG NAH!!! I tell you I will SHOVE SOMETHING up your LOBANG.. and I know it sounds wrong.. hahahahahahahah

ok that's about it...

Ok sooo next thing is..

Bed...

NIGHT NIGHT!!!

ok I shall upload alot more stuff for my asssessments and whatnot on Deviantart REALLY SOON within the NEXT WEEK... and I shall post the link up so you guys can go check me out... =] till then.. Take care...

V'ZeuLKiD Grego

PS.. Finally Feeling Free from All this Misery =]

Proc

2009-04-23T02:15:00.002+08:00

It's like 2:15am

Ice Lemon Tea on my Door

A Dirty Bed

Papers Strewn Everywhere

And EVIL FACEBOOK

MY goals...

Finish DD

Finish VS

Finish GD

but I know it won't happen..

no one's on my mind right this moment..

So I'll just keep quiet and endure this a bit more longer...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS it's not as hard as I think it is going to be...

Drained

2009-04-19T00:04:00.005+08:00

Just feeling way tooo tired these days...

I'm not myself..

Here's what the old me is like..

I wasn't vocal but I would correct people humbly..
Patient was my middle name..(well actually it's albert but you get what i mean)
There is always time for me in people's lives (if they let me in)

One more thing I felt kinda wierd...

The other day last week I felt like hakim..

Kimzzey.. I miss ya dude...

Your one heckuva Dancer/Cheerleader...

He's really good but my crew.. we didn't really treat him like the person we should have treated him

He had hope.. he was semangat..
but we didn't think...
In the end we let him slip from us..
As a friend..
As a dancer..
As a companion..

He's happier now in his own way..
I'm glad he is..

I now know how he felt..
I'm facing alot of similar things like..
discrimination(everyday in class)..
a used tools(being used by people and taken advantage off for my talents)..
finance troubles(tight on budgets)..
lost of commitment(doing alot of work for things that aren't my passion)..

I wish that certain people would step up to the plate where they need to
whilst others need to know that expectations must be lowered...

Do not always depend on others to get the job done.. take initiative..

IT'S VERY HARD for me right now... I don't like feeling this way
It's affecting me.. my studies.. the way I look at myself.. I feel like I'm
fading...

Away... Into Nothingness...

Can someone please reaffirm me...
Reaffirm my existence...

I don't want to fade..
I don't want to lose myself

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... I'm just fading

And Life Starts at Z

2009-04-13T19:44:00.004+08:00

Working my way backwards from the front of the back..
Whatever that's supposed to mean..

anyways.. today We Were SUPPOSED to present in DIC class.. GRR
stupid presentation got cancelled cox another group cut our Queue..
Sucks to be Group 3.. if we were just ONE number closer to the front... ARGH!!! DAMMIT!!!

oh well.. now we have to probably wait another two weeks before we actually present.. sigh... I wanna get it off my chest... FAST!! there's so much to do and as each week goes by there's going to be more and more information being unleashed about my chosen graphic artist.. so i gotta step it up.. I've got to really.. feel like I AM BRODY!!!

I AM BRODY
I AM BRODY
I AM GROCY
??

I AM GROCY!?

WTF LOL

hahahhahah i seriously typed that out by mistake but i lioke peanut butter spread so I'll keep the post that way.. HAHAHAHA

tomorrow MUST try ICE CHOCOLATE!!! HUU HUU!!!

and last but not least.. I need to come up with a not only nice .. BUT GOOD AWESOME AMAZKING NEVER THOUGHT UP BEFORE ADVERTISING CAMPAIGN!!!

and do it FAST!!!

sigh......

sniff sniff

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. still Lonely Only.. but thank you Aiman.. you've been too kind... God Bless...=]

2009-04-12T02:24:00.004+08:00

WOW.. POST no. 254.. how random.. ok.. so anyways.. Had a chat wit m ex today.. bout stuff... wondering why I'm still contactin ? well I did say this and I want to blog it here so that at least I won't have to save the msg from being deleted from my phone..

Scenario: The Day he Confessed to me About already Having a BF
Regarding: His Problems and our status from that day onwards...
My last Msg to him That Day:

"Don't worry at all... I'm serious... But I'm also serious about being truthful... Honesty may not be your best policy but it sure as hell feels better than bottling it up... I think you deserve friends around you because it's your kind of nature that you need someone to be there for you... I'm not a pzychoterapist that's going to perscribe you treatment because there's none for disappointment or ignorance from attention but I can offer you friendship and an ear...

And if it would help lighten your shoulder.

I forgive you.. :]

there Fuuuh!"

ya I added that last part too.. hahahz

Well atleast now I feel more relieved that we didn't go thru with it.. the fact that there was alot on your mind to begin with and that you are just confused and floating around... I always believed that Bis can be different.. and.. I won't give up... for some reason I'm just been attracted to bis.. NOT ON PURPOSE.. it's like it's just connection and chemistry.. 1st Ex = bi.. 2nd also Bi.. third was gay and now 4th is Bi.. well So much so.. I think that I shall not comment on all this I know there are some of you here that don't care to hear about this other world or get associated with it... but it's not as cold as it sounds... or evil either.. you get to meet a person every once in a blue moon that will change your life.. someone that sets themselves as a model.. and you'd idolise and learn to be like them because they are good role models to follow.. and its not ALL about sex either...

Popular to misconception.. two holes and two dongs don't go together right? .. well Then ever think about two hearts.. two thoughts.. two souls... there are deeper things in between the lines...

OK MOVING ON(don't wanna sound like I'm preaching to recruit more AJs) lol

anyways..

As for today I did my usualy two pronged dance team trainig.. I feeel a bit more confident today.. taugh Shiva the steps and met up with Fawid.. we had a 3-man practice today.. WOW.. I'm starting to get really demotivated.. i wonder how I can block out the frustration from not having the entire 8 man team down for performance... WHAT IS GOING ON!... C'mon people.. Let's Work together on this one Aite!!

and then straight away after that I rushed off to go catch Fad Faction in ACTION!.. Today was Choreo day and I truthfully Didn't have any choreo.. except for bits in my head and the Song I wanted to do.... other than that.. I still managed to score a B for the choreo.. WOW im impressed.. although I didn't do so well.. but I was stilll quite Shocked.. like WHUT!!! a B!~..

its so impromptu.. wht the SaK!~...

ok anyways.. CHINAMEN DIES!!! BRA I'm Gonna Kill YA!!!

TAK BOON.... (BRA's retarded Face)

hahahahahaahahhahaa

ok sooooooo

After practice and discussion about upcoming Dance Comp... I want to enter the Tee Design Segment.. Under Freelance... and I want to do something COOL!~~

hehehe Sketches Sketches here I COME!

Next.. Ran off immediately after Practice to go to Craig's Place for Dinner.. We ate Satay.. and Some Chicken Kebab style thing.. and I had MILO!!! again! -__-..

I think my blood is 75% Milo by now.. hahaahaa

Ya and so I met my aunt from aussie who's down for a while she'll be visiting people whilst on a "work Holiday"... and she gave me HOME MADE DESSERT!!! and as well as TIRAMISU CANDY AND EASTER EGGS!!! WOHOOO~

I got my sugar boost for the rest of the nite.. Imma be trippin.. hahakz

got lots of Stuff to get down by tomorrow.. that includes PPT! - Design In Conetxt... Website - Digital Media... Recipe BOOK POP & Poster - Design Drawing

But Before that I need my cup of COKE!!! and its right there..

gulp
gulp
gulp
gulp

momentary silence~!

AHHHHHHHH!~~

nice!!...'

ok Imm OFF!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS We're all After the Same Rainbow's End .. Waiting Round the Bend.. My Huckleberry Friend

To my Dramatic Side

2009-04-10T23:05:00.003+08:00

Well I re-read my posts and I realised that I am so Emo..

But my feelings still stay..
Cox I am an Emotional person..
and I would really pity people whom have to deal with someone like me
Cox for the matter of fact that they would have to be able to withstand my occassional mood swings..

yes this is occassional.. I know it may seem like it's frequent but if you check the dates of which i Blog you would realise that I only blog when I start to feel compelled towards a certain emotion.. and usually that emotion is sadness... well simply put you have to suffer a whole lot before you enjoy happiness..

I just hope that my happiness is coming really really soon.. where is my rainbow?

http://www.lshs64.com/enjoytheride.html (this kinda made my Good Friday better)

You're very Welcome Aiman.. I really enjoyed the show I was so absorbed into it..
The storyline.. the dance.. the lighting and staging effects..
Even the cultural parts.. which I soo don't normally enjoy..

And no problem.. call me when you guys need help backstage or whatever.. I really miss being in the theatre.. Oh those days of past..

hahahakz

I wish I could be back in Sec school in the Drama club.. ELDDS for my time.. and react all my scenes as a father... as a tyrant.. as a director...

As many other things.. haiz.. life just has to pass us by you know.. I feel like an old man of 80 sitting in his rocking chair and reminiscing.. OK enoughs enough..

I gotta go finish up My Design Drawing and Digital Media Projects..

So to whomever's reading this ermm.. rigght.. thankz.. hahkz

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps.. Good luck to all the Grads for your Grad Shows.. ok.. WORK HARD!!! and ALL THE LUCK from Greggy!! Although I'm not so lucky these days haha..

Lonely Only

2009-04-09T18:59:00.003+08:00

If I ever come up with a brand Name it'd be the name of my title ..

I felt rejected today..
No I feel rejected everyday...

I feel like whevever I go people are right behind me criticisizing the way I dress..
the way I walk..
the way I eat..
the way I talk..
the way I laugh..
the way I just present myself..

And it's finally taken it's toll on me today..
I was the last person to leave class today..
carrying with me my feelings of regret and rejection on my advertising class..
I felt my thoughts echo in my head in my surroundings.. just encompassing me with thoughts of death and dread..
I just wanted to go somewhere quiet..

Where I know nobody..
and just..
die..
die there in solace..

Cox i don't feel like living right now..
in this moment..
in this time..

It's like Jei's Suicide Poster..

I feel like commiting the worst kind of suicide..
Mental Suicide..

and just stop thinking altogether and be a inanimate vegetable..

I don't feel like dancing for the rest of the week..
I haven't done any of my homework to my satisfaction neither have i Done the Fad Homework..

and Neither have I done any thinking for dance..I want to help out farid but In my other mind for dance I think farid is a burden to me.. and he's not.. but my stupid brain is trying to put blame on others.. I HATE BLAME..

I thought this up before.. Blame is an excuse to be Lame.. as Fault will make someone Fall...

these two things should've never Existed...
As how I feel right now...

I'm off to binge till I can have enough energy to cry myself to sleep..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Why can't I just find someone to be there for me.. why?
amIdestinedtobe

Lonely

What Did I Do Tuhday?

2009-04-06T01:06:00.002+08:00

The Old the New and the Something Blue!!

What's old?
-I met muiz Today

The New?
-Muiz's BF

Something Blue?
-Met my Ex too

hahakz.. he was caring something Blue.. If I'm not wrong..

Anyways.. Mirul, Muiz & Aidil met up with me today for some catchin up.. I was shy to talk because I had just met Aidil and Vice Versa... And whatsmore it's been ages since i met Mirul.. So I don't knw how to converse with him... I can talk with exes no problem.. just that if I haven't talked to them in a while.. Like A LONG WHILE.. it's kinda wierd.. hahkz.. but anyways..

I passed Muiz my Borders Card the one that my aunt gave me 6 years ago but I didn't use hahah cox i just hadn't any idea what to use it for and sooo.. lalala.. I didn't use it in the end.. Since Muiz has been nothing but a good friend to me.. I just decided to give it to him and He is a Bookworm after all ahahaak...

Muiz YOUR LUCKY.. if only I could find someone like you have found.. either way he's a nice guy that was waiting for you.. How many guys out there actually wait.. Now I'm compelled to think I'm doing something wrong somewhere... Is there like a mark on my face or do I have BO or maybe it's just my long hair... what's the reason why I don't have guys chasing after me? hmm not that I want them to it's just that it would be nice to have someone want to see me and want to be there for me.. it's been so long since I had someone like that.. even if it was my own delusions to recent events.. I still haven't felt wanted and/or cared.. so I guess the major sadness in my life right now would be that I don't have that someone.. including friends that are like that.. cept for Rose but then again I'm looking for that feelin that can't come from a friend.. I'm lookin for that feelin' ...

That feelin...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Someone save me from (dream)NIGHTMAREWEAVER!!!!

I'm Dead

2009-04-02T23:59:00.004+08:00

That's how i feel...

93%... Daiso... Nasi Lemak... Facebook is Evil

Visual Studies = 0%

That's practically what's happening...

it's ok it's just my record...

Today I realised my mistakes in Design Drawing, had presentation that I practically spent my whole night up arranging... I feel like I'm living a Lie

Right now... everything I do doesn't really matter

r because it's all soo plastic.. Why eh? Why am I going through this.. is it because I did something bad? Did I really do something bad.. ok Fine I'm sorry.. to whatever or whomever i did wrong too... I hope the squeakiness ends..

Made my Dad's Namecard:

One of my Major Highlights of today..

I'm not so crazy about it but at least it's effort ... The background is a past project of mine he insisted on using whilst the line effects and fades were just super-imposed graphics... I used Garamond Typeface under Regular Weight and contrasted the body text with black and white to clearly differentiate how one should look at a certain part first (namely the Name) before glancing at the other part (namely the Contact details)

Don't ask....

But basically seeing things as they are, I think it's just a simple design... I'm not gettin all that much from it.. jsut 20 and it already cost 15 to print and cut and and whatever...

I just redited this post and decided to post it.. but anyways

TODAY.. (now the 4th April)

Went to meet Nafa Dance Peeps at Esplanade UG for Prac then off to meet up with Faddies for Battle.. I lost AS expectd but it's ok I don't mind Kamil was just really good.. and I was just no feeling it today.. dang tired.. i Injured myself trying to do a jumping side split and i didn't tell anyone about it.. why should I complain...

Anyways Kamil's Brudda is soo cute.. and OMG he can break at that age I think he'll be pro by 12 hahakz.. your family is definitely multi-talented Mil!!... ZETAI!

hahkz...

okok... so I'm Uploading pics later.. after I'm done with my projx.. I'm sorry peeps my Finals Are KIELLING ME!!....

And My personal life isn't so Great either.. Sigh...!!

Thanks to Muiz my man for being so Nice to me =D... and OH YA meeting you tomorrow for Bfast.. Wonder where we'll be eating... Oh well.. enjoy!!! Hehe!!

Oh yes Aiman I will be attending your Play OMG i can't believe its the finale already well I'll be there cum Monday... I don't know if you'll be reading this though... hahkz but I'll be there and I know what they say in theatre.. THE LAST PERFORMANCE is THE BEST!!! ahahakz.. So you better make sure it is!! haahkz

Finale's Finales

V'ZeuLKiD

Solitare

2009-03-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

Although I don't mind doing what I'm doing at the moment... Staying in school.. And listening to sappy love songs while watching anime and doing research (Hey who says guys can't multi-task)

Sorry today's lecture joke..

but anyways...

I have something to report.. I'm single again.. Yes.. and Available this time..

nope not advertising(although this sounds like a shameless plug)

But I'm just not going to blame the other party for not it being successful.. he's in a pretty messed up situation himself.. so no hate to him..

RIGHT NOW! lets focus on the now.. because it's all that matters..

He says he's sorry things have to be this way.. I say don't worry.. I'm ok.. Daijougou...

Well it's quite obvious I'm not fine with it.. but still I will be alright eventually so I'm going to be thinking long-term..

I'm not going to be in the market for the moment.. I need to concentrate on school.. Why does it sound like I'm like every other gay guy.. when the break up happens/break off (not really a break up eh) or whatever you classify this thing under.. somehow you will think that this is like too bad that person didn't go through with this thing and experience the relationship.. you know those type of .."It's your loss not mine" kinda things.. well I've chosen ever since this ended not to be like that...

It's not to be turned to blame or fault.. it's just an experience.. and I will learn from it..

I remember mummy telling me I'm to Nice...

So What If I am?

Mummy: You will get taken Advantage off easily and be put into a corner...

Me: Well, That's how I choose to live...

(because... I Will come out stronger...)

In a way I feel more mature about the whole thing.. I talked to Jia gui last nite about it.. He's so nice to be like the one telling me that guy is a bad guy (that guy said it himself) but I did tell him he's not.. he's got his own reasons...

In overall.. how am I feeling? how is everything with me? that's one question I've been asked by Jia Gui the only one at this point...

I'm fine

(No I'm not...)

[But I will be]

I will be able to get through this

(I held my own hand last night so that I wouldn't cry)...

[And I didn't]

I have work to concentrate on and final term papers to get through this

(keeping myself busy so I won't have to be depressed over the fact that I wasn't good enough once again)

[But I will learn from this experience]

These thoughts rushed through my head

I will hardly pester you in class to go eat if all I want to do was eat

If I contiuously pester... IT means I need company..

but.. you just thought of yourself and your work.. and I guess you gals just had to leave without even suggesting we eat at orchard or somewhere... nvm.. I understand it's final term .. we need to think what's best for ourselves...

after all we live in an unkind world... where we get to be truly happy on occasion for the reason that too much of a good thing is not a good thing.. so I guess it's time to be unhappy again

(unhappy and stressed)

[...]

I'm on the fence

I WANNA DANCE SAINTS... FADDIES

... LETS GO DANCE PLEASE!!!

I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW!

V'ZeuLKiD

please take note that I'm not against you.. this is my mind speaking as it is.. and my actions do not reflect what my mind thinks.. I'm just absorbing and taking things slow so that I can be better soon so don't worry Joe.. Don't worry..

I'll Just Be Right Here Waiting

2009-03-17T08:55:00.001+08:00

As the posts' title suggest.. I'll just be Waiting...

No I won't be Cliche and mushy and play that song... =] Instead here's a latest track I've fallen in love with

=]and Oh ya Faddies please do check out the new blog I will update when I'm better and more free..

Oh and People I've started opening my businesses with friends... Yup yup.. Namecards/Stickers... You name it.. I can get it done for you at a good rate... and GOOD Quality.. Will upload freelance materials in my deviantart soon so keep on the look out for that soon VERY SOON!!! hahakz.. love youusss

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I Lap You long time.. I don't know why exactly you've taken so long to reply but.. as long as you're able to tell me that you're still around I'll be ok.. hahkz I try not to think too much But need some help from you also hahkz.. give me a little comfort msg from time to time... doesnt have to be everyday but ya.. hahkz you get the picture.. =D

WOW.. Updatoooo!~

2009-03-09T19:34:00.004+08:00

Ok OK OK.. SUMIMASENNNNN!!

ok ok...

soo here's what's been goin on...

I have been swamped with work from school... competitions... dance... activities... and social issues

But above all it was assessments week... So I apologize for that... Greatly...

ON a POSITIVE!!!

There's been a lot of blessed things that have been happening to me... And then it's all versus one Big Negative...

So lets start with Positive...

+++++++ =]

OK so for assessments I managed to finish my work and Now all I'm left with as of today is one last assessment and Two Competitions that I've signed up For... SLA ART 09' and Safety @ Work

Other than that I have Furbee's Namecard to design and That's about done.... so I will get everything over with by tomorrow.. and yes that's it and I'll be a freeeeeeeeeeee WILLY!!!!! hahakz lol....

ok so that aside I have a wonderful new gang of misfit pimples that I've gotten to know... They are simply the most horrible, creepy, slimy, disgusting, furry, gangsterish, Anak PKMs on the planet... hahahahahakz....

They are none other than Fad Faction...

They are just soooo adorable la... and I feel like a farmer whenever I'm around them.. Oh wait let me make that CAVEMAN! in accordance to bryan... and LOUIS hahakz the animal Lover...

Thankz to this buncha people they've made my life sooo much more horrible.. or entertaining... or something to do with happiness la but im gonna say creepy... hahahahhahah ...

But ok what's the deal with themmm.. well I was recruited by them for a performance during March just this past saturday... and It was none other than... DANCEWORKS 09'... ZOMG... yes i know.. to all the dancers reading it's the biggest among most popular dance comps in all of SG... and yes now as of that day.. It was my first ever Comp to DEBUT!!!!

ARGH!!!! It was a mixed of emotions all throughout that day but Also Very ENERGETIC cox of the award we won.... SO HAPPY LA SEH...

We didn't win first but We Won MOST Hi-ENERGETIC DANCE along with the Fantastic Kidz.... But stilll we all are going to Improve... and go forward... hahkz...

Well Here's The Vid and also do visit them at Friendster and Facebook.. jUst look up FAD FACTION...

Ok Wait so Don't worry ASC We Will dance together again soon.. hopefully once everyone is settled in your own things.. School... Family.. Friends... Love.. whatever it maybe lets hope for the best and pull through together... Ok...

Now School-wise like I've said I had assessments... And Prospects are looking up... I think I might be able to score high marks for certain modules BUT I was lucky to get to know that I've Already gotten a couple of Bs and stuff here and there... There could be... might Be.. A surprise A Grade somewhere... But that's all good .... Now The Main Game is coming up.. FINAL ASSESSMENTS OF YEAR 2... (imagine the words in capitals flying towards the screen japanese anime style with a hyper Narrator Voice)

Yes... so I'm gonna just concentrate and GO FARRR!!! if i can get things done faster.. then Hoorah... I'll go even further.. hahkz and well ya I guess I'm hoping for the best...

Maintaing Bs are not an easy task in NAFA mind you.. =[ tiring

okok

so....

The last piece of Good News would definitely have to be that in the past few weeks My relationship with different people have been improving and slowly increasing to better heights.. not just on a family level but at different levels too.. I'm also now Cousins with a friend from secondary school ever since my cuz got married to her cuz but altho it may not be blood related we are becoming closer too.. HAHAKZ everyone is getting soo fun to be around lately... and stuff omg.. I wonder why I'm so Hyper.. and it's good to see friends so HAPPY ...

Now lets take a breather....

Let's go to the Negative news..

Well lets start a little happy..

My dear dear dear Joe-kun.. I know we haven't been in contact for a while... and It's been very quiet this Handphone of mine.. Without your name poppin up these days...

I keep asking myself ...why ... no reply ... are you ok?... I even asked whether you're alive..

I know I remember you saying that Your reservice was coming up and you'd be gone for a while.. but without so much as a goodbye to confirm that it would be around this time maybe... I stil don't know whether you're in camp or you're just having problems and don't wanna share it with me... And if circumstances are such that you can't talk with me.. or just don't want to talk to me.. I guess I don't know ... I might be over-thinking again.. but then again wouldn't most people react this way when... ... ..

When the one..

The one you love is not around you for such a long period of time...

I feel like running away right now....

but at the same time I want to be strong because I want to show you that I can be the strong guy that you might want to have holding you tightly in my arms...

Things sound bad but I'm willing to salvage this bond.. we aren't a couple yet I know... but I believe that we don't have to be a couple to have a connection.. We don't need a ring to share a emotion..

All I need.. Right now... is you ...

And that section was just for you Joe-kun..

That's the only negative that I can pluck out right now.. it may seem like im Desperate and possessive but all i really want is your affection... your acknowledgement.. to pet me on my head and say everything is alright like when Misaki is acknowledged by Usagi... And in return I'll be the one to take you by your hand and say I'll be with you till forever..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS thank you to all the avid surporters that came down and helped in the cheering for our crew.. our team.. THANK YOU PIMPLES!

This Valentine's

2009-02-14T22:16:00.003+08:00

How happy I am to See you... it is indescribable by any true words... so indescribable that.. well I guess that how this blog ends and begins...

Happiness is priceless as are you... =]

Thankz for spending the Eve of This Valentines all through the early hours of the morning with me... You Charco.. hahahahkz...

V'ZeuLKiD

That Night

2009-02-03T16:57:00.002+08:00

And Since I know you do read my blog now... It makes me a lot more happier... HAHA!!

Ok... so anyways... Everything else that happened after I met Rose in my previous post... things turned out for the better....

I'm suddenly having a feeling deep in the pit of my stomach that my works this Term won't be so interesting.. but I hope to prove myself wrong and score well.. SO PLEASE BODY don't pay any attention to that damn pessimistic mind... hahahaha

Thank you.. Joe-dono... I'm quite glad I could meet you last nite... and no it's ok that you talked on the phone with your friend I didn't mind at all... I feel alot more comfortable around you now too.. I think that what I said about you in the previous post still applies though.. I need to tell my dumb mind that we're not a couple.. but It's ok to treat you like a close friend for now.. and YES... I don't mind accompanying you if you wanna lepak or for any pasals or masalahs... (take note: In PROPER MALAY there is no "s" at the end of pasal or masalah... which both mean problem)

Please ignore the words in the brackets above and in this part(HELLO! boy whom failed O' level Malay here trying to educate others.. listen to him and confirm you will fail)

hahahahaha

I can't wait for dance this sat and sunday... FADDIES!!! OH FADDIESSSSSS!!! oh yes and I can't wait for dance on friday too.. finally I get to dance with more ASC peepos... AND yess I will remember to wear pants that won't tear while dancing.. FOR BOTH GROUPS!!!!

hahaahahha

Ok ok.. and don't worry huiting no need to say sorry.. I think ytd was just my unlucky day... SUPER SWAY AH!!! hahakz... *(PS I don't know how to spell the chinese version)

all righto.. I gotta get back to my work Or else confirm get killed by Christabel tomorrow... I can't wait to see her blush again at Tanat's Research Ideas for packaging on SEX TOYS hahahahhahahahahahaha...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... And that my friends... is PRICELESS!

Easier to Cry

2009-02-02T14:37:00.002+08:00

Today is, to date, my most absolute worst day of the entire year so far...

How bad can A teen at Nafa suffer...?

Well lets see..

First of all I didn't get to sleep a wink all night long as I was at Mac doing my Website design draft thinking that my teacher would whole-heartedly accept my creative out of the box concept that is totally different from what you see out there.. Then I spent about an hour and a half on my iLearn History Project.. And I was really stumped and trying my bests to absorb the knowledge through the coke, Caramel Latte and Hotcakes with Sausage, Hashbrown & Milo As the night turned to day and Mac became my official Home for the moment...

But, it doesn't end there... I was hopingly awaiting a little hello or hi from Joe-kun as He said he would drop by and He Did I saw him... but right around that time there was this sneaky guy that kept eyeing at my lappy so I couldn't go out to say hi to him at the counter whatsmore, he was with a friend so I didn't want to be obvious or disturb him.. But that didn't hurt it was the fact that he didn't reply to my message after I asked him whether he was going back home after he bought his stuff... He looks damn discreet when he's not near me.. Makes me think that I'm not the right one at all now... =[ I guess I'm not anyways.. Lucky were just friends huh?

Anyways... after the horrifying brain cracking on ideas for my website and iLearning... It was already 6:30 AM and so I headed home to take a quick shower and leave for school...

Got Back.. Mom was walking around asking soo many redundant questions which I don't even know what they were I was like partially numb to hearing and feeling... My gums were bleeding for some wierd reason but I couldn't taste the blood either...

Then went off to school.. The damn train was like more packed than usual and I WAS EARLY FOR GOODNESS SAKE...

that's not the end of it though... I got to school I felt extra in class today.. although I have to admit I was able to master some parts of Dreamweaver... Then everyone looked kinda moody today.. Come time to show our ideas my teacher rejected mine for being too "complicated and cox it will hail a big file size... so much for being in a creative field... =[

Then after that with the sad feeling of having to redo my stuff I asked if huiting and Angie wanted to follow me to eat.. they were like.. we ate already so... with my temper and empty stomach at this point in time, I was like... I'm totally going to just go get food by myself...

So I said annoyed and with a callous nature " I'll go eat by myself then "

Then Went to get Chicken Curry Pie and got my hands dirty... then I wanted to get a Banana juice that cost $1.80 so I realised I only had $1.70... so I dug and dug my bag hoping that for once today my luck would turn around and there would be 10 cents somewhere...

THERE WAS!!! I was like I guess it was all in my mind... so I go up to the uncle and ask for banana juice..

"Sorry Sold OUT!"

WTF WTF WTF WTF...

SO I ordered strawberry juice which caused me to put my coins away in my god foresaken wallet with holes and and was forced to break my 10 dollar bill which I totally wanted to put into my bank account... =[

Then I wanted to do my work back at School... I fell asleep.. I was supposed to meet Kamil to show him around campus and stuff but he said he needed to do his appeal thing so nevermind .. Hopefully he's having a better day then I am...

And so how my day ended at lessons... It was in front of David's Lesson and he was prattling on and on about how designers in Singapore will definitely lose to all the others because they make structures that look like Monster Cocks (Dicks, Johnsons, Penises... Etc.)

...

No Comment to that one.. though I have to admit it did make me chuckle for a moment...

overall though I'm still not amused...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... I'm so lacking any form of affection I just might lose it... Not kidding... It's suddenly gotten alot easier to cry...

2009-01-28T15:03:00.003+08:00

Waiting for your

Call I'm sick

Call I'm angry

Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening

To the song we used to sing
In the cards, you remember
Butterfly

Early Summer
It's playing on repeat

Just like when we would meet...

Like when we would meet...

Cause I was born...

To tell you I love you...
and I am torn...

To do what I have to

to make you mine stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

V'ZeuLKiD

This Song captured my soul in a melody

Breaking Apart

2009-01-27T12:05:00.003+08:00

I think I'll just sit under a moonlit sky tonight on a hill far away and just have an endless dreams about fairytales coming true...

At least then, I'll smile for a while..

I guess I need a break from all this hormonal bullcrap...

V'ZeuLKiD

Confusion

2009-01-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

He Loves Me?
He Loves Me Not?
I Love Him?
I Love Him Not?

(Flower without Petals)

I'll just sit on the empty stalk for the moment and feel numb for a while..

I enjoyed Faddies today.. alot alot alot alot alot.. I learned 2 choreos and It's funnnnnnn, but I hurt my legs real bad.. I hope no one noticed... I can't really walk right now but it's ok... I've got to work harder to stay fit for the sake of my health and for the sake of NS...

Lastly, I got to spend sometime with Man and Nat today.. and they told me more on their History.. It was Fun.. and Interesting.. I had no idea that one Crew Had so much history even though its like 3 months or so old... Anyways.. I really like them all now.. I hope the Choreo ends up so DAMN Coool that it WOWS and Impresses EVERYONE AT DANCEWORKS!!!

hopefully hopefully...

Tonight I made A Confession, and it was to someone I've recently become acquainted with.. It's kinda Intoxicating having my hormones rushing around in my head like this... I kinda want it and I Kinda Don't Want it.. because well

Take this Scenario

Someone I've been trying to be Close to is A* and The Person I've Recently become Acquainted with is B*...

A's Story

I met A* online and we started simply chating... Then A* and Me had a meeting one day and I realised there was so much more to A* then What A* told before... What's more, A* did something that reignited my passion to love... A* gave me Hope... But then.. A* now seems so distant from me.. A has been What I feel, Is Avoiding Me.... So I feel very Lonely everytime A pops into my mind like I'm in a Dark Dark Room with one candle and the light suddenly goes out.. That's How I feel Now...

Then there's B*... B* is someone that Doesn't have much in interest as me but B* knows how to make friends and has met my friends before and been friendly with them... B* is a very nice person that has only had relationships that lasts more than 2 year so and furthermore B* has been giving me pet names for a long time... B* is an Animal Lover like me and B* likes to talk alot like me.. hahkz... When I'm around B* I feel Like We're a Couple but we just don't realise it.. B* has only dated Indian Guys before.. and for some reason B* has been just attracted to them mostly...

ThuS I tod 4 I was qi (I fell asleep here so I have no idea what prompted me to type this)

And so I'm in a dilemma now.. I don't wanna hurt anyone.. till my hormones settle and tell me the right way to go...

To Joe-Sama... I know you don't read my blog or go online much these days.. but I just want to put my feelings to you here.. I still like you at this current time and moment.. but for some reason if you really feel I'm possessive towards you or if you think I'm overthinking.. then I'm sorry to say that that's the way I am.. and If you can't accept that part of me.. then I don't think we can be suitable for each other ... (I can't believe I organised my thoughts right this minute..)

V'ZeuLKiD

PS to the Faddies.. I'lll try my best to come down afterwards.. but no promises.. Sorry Kamil If you don't get to see me today... =[

2009-01-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

Wel well WELLL!!!

I know it's been a while Since I've Blogged but I guess I might Going on Hiatus for A While.. Sorry peeps.. School LA!! -___-!

I totally Hate my lects this sem.. they're very do everything yourself now.. and their quite vague too.. wekk wekk wekk.. only wanna concentrate my whole heart For VS, AD, GD, DM and DD not so much to DPM and DC...

Like you guys that aren't in NAFA know what I'm talking about eh..

ok la Here's a Basic Idea for What I'm Learning

Visual Studies, Advertising Design, Graphic Design, Digital Media, Design Drawing, Digital Photo Media, Photography and Design in Context...

Yup that's what I'm learning so Far.. there were different subs back when I was in First Year Like Typography Studies, Digital Art and 2D and Color Studies But that was back then hahkz.. I even did Fine Arts-ish Stuff too so I got to experience my old styles..

But now things are different so hahakz... welll I'm glad things are good study-wise with me... GRR I WANT TO KEEL SOME LECTURERS THOUGH

anyways.. ya The New Sushi Place Near NAFA is good the service is kinda up-tempo and wierd but er food good so go try ok!! hahakz

NEXT THING!!!

Angie's Bdae we went to some wierd BABY ARCADE and I won OLD MAID from collecting tickets.. YEAY i can aim well in the luck game and got 30 Bonus Tickets TWICE LA!!!

hahakz

other than that I think that Other games are wierd... hahakz... I felt tooo damn Young hahakz..

OK OK... time for me to shut my mouth already.. you know why?

Cos I got LOTS of works to do AND 4 PROPOSALS TO TYPE -__-!!!

DIE DIE DIE!!! oh and Bry tagged me so I'll answer these before I leave ok TOODLES ...

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Ehehe my Neck(BUT NO LOVE BITES ARGH)

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
"OH SHIT! I'M LATE TO MEET KIDDO!"

3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Ex-ELDDS Schoolmates

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yes.. And my Warranty has Expired So I can't Be Returned... x.x

5. Would you ever donate blood?
Sure ... If I can ever Get enough off it to donate

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Does Rose Count? (But She's the Same Sex.. Hmmm!?)

7. Do you want someone dead?
At the moment.. YES (Sarcacstically speaking off course)

8. What does you last text message say?
Ayie 2 : Hey People Powerhouse Having it's Last Fabulous Night this Monday Are You Guys Going Or What? Hope To C Ya There!

9. What are you thinking of now?
The Card Games Have Turned So What Should I do Now? (I will not answer anyone whom ask about this)

10. Do you wish someone was with you now?
Very Much... Yes...

11. What time did you go to sleep last night?
erm.. 3 or 4 Am after Alvin's Party

12. Where did you buy the t-shirt that you are wearing now?
Topman (and it's a Sleeveless)

13. Is someone on your mind now?
Yup...

14. Who was the last person to text you?
Ayie LA cannot READ ISSIT... DUMB QUESTIONNAIRE

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUESTIONNAIRE. (and shall be used in the next 9 questions):

1. Rosemary Richardsam
2. Ang Hwee Ting
3. Vanessa Vee
4. Tan Huiyan
5. Sulaiman
6. Owen Tan
7. Omella Foo
8. Asyraff Kiddo
9. Furbee
10. Kamil

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
Her BF that looks Like Ma.... (ok she'll kill me)

16. Is 3 a male or a female?
Female DUH!! (like A Male is called Vanessa)

17. If 7 and 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
She's Already Attached and She's only into Chn Guys... Sorry MIL!

18. What is number 1 studying about?
Theatre!

19. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
I have chatted with all of them recently within the last few days..

20. Is number 4 single?
Nope.. NOT at the moment...

21. Say something about number 5
I got to know him better today so I can say that he's quite cool.. Like the way he Dances and Like his background story... He needs his own background music that's all I can say.. hahakz

22. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?
HAHAHA... She doesn't find him attractive and He is already attached to number 7

23. Describe number 9
A Sexy Woman stuck in a Man's Body... hahakz AND HE LOOKS LIKE A CAT!!!

24. What would you do if number 6 and 8 fought?
It'd Be like really wierd Cause I don't think it would happen... Ever...

V'ZeuLKiD

Days Commence

2009-01-12T10:24:00.003+08:00

And So School Begins... and the Year 2 is slowly going to draw to a close...

WOW!...

I just can't believe that Year 2 is ending so soon... and Like I feel like my term at NAFA is way WAY too short... but then again.. I guess that's college life... NO wonder you tend to be so close to sec sch friends... cox they are the ones that carry you on with them for a long long long time...

Ah wells

I'm learning Dreamweaver today btw and somehow I feel Matt is ignoring.. Could it be because I blogged before bout him.. well if he still even reads my blog now.. I'm sorry.. I just blogged what I felt... So it isn't really a crime being honest... I just feel insecure somehow I guess.. hahkz.. oh what the hell anyways... I wanna thank Owen for the Present for my Birthday... And I'm so SCARED to like leave it lying around... HAHHA!! can You imagine if somehow someone saw my tag and it said..

BOYS ARE HOT! GIRLS ARE NOT!

its so not true... it should be more to... GIRLS ARE HOT!.. BUT GUYS ARE HAWTER!!! hahakz

that way no one gets their feeling hurt.. X.X~

ok i know.. Lame...

I'm changing my Name as off today to Nigel cox Apparently I have an evil Twin somewhere around here... and the both of us loook like damn damn damn alike hahakz.. CRAZY... ARGH!!!

The Pinky (points pinky) The Pinky (points pinky) The Pinky (points pinky) ...Retarded Pause...

AND THE BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN!! haahahah

Insanity is prevailing.. and It's the New Drug on the Block...

Let Insanity take over you TODAY!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... I wonder How's your Monday at Work... (daydreams

2009-01-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

FU YOOOOOOOH! OMG!

it's like school tomorrow...

ALREADY!!! I'm not ready yet.. There's still soo much I wanna do and there's not enough time to do it all =[

Oh god .. please help me get everything done... and also at the same time can you Help me Bless the wonderful people that have made my hols and the past few days in Chalet Wonderfully amazing... (maybe some touch of understanding wouldn't hurt)

Thank you to the Fad Faction =] you guys really made me feel welcome... Like I'm a Part of you all... Thank you Faddies ahhakz I can't believe I said that..

Ok next next next few days I'm gonna be dead Busy So please forgive me If I can't find the time to upload all the Chalet Photos Onto my Picasa.. If not I'll let it upload tonight... Plus I will try to upload videos from certain events that have happened to me recently onto youtube... To Show on my blog about things that Have definitely needed some sharing hahakz...

And yes that's about it.. Thank you everyone and especially to you... Joe-Kun...

You've made my hols feel all the more worth it this time round... I'm hoping that everything workks out for the sake of serenity and happiness

There you go.. so I'm just hoping and settling down so Peace Ladies and Gents and all the Uploads I've promised will be up soon kaes

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I need you because I feel like I need to Be Needed.. And I want to you to know that You ..YES every part of you.. is indeed an indescribably endearing need to me... You make me feel... and thank you for that Hug.. it's like A Hug from Heaven that could never Be replaced by any other...

Post-its

2009-01-08T02:18:00.004+08:00

Hey there~

So I know some of you are waiting to see how we surprised Rose on Her Birthday... well the photos have been uploaded in order at my album and you can scroll through themm.. there are even some beautiful pics of her doggies.. there.. so do take a look

Wanna know how the rest of it turned out? Then go to my Picasa Web Album to See More...hahahahkz...(Note to self.. Adveritising with Suspense is EFFECTIVE!!)

Thanks to Omella for Covering the Photos while I was busy... =D

V'ZeuLKiD

PS here's the link for some of you lazy clickers... Rose's Surprise

Thorns among the Rose

2009-01-07T16:06:00.005+08:00

I promise to post the pictures soon haahkz HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSE!!!

MY BABY BITCH!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Chalet's Coming Soon HOORAY!

A Final Touch

2009-01-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

Oh FINALLY I WAS ABLE TO ADJUST ORIGINAL COLORS!!!

eeee.. WHAT THE HILL!!!!

(only bry and Kiddo knows) HAHAHHHA

well it'll be further adjusted to be preeeeeeeeeettier not just pretty but anyways... it's kinda sick right ahahakz not so nice... hahkz

oh wells

V'ZeuLKiD

oh ya btw I'm leaving now or ELSE OR DIE CONFIRM LATE for ROSE THINGY!!!! hahakz

Masque'rada Secreto Sur'prisia

2009-01-06T21:37:00.006+08:00

Since I've got some time before 11, I'm gonna tell you a secret...

Hahahaa

We're going to surprise ROSE later below her Block for Her 20th Buttday ( Her's Butts So SAGGY! ) >.< ... I'll try to put up some pictures If I Can oh and btw here is a glimpse of the Invitations I'm doing for the Event Management Peeps at RP for their Prom Night... hahkaz

OK wtf ... why is it blue??

It's meant to be red And the Blogger spoiled the image.. NABEY!!!

oh well

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Junjou Romantica Episode 10 Awaits us O_o ...

Watashi Tetsu Mai Omoi

2009-01-06T11:48:00.006+08:00

Today I sorta finished up my friend, Owen's, invitation for his prom night event that he's organising as part of his course or IG I'm not too sure.. but anyways the theme is Masquerade.. and I decided to put my little old retro spin on it.. It's not so great and te images are credited from other authors..

Btw I wanted to show people this blog I made for my aunt... It's called

http://cozy-livingspace.blogspot.com/

and it was made to attract attention to tenants in Singapore that want to purchase rental of my Aunt's flat.. well now that it has been leased I am still keeping it for when the next time she wants to lease it to someone...

So anyways...

About my previous post... there are somethings in there I keep re-reading to myself and think that maybe I think too much.. but then again.. I'm questioning.. what's wrong.. with thinking too much?

Just think about it... ?(pun not intended)

Seriously

Thinking too much eventually gets you settled because you have the comfort of knowing that you put effort into your thoughts.. you make people realise that there's more than one view to yourself as well as to problems, situations and personality... maybe it helps people unearth hidden things about themselves they never knew...

Hmmm.. I just think that maybe, maybe somewhere out there there is someone just like me wondering why their thinking too much... and I guess I wanna let em' know that.. well.. It's ok.. no Biggie...

Thinking too much can be a good thing.. at least your not thinking too little =P

hahakz

oh wells.. I think that's one of the few self-jokes you'll ever see me type hahakz

and ya I am feeling better people.. thank you for your tags Miera, Sulaiman, Oh and thank you Bryan and Kamil...

although you guys aren't in my crew and I've only like recently met you all.. I feel like It's God's blessings on me for once in a long while.. that I've been able to make some good-natured and empathetic friends...

Thank you..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. I still don't know if you read my blog but Greg-kun will be here typing and waiting your free time so we can spend it together .. I Hope to see you soon... :3

Insecurities VS Realities

2009-01-04T00:42:00.003+08:00

I'm stuck right now in between a cyclone of problems.. It all sort of started individually but then they all seemed to collide, mesh and reassemble together in one big mess... at all times in front of my relatives ...

If you have been reading my blog, You'd notice that I want to have a really worth and wholesome year with my goals already set... To save up money... To start a relationship that is meaningful and just emotionally supporting ... To Bring my Crews to a Higher level and my Self experience as well... And to build many more memories with people I Cherish and People I've yet to meet...

But, (and there always will be...)

Today... as I was partaking in a feast by my grandaunt, I received an sms from one of my favourite dance partners and crew mates... saying she has to quit... of all days.. earlier today I was talking to Bryan about how I wanted to bring my crew to a better level and feel the achievement of working together.... And.. then.. This had to happen... At first I thought to myself ... Why don't I ask her why? Why is She going to leave... But then I answered my own questions.... Hakim.. Cheryl.. Furbee.. One by One they're all leaving... Now its Shai... If next Sap decides to go (Shai's BF)... I told myself...

"Greg just get up and leave.. it's going to be you all alone again... eventually after everyone starts getting sick of the way the crew is turning out"...

I am ashamed..

Not at Shai... or Furbee... or Cheryl or Hakim...

I'm ashamed at myself....

For having such thoughts to begin with... I have become so weak...

But this alone is not the bulk of my problems..

I have told my other friend hui ting.. that I feel inferior in my field of VC especially when it comes to being challenged by other students.. How could I lose.... I worked so hard at it and only got that kind of grading.. and yet there are people way younger than me In my Class some in other Classes.. that are getting straight As and even 3.7 and above GPAs...

I can't expect them to get worst for my sake off course.. I can't study to get better than them.. How do you study art? I know there's theory to it but 90% of it is also inborn talent.. in being good with putting things like ideas/colors/layouts/themes/series of works and many other factors together... And I'm not born with that.. I'm learning that...

IT Doesn't Matter How NICE I am... IT Doesn't Matter HOW RICH I AM.. IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER HOW INVITING MY PERSONALITY IS!?

The fact is that I'll never be as good as some people are.. and it hurts me to know that I have things about myself that I can feel that it's a combination of my insecurities of my own nature in combination with a lack of good judgement (Which I totally wish I didn't have right now)...

To make matters worst.. School's starting soon and now that there's someone in my class I'm not very fond of knowing about my personal life more.. I hope he does happen to keep personal matters out of daily matters... and no it's not you fir.. so don't worry ok...

Lastly, I know you still might not be reading my blog since you very rarely go online... But tonight I really needed you but since there hasn't been much of a reply from you through my sms.. I'm guessin that you're tired of me or something.. So I guess I was right..(I've Just only realised this...)

I'm Right that... Somehow.. everyone that gets to know me.. will eventually runaway from me.. And in the end I will have no one to turn to because All i do is push people even further away from me..

I guess that's why Shai Left... I guess that's Why Hakim, Cheryl, Furbee are gonna leave.. I guess that's why my parents don't talk to each other.. I guess that's why I hardly see old friends anymore.. I guess that's why I feel separated from society almost all the time... I guess that's why My lecturers don't see the potential in me to drive me further... I guess that's why I'm talking as though I might die right now...

(I can't believe I just typed that)

But Since it's drove me to think that.. I shall leave it there...Maybe crying it out right now is all I need.. I'll be back when I'm ... Better?

Or rather.. I don't know..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. I guess I'm just not good enough to be your Kun/Sama... (crying...)

Why Should I have to Be like Everyone Else?

2009-01-03T02:42:00.004+08:00

AS the title suggest, It means exactly what it means...

And Here's the best example to proove my theory...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS To every person in the world whom is like the bully in this video, May you take another look in the mirror before you start to raise a finger to point at others or start to lift up a glass to toast to the bashing or verbal abuse against someone that hasn't done you harm...

The Next Nexus

2009-01-02T23:45:00.008+08:00

SO lets see... here are some updates I missed out on... for my Birthday/X'mas presents for 08'

Next Here's What I did on New Years Eve till New Years Day...

And here's New Year's at my Uncle's Place... =D
IT always amazes me how he manages to pick the best pizzas to go with some really good champagne... =]

Just spending this New Year With my Family and Relatives was definitely a nice experience... But... I still wanted to spend it, more than anyone else, with you...

That Name You Gave Me...

Greg-Kun-Sama... It's just...Something I'll never Forget

V'ZeuLKiD

PS things have started off really well this year Now All I gotta do is pace myself and Pick up the Pace to start to get myself Ready...

2008 turns a Year Older

2008-12-31T15:43:00.005+08:00

Well well well..

It's going to occur all OVER again... hahkz

2008 is ending tonight at approximately 11:59:59:99 am... and it's that time of blog year again...

So what's happened this year.. so far ...

I've been in my Year 2 of Nafa in transition with ending of my Year 1 and I've met soo many new friends both local and internationally... I've made many new friendships but at the same time I've lost friends through some very tragic circumstances all I wish I never wished it'd happen ever...

but then Life has to go on and somethings will and can only get better... (I hope)

I've realised that this year, I've become someone that is more reserved in comparison with myself around my Secondary School Years Whence I'd make friends just by smiling at someone else... I'm not saying I'm a social dog or anything It's just that's how my charisma works around other people and I really really Liked it... the way it works...

I miss doing alot of things this year.. I can recall I was supposed to attend a lot of functions and funerals and parties and weddings and events and birthdays and I missed them.. and sadly enough Because of such things, It has led me to becoming someone that I despise the most ....

An Anti-Socialite that only sticks to the people he's comfortable with...

For the next year, I'm going to set a few resolutions in association as well with my personal wishlist and goals to set..

The Main one being..

To forge many more friendships, relationships and stronger ties with existing people...

I for some reason am still not very good on terms with my family but I wouldn't mind being more involved so I have to be a bit more initiative-oriented...

Amongst the things I want to change about myself for the better is that.. when I'm given a project, I want to set my own goals for reaching where I wanna go in the project and get it on my top priorities to finish so that I don't have to cause lots of problems for my lecturers, peers and myself most of all...

Not forgeting my extra activities, I want to be more firm with myself this year.. and train to obtain a level of which I can be satisfied with the fact and give myself a mind where I know I can strum forward to the beat of confidence... (hence I have saved up revenue to invest in dance lessons at O'school)

After which, I want to get involved with more personal home made projects that I can keep in my portfolio for design purposes and other extracts and OH YES.. I've got a brand new idea that I want to utilize before school reopens in terms of gift giving for friends this coming year.. It will also help in my portfolio... and I'm quite proud of the idea...

In terms of love life, I'm keeping my mind set on one person right now.. and I don't want to steer away and venture too deep either.. cox we've discussed just staying as friends for the moment and getting to know each other better to see how chemistry flows... So Gregory Varghese (I'm reminding myself here) please don't jump ahead of yourself and consider how the other guy feels first ok.... (OK!)

For a few groups of people I like to mention before I leave, I want to say...

ASC/NDC:

I really am proud of all you guys and gals I want to help you more by improving myself and giving as much as I can to the group as possible.... I am dearly and greatly hoping for all of us to reach a higher goal and be the best we can be and maybe even take home a first prize or two.. Dance of all forms is now a Growing Culture in Singapore and It's going to take everyone's hearts by storm... =]

NAFA People:

I'm so Glad that I'm finding a new side to myself and it's mostly thanks to having friends like you to build me up.. I miss spending time with Effeys and I really miss just slacking and going insane..I don't regret having joined an arts school at this point in my life because I've met too many wonderful people and I intend to spend my time getting to knw more of you guys.... Also thank you to all those of you in 1Q and 2F.. the competive spirit our class drives is just so wonderful and it's only made me better in my academics and personal studies .. =]

NBSS schoolmates:

Although we hardly met this year, I've enjoyed the chance occasions where we got together or just bumped into each other by accident... cox it's wonderful that I get to see you all grow and partake in a new course of life and it always brings me joy (and lots of irriations too =P) whenever I'm around you guys... HAHAH Lets meet up more often in the new year.. O.O!!!

And to Everyone else reading this right now:

I Lastly want to wish everyone I know that is reading this blog a Happy new Year... Have good Health, stay Safe and always be as Happy as you can be... Look on the Positive.. Never forego consquences to any of your actions and keep an open mind to learn more and gain new things for yourself and the people you cherish...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 EBULLIBODY!!!!

Tonight...

2008-12-30T03:04:00.003+08:00

and tonight he fell asleep in my lap..

As he laid there snoring with his lips pursed in a cute fashion,

I played as many songs that suited the mood as I looked at him from time to time and imagined a future together with him... sure it wasn't a perfect future all dreamt out with icing on the cake.. but It was the kind of future I just imagine where I could come home and he'd be there.. resting on my lap just as tonight...

If not with anyone else... It's with you...

Just with you...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS... I give up on every failed relationship and past break I've had just so I can be yours fully... WHY on earth you've even chosen me, I'll never know... But at the moment all I want is you to look peaceful this way whenever your around me... (I'm almost tearing up here).. Am I In Love? Oh God..

2008-12-27T17:54:00.002+08:00

All I did today was... well... close to nothing...

DS-ed on Luminous Arc 2
Thought about you
Stuffed my Face with Popping Chocolate, Hershey's and Kit Kats
Thought about you
Chatted on Msn with two or three people
Thought about you

and lastly
thought about you

hahakz

V'ZeuLKiD

PS COME BACK SOON LA!!! hahakz

Watashi Aishiteru Yo~

2008-12-27T03:00:00.002+08:00

Under the Stars Throughout the past few hours with you and my Mac & Cheese in one Hand and my Pokka Ice Lemon Tea in the other I felt complete and Whole...

You Made me feel what I've been wanting to feel since like Forever...

And You Made me want to be a better me...

I'm Gonna FCUKING MISS YOU for the next few days.. please journey safely and come back home safely ok..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I'm thinking of stealing your photo and putting it in my phone HAHA.. no I'll ask your permission first.. lalalalalalaaa~

Birthdays & Christmas'

2008-12-26T01:08:00.004+08:00

Ohrite........

Here are my Pressies from My Birthday and Christmas from Random Peoples...

Thank you Random People... muacks

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Will you Unbreak my Shattered Heart...

Christmas Continues

2008-12-25T14:53:00.005+08:00

It's Practically 2:45 pm now Christmas Day...

My mom is watching some Singing show on TV could be either some Christmas Concert showing on TV or just some regular Carol Singing/Musical Christmas Show...

Anyways...

Here's our Chrsitmas Preparation for our small family Gathering Complete...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Hoping all of you are at this moment in time happy/joyous too let today just be a day where you can be free to throw away your troubles for the simple reason that it is Christmas...

Wishes and Kisses

2008-12-25T11:33:00.002+08:00

Inspired by Bryan, I've decided to put up my own Wish List in my Profile Section which will help me keep track of the things I've been wanting to save up for myself..

I have A VERY STRONG FEELING that once Bryan has all his gadgets healed, he's going to send me "BYTE" hahaahaha

but I'm older so I get to say I'm sorry I can't read well my visions blur... getting old ah!! ahahahkz

V'ZeuLKiD

Feliz Navidad

2008-12-25T10:31:00.003+08:00

The Family Stone is indeed a very heart-warming yet bitter sweet movie to watch about christmas, Family and Lovers during the festive season...

However, my Christmas' won't be like that cox I don't have that kind of love.. oh wells..

FELIZ NAVIDAD

and a PA DA PA PA PA to you too...

I fell aslp last night After I came back from Work on Christmas Eve on the Couch after a long convo with Him And I'm kinda sorry that if ever he reads this but I usually sleep when I'm talking to loved ones.. it's something about their voices that soothes me...

oh wells.. enoughs of that.. I'm gonna pass some stuff to Rosie dearest later... and Also continue with some project later at night... Apparently I'm also having guest over... just a few relatives with the usual MOUNTAINS of Food my Mom obviously Can't count through properly.. oh wells...

Another Christmas Is about to go by...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Merry Christmas to You

WIshes and YAKDUSHES

2008-12-24T09:23:00.002+08:00

Well Merry X'mas EVE to those of you who've been good boys and girls...

Bad people need to get killed =]

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I was SO RANDOM HERE!!!... I'm off to start my Busy Day

An Eve Begining

2008-12-24T04:13:00.002+08:00

It's Officially Christmas Eve Morning.. and not much of my feelings have changed since then... But it's been better...

I went out with Vanessa today and we started with a Sushi Breakfast courteousy of Sushi Deli and My Wallet, which included about 5 Different Sushi for each of us followed by an Onigiri and we ate them all at first while walking around New Northpoint and then later whilst buying Hui Ting's Present at the Food Court...

However, After getting Huiting's Presents, we went to Woodlands and met with the girl herself... We did some Shopping for Clement's Stuffs and got him a DS Case, Pink Cross Stickers, Pink Card Holder, Ex Sweets and A KeyChain I think hahakz... Or maybe I already mentioned it but it was all wrapped in a Cartoon Box... hahakz

And then I got a gift to exchange with Rahmah for tomorrow it's since she got me something out of the blue and wanted to pass it to me... hahakz she's wierd.. PERIOD!! haahhaahahah

so ok... I was waiting for His Call but I'm just guessing he decided to not call cox he knows I have a really busy day tomorrow and I told him that it was because I didn't wanna inconvenience others but I was a fool... I'm giving myself the biggest inconvenience of all by saying that so I can't hear his voice tonight... It got more lonely all of a sudden...

Awww wells..

I guess not everyone can be happy during Christmas Time...

I'm ready with the Resignation from Student Assistantship, Going to Check out the Christmas Eve Party Tomorrow and Finally work at Delifrance for the rest of the day...

So I guess I'll blog back tomorrow..

In the Spirit of Christmas, I hope the best for all of you guys and for Him especially... Yes.. Him..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I'm Having trouble with the autoplay feature for the music so you can choose to play it but I'd rather you do cox it really tells you what I'm feeling... appreciated...

Letting Go...

2008-12-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

I just want to let go of everything and then grab on to things as they float away from me... so that I will only be able to grasp on to things that mean the most... while letting everything else just disintigrate into nothingness...

I'm not trying to be emo or anything.. It's just my mind at the moment... I want everything to turn to nothing this christmas... I don't even feel like going out.. The other day I played with cousins... ate lots at a christmas party and even had my head partially sawed off by a magician at a magic act won at the lucky draw... played the piano and caroled ... and even won at taboo against relatives ... but.. all of it kinda meant nothing ... Although it was a temporary point of joy... But I guess that playful part of me just feels empty since I never really knew what a real family was to begin with... Sure I've got a mom and dad... but what's the point when all I'm holding are empy hands that leave me alone in a dark place without a light to follow...

I think I push people I love away from me for a reason... because I know being with me can only eventually lead you to place where all happiness turns to sorrow...

no one on this earth will ever know my loneliness the pain that's been sewed on to me ever since someday in the years of my past...

I feel like somehow I'm the Voodoo doll to my own heart.. no matter where you poke me, I'll hurt inside and not outside...

Superficially I'm alright... But things which leave scrapes on me leave mortal wounds deep in my heart....

But putting all this internal feelings aside... I just need to take some time off.. I wanna find myself.. and I wanna find someone to help me find myself.. and their self too....

I told furbee something today... I said no matter what I'll be committed to this Crew.. ASC... After I said it I have to admit I was afraid that I couldn't keep that promise... BUT for the sake of not myself... but for People like Kiddo, Sap, Shai, Rebecca, Furbee, Safiah and Nabilah.. and even others like Natasha, Cheryl and Hakim I would be naught a dancer today If it weren't for all of you guys... And I'd like to especially thank Hakim...

He's not feeling too well emotionally and physically right now (the arm.. yes I read your blog) but I just need to do some ammendments so that I can finally get this off my chest... I look forward to challenging you at dance sometime soon because you made me the dancer I am today because of past things you've taught me.. everytime I saw you dance you put a smile on my face... So I went and learned under a instructor and met more people so they could teach more about dance... but I haven't stopped I'll continue learning and show you that you're inspiration to me has paid off definitely..

Lastly, I hope all the best for you in your future endeavours.. I know it may not mean much saying this but... If you ever need a friend.. I might be free.... Hmm maybe need to check my schedule or something...

WTH OFF COURSE I'LL FIND THE TIME.. hahakz...

And I really hope that whomever that girl is that's in your heart.. realises just how much you care for her ...

Haiz... speaking of matters of the heart...

that reminds me that I've yet to find the time to meet him.. yes.. him.. and if you've read from the top you realise that I'm currently pushing people I love away from me.. starting recently.. So should I take the chance and Meet you now.. I'm afraid you might me see me as not being interested... and leave me... but you don't read my blog anyways so you'd probably not know that I really need you right now..

Sure my life isn't like Junjou Romantica or some Yaoi fantasy... but I'd really wouldn't my life lasting the regular japanese 26 episodes and ending off... seriously.. because anything is better than what I'm enduring right now....

Will my Happy Ever After ever arrive?

V'ZeuLKiD

PS the photos from Clarke Quay including Jaz's are all uploaded at my Picasa Web Album... Link is at the Y on the word EMPTY.. (I'm so tired of saying that : [ )

Where Reality &The Subconscious Collide

2008-12-21T15:32:00.003+08:00

Last Night,

I dreamt that It was sometime around christmas and My mom and I visited Uncle Alvin's House (aka my Grandpa's home) in Yishun... There were tons of people and I didn't like being surrounded by all these unfamiliar faces.. It felt like I was being swallowed up by hollow faces...

I wanted to play with my uncle's dog Burnie... A golden Brown Poodle Puppy but my Uncle told me that he wasn't feeling so well... Burnie looked depressed and when I tried calling him he just came to me and never faced me eye to eye the whole time so I couldn't see his face...

I didn't mind...

My Uncle then told me he was starting an Ice-Cream Business out of the blue and he wanted to try the flavours... My uncle then said Burnie couldn't be near the Ice-Cream but he smeared some Green flavouring from a Tub of it on the drawer near him and burnie went up to it and licked around it never touching the Ice-Cream or Maybe he did get a few drops...

Then later I think someone was taunting Burnie and he curled up shaking near my feet and I can only recall feeling a mixture of depression and loathe... Later we were supposed to take a photograph in the next door neighbours house.. with everyone in my uncle's home ... I think that everyone was my relative but I hardly knew any of them.. I do recall there were a lot of small girls around for some strange reason... all younger than me..

But as I proceeded next door, the entire scenery changed to the airport and I was walking into a small room where everyone from the previous scene was gathering and we were supposed to take a group photo... I wanted to call Burnie but my Uncle Scolded him and told him to go back... I recall my cousin Summer being there.. (my uncle's daughter)

But as we were about to take the photo everyone started doing a strange game running up to each other within this small room now apparently filled with christmas present and alot of those electric ball thingies that you see at the science centre... When you touch them the electricity tries to attach itself to your fingers through the Glass ball.. I just felt that everyone was wasting lots of time and I wanted to yell at everyone but I didn't know them so I think I was about to leave the room thinking everything about what was going on was illogical... But for some reason I noticed two of the glass ball electricity thingies were getting wierd.. the electricity was coming out and I tried yelling at my mom to turn off the switch but she didn't listen giving me a blank stare...

I got infuriated and yelled at her with curse words... and then she finally turned it off with a look of unhappiness... everyone in the room stared at me as though I was a tyrant yelling at my own mom like that... I was only thinking that the glass balls might have killed someone since they were malfunctioning with the electricity coming out in all directions...

Lastly, I left the room hoping for something else...

As I left the scene faded to a mobile hot dog stand vendor and he was tall black guy that looked like Obama.... some random guy came and ordered a hot dog from him and after which the Obama-looking Vendor grew a few more extra heads and hands and made the hot dog order at lightning speed while one of the extra heads kissed his customer (the random stranger) on the cheek... it was one of the most random things I've ever dreamt off...

I can even remember the hot dog which had a squiggly line of mustard right through the middle on top of a sfoot long dog in between a sesame-coated hot dog bun... I can't believe I remember that....

Lastly, it was like I was walking by some old lady and then the scene faded to some Television showing a commercial of Discovery Channel promotion TV mobile... I SWEAR TO GOD THE COMMERCIAL WENT LIKE THIS...

there were lots of airplanes heading towards the screen and then from one of the bottom few airplanes, the words "Discover Channel" came flying to the front.. but I remember thinking it was a promotion for National Geographic or some Travel channel....

Don't ask me... That's just what I dreamt....

Then I woke up and tried to recall everything which seemed to give me a headache.. I can't believe I dreamt all that in ONE night...

GOD!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I need to go out for some party/funeral thingy right now but after I'm back I'll blog about my current life and by that time the Album should have all my Picasa Web Album Photos Uploaded...

Whale Feathers

2008-12-19T15:02:00.008+08:00

Well, It's about time to start blogging again..

So The Holidays are almost about over.. I'm starting to get that laggy feeling like it's really going to end and I have nothing to show for it... I'm still kinda bummed out on certain things like having to get my room cleaned up (not done), trying to get myself to understand my true feelings for this guy and also asking myself how productive my holidays have been... I'm turning into an indubitable (I hope it's the right spelling) workaholic... hopefully for the better...

Congragulations to Kiddo and Bryan for their Commending N level Results... And Good Luck to the two of you for You future O' Level Studies and Examinations... The List of Congrats extends to all and anyone whom has been able to pass and move on to the next level in your studies as well... I'm not saying that I know all of you personally hahakz just well wishes...

Lastly... I don't know.. or rather I do know that there's this guy on my mind now... He's been contacting me from time to time and he's not half bad.. he contacts me regularly and stuff and he's always pestering to meet me... I'm not saying he's bad or annoying.. on the Contrary...

He's actually different from other guys I've dated... He's the kinda guy I've been so desperately seeking yet so afraid to take it one step further with... You know that feeling that you're afraid it'll turn out like a previous similar event.. But then that's just it, I know those past relationships I've had went bad because of me... all three of them... So.. The Issue is me Now...

I don't want it to turn out that way But I don't wanna be Alone either...

Consequential Apparitions Collide...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I am going to upload the event pictures from my Sec Sch Class Gathering Soon... =]

PSS It's times like this I wish I Had a Whale's Feather....

Plating and Presentation

2008-12-11T18:49:00.004+08:00

I give myself a minus 18471893719837129 for my dish...

Combination of Bee Hoon, White Rice, Briyani Rice, Baby Ikan Bilis Sambal, Malaysian Aunt's Onion Garlic Fried Garnish, Beef Stir-Fry and Uncle's Fried Chicken Special Sauce from Charco's Chicken ...

Why Did I blog About this?...

GO FIGURE!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

7th & 8th Dec Reminiscence

2008-12-11T12:47:00.016+08:00

Firstly, I hope You guys Enjoy this blog.. Secondly It's technically 3-4 Days long so It's got lot of pics and stuff and I spent a lot of time and effort making it so hopefully ou read it all the way through.. =]

ENJOY!

So ...

I've been kinda busy so I've hadn't found a good time to upload all the photos to my com.. but finally I can blog about it...

Hooray and Here we Go

So on the 7th, I went out with the dance peeps to catch a performance at Zhenghua CC a very reminiscent place... Where I lepaked for one of the first times in my life... with people whom I hardly knew then but know a lil better now...

But also a place that If I never knew about, I probably wouldn't have been even more exposed to dance.. If memory serves me correct, It was Zhenghua about 1 Year ago when I attended the dance comp previously and saw my current members... and people whom I would have never imagined to dance with.. and then here I am back again... although I didn't make any new friends this year, Who knows... maybe I got noticed... =]

Well lets let the event pics do the rest of the talking....

Alright so after Zhenghua, the next day was an outing with my aunt and uncle they brought me and my mom out for a lunch treat at a Casual Fine Dining And BOY was it nice... for only $28+++, Here's what I had...

Then off to explore the rest of the Pan Pacific... Architecture and Interior Design Student should really check the place out... It's Quite A Work of Art In Itself...

Then we took an elevator Life Ride Up and Down to get a Glimpse of the View As I Had done before Many Years ago... But I'm sad to say that Singapore looks pretty Ugly now.. Why? I think you'll agree with me when I say Everwhere you go All you see is Construction... Schools, Old Buildings, New Buildings EVEN, Shopping Centres, HDB, Landmarks, Orchard Road, Sentosa... I Know that it will be a constant thing with having to constantly improve and all but mind you I think the pollution and dust levels are just off the charts and OMG... it makes everything around it look UGLY!!!! LA!!!!

rant rant rant... ok done ranting...
We also visited the Local Bakery at the Hotel... THAT THING WAS MADE OUT OF REAL COOKIES AND SWEETS.. I'm NOT KIDDING!!!

So after all this, I took a stroll with my mom, Craig and Susan (my unc and aunt whom don't like me calling them uncle and aunty) at Marina Square but unfortunately the bowling alley was full on that day.. PH what! what to do... so we rested outside Waruku on their waiting seats area and let out meals digest while talking ...

I told Craig about my schoolmates from Nafa and all the more who encouraged me not to get disappointed in myself about not having a good as standard at them or as being talented as them... He made me understand that talent isn't everything in a person and also that talent isn't something that's fully inborn, there still alot you have to learn about to take your talent to the next level... And I think I'm the latter.. I need to create a really interesting style in my works... Furthermore, talent is one thing but you still need that X-factor to make people like you and your work... so it doesn't matter how nice your work is if your a two-faced son of a bitch who can't help but brag (no reference to anyone.. just an i.e.)

phew... I'm typing alot aren't I...

WELL after sharing a few tunes and a few more life lessons with my uncle, He told me that I shouldn't Give UP and after that I left to meet my NAFA buddies.. For my Post-Bdae Celebration...

Here's my PT GF... ACTING CUTE!!! and the lovely VaneeO-o And JASMINE (Justin HUITING it's JUSTIN)

After some Arcade games, we ate at Shokudo at Cineleisure (btw I skipped on the part where I had to wait about 21491231239 hours outside K-Box for these monkeys to finish their drunkard korean songs) oops! please skip the brackets part... ** whistles ** (oh shit I can't whistle)

anyways

Then after the lovely dinner I got my pressies HOORAY!! A NEW BAG... I Shall Post it Soon...

And of course Huiyan got an umbrella a doll & shutter shades... ehehehehehe

Huiyan then said her room was in a mess and she had to go back to clean it up or else she'd have no place to sleep... (imagining her sleeping on a bed of nails) OOOO!!!

Then Van, Justin & Mua went over to Whisk, Some quaint Little Cafe by Wisma Atria to catch a Drink and Chill... oh btw I find the new Nike Shop there quite interesting although I really miss the Topman shop.... wekkk wekk wekkk.... PS PURPLE NIKE SHOWS ARE SEX!!!

erhmm... next...

So yup I didn't do much on the 9th.. just slacked at home and did nothing..

And then ytd I met Sushi to go collect my Cert for dance.... YEAYS.. I'm an intermediate Hip Hop Level Dancer... Sigh!... but you know I'll let you in on a little secret...

I really don't feel like I'm being treated like a dancer... rather more of a back-up dancer in my crew... but I don't know that's what my heart tells me.. cox sometimes I give suggestions and stuff but it's not taken into consideration.. maybe I not good enough to be a leader for dance I don't mind that.. But to hear me out once in a while... I feel like a Third Wheel in my crew... oh well .. maybe things will get better from here on in..

Hopefully...

I Love you If your still reading from here AHAHAHAHAHAH!! MUACKSSS FOR YOU!!/
YUPS so after that I chatted with Sushi over Anime and Cosplaying and some Local events... and then she wanted me to ask my Bitch Rose to do her Braids as well cox she really like mine... ahhakz... then she gave me a discount for dinner at Pastamania... (for me it was Breakfast.. HUNGRY!)

I hate it you know.. not the food... the fact that everytime I go out especially with a Girl the people whom I've never met assume automatically that is my GF... LIKE WTH!!! hahaakz. do I look like a cassonova... I DONT THINK SO!!! haahhaakz
must be blind or something ahahkz

This was her staff meal and my discounted meal before she started work... I HEART THE NEW JAPANESE PASTAS!!!! I think its' called Tosu Teriwasu and err.. Sushi's was... In Store ONLY fried RICE that I think was DAMN NICE LA!!!! jealousss Grr!!!

hahakz

SO after that I left since there was no dance pract that day (cancelled) and then Met rose and chilled at Delifrance till Closing... Made a few new friends at Deli.. Mira, Saiful, Shahirah and errr... that other guy.. hahakz.. sorry terlupe nama uh!! hahakz

Ya and Jamin looks sexy in long sleeve... hahhahaz.. I won't forget that line..

"Pussy smell like Sweet Oil" OMG!!! WTF!!!! ahahahaahaha

Ya that's about it!!! So Thank you for reading this NOVEL of a blog.. muacks... that's 3 Days... and yess the link for all the photos from The Zhenghua Comp is in my Archive at the "Y" in the word EMPTY above... Sayonara and slipping on away!!

V'ZeuLKiD

V'ZeuLKiDs Story

2008-12-08T03:41:00.003+08:00

This is a story about a boy

A boy that would one day grow old, live life and die...

But that aside, Lets not focus on his future...

Let's not try to talk about his past either...

Let's think about his present...

And let's rejoice at the thought that he has a long way to go to experience many things in his life...

amongst the best things like tasting foods he's never before tasted,

meeting people whom he's yet to meet that will make his life a whole lot better,

also finding in himself the realisation that he's been surrounded by too much blessed family and friends that he's had no true words to express his gratitude for...

but also for him to find his one desire... Love..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS That's the gist of it

Nds-Roms Takes To Long

2008-12-07T16:14:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging not cox I want to Blog but because I'm waiting for my stupid rom to finish loading...

I hate laggy servers

V'ZeuLKiD

PS will upload pics of Zhenghua in next Post =]

Approach

2008-12-07T02:18:00.003+08:00

I don't know..

Three words I Absolutely Hate...

and yet...

It would seem that through all tough times I face in my life since the begining of my first problem, I am not forced, not tempted to say but naturally answer...

I don't know...

and yet while reading my results out in my mind in a mental sense so to speak, I find myself at a loss for words...

I got 3.1 GPA sure.. that's for this term but my Average GPA is 2.92... And that although is quite ok still leaves me with the marks and scars of unhappiness...

I worked so hard... overly hard even in certain areas for the subjects I loved the most and even for those subjects I thoroughly hated, I worked triply hard although I knew that the lecturers probably weren't in my favour but still.. to deserve the grades I got despite my hard work make me rethink, is it really worth for this course.. I thought I was improving... but to suddenly remain at a constant level it brings me to think what inspiration is my works lacking?

Am I cut out for this world of design after all...?

Is what I'm lacking confidence? Is it something extra like... Love?

I sure as hell couldn't be bothered by material things in life..

so...

so.....

SO WHAT IS IT

NANI MONO DESU!?

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps ... I know it probably seems as though I'm being naive scoring "high" and then making it seem like I'm pathetic to boast about my results or something to make me look pitiful.. Don't be sadly mistaken but It's one of those moments when I see myself and wonder about my future.. results aren't everything.... but self-Improvement is another story...

Nervessssssss

2008-12-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

So... I'just got back from Zhenghua Alone and for some strange reason I was feeling...

alone...

err... go figure.. so in a very slight depression, I decided to get some comfort food so I went to S11 got myself fries and a Chicken Burger and came home to find...

MY RESULT SLIP!!!

OMG...

I swear I'll flip out and go get another packet of fries and a burger even after the heavy home food meal I just ate If i see bad results...

Ya that's the thing I HAVEN'T OPENED IT YET!!!

HOWWWW LAA!!

SO scared...

someone hold me

V'ZeuLKiD

210 and counting

2008-12-06T02:44:00.005+08:00

Am I falling for him...?

Hmm.. I shall see.. But one things for sure...

MY MOM'S GONNA EFFING KILL ME FOR THE 1 HOUR 38 MINUTE PHONE BILL!!!

CHIA LAT!!!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps I made a blog for my aunt to rent her apartment out... any takers?

Cozy Living Space

Revelations~

2008-12-04T23:25:00.004+08:00

Ya soo ok

call me stupid but..

wait wait... lemme just say what I did earlier

From my previous blog you would understand that I was late to meet Kiddo...

Then we practiced near Furbee's area.. with Rebecca watching..

Then after a while we headed over to LJS to makan then went back... YEAY!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

...

OI WAITT!! NOT YET!!!

So after I met up with them and left, I had a revelation on the bus...

I think I've realised something about myself that was so obviously there from the start by my dumb brain just wasn't even putting any emphasis or shall I say NOT the slightest bit of right reason on it... What is that You may ask?

I think I can only have a relationship with someone I know.. For a long period of time.. not just someone I've met off the net.. or off the bat within a month or so... Henceforth, I, Gregory Ezekiel Albert Varghese Shall not pursue a relationship with anyone I hardly know or met and know for only a month or less..

Hey I gotta draw the line somewhere or else I'll end up getting hurt again... I've realised all my previous relationships ended shortly after they began and most of them was not because of the person but because of me I wasn't ready to give my heart at the time.. But I guess I'm ready to open up now considering my current type of studies, field and my change in persona...

and with that I'm ready to end on a pleasant note.

V'ZeuLKiD

Braidy Bunch Nonsense

2008-12-04T14:08:00.008+08:00

I'll be meeting Kiddo in like an hours time to relax and practice dance (oxymoronic eh?)
and Huiting will be reading my blog and Screaming at my new Look .. Scream away Nabey!!!

hahahkz

Anyways Last Night after getting Susan's place photographed I rushed back to meet up with Rose and Rosanna and a Surprise Guest.. KIM

and we all sat and ate at the local coffee shop KimSan NEE DE LENG!! haahk

anyways..

The New Stall there Char Grill Somethinng something is definitely out of place.. being such a nice diner looking shop but located in the middle of a Hawker Centre.. hahkz. Seriously like a fake movie set.. But THEIR FOOD IS GOOD!!!! and not expensive even.. MMMMMMMM!!

Well my chicken was kinda burnt ish but aside from that their sides and steaks look good and I wanna really try their Mexican Chicken next time and their pastas.. Here are the Pics.. Enjoy...

And so here is the brilliance of Rose's Hair Skills... Her Quote
"YOU BETTER MAKE SURE THIS HAIR STAYS FOR ONE WEEK STRAIGHT I DON'T CARE!!!"

followed by a roar..

ahahahah...

Thankz... I'm sure she enjoyed my treat at the coffeeshop hooray.. oh shit i'll be late to meet kiddo.. SAYONARA!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

Aunt's & Braids

2008-12-03T15:46:00.004+08:00

I'm gonna make this real quick cox I'm off to my aunt's place at Bkt Batok After this and I got no time to waste...

Those kind of aunt's that'll nag at you when you don't turn up on time.. then again everyone in SG will nag at you if you don't turn up on time...

X.X

anyways...

I'll be helping my aunt photograph her flat and try to set up a flat rental service BLOG or something like that for her..

That's about it.. Anyone interested in renting.. only about $2200 a month... =D ahahzk

(I guess not!)

anyways... I have updated with some pictures in my Archive.. To my Dearest An who's been so dearly waiting for FurbZ Bdae photos.. they are all there.. just get over there and see the pics you want and download directly.. =]

Lastly I did Braids in my Hair .. Three Main strands.. bt it's not so obvious cox I purposely covered them with my Fringe.. some anime style I adapted for myself hahak go figure.. cox i haven't yet hahahhh....

YUP so that's about it.. Will be heading over to rose's House later to molest her Dogs again.. and get MORE BRAIDS.. Ooo BRAIDGASMS!!!

....

STOP IT !!! haakz

JANAAAAAII!!

V'ZeuLKiD

2008-12-02T02:49:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone... I'm finally back doing what I love doing
blogging...

And boy have I a lot to blog about

Lets start with school

School ended like around the first week of this month followed by heavy assessments and serious presentation works... I really enjoyed myself after though... There was a whole shabang of a class outing in Ice Skating and stuff like that...

I FINALLY LEARNT TO ICE SKATE WOOHOOO!!!

can't wait to go back... yeays

so anyways following this, were other course assessments and off course that meant the Fine Arts Students and Rehka, Vincent, Izwan, Pavithera, Risvana, Jia Qi, Hui Yan, Clement, Gloria, Susan, Simon and Yip Kai were all busily at their throats with work... Off course they worked their butts off and everything turned out quite fantastic-O...

Btw I also discovered a New Ice-cream HEAVEN! and its RIGHT NEXT TO my SCHOOOL!!! weeeeeeee~ paradise

O'Divino
Sunshine Plaza (Across from NAFA)
In the middle of Dhoby Ghaut and Bugis
For Homemade Local Gelato
With Occasional Alcohol Ice Creams
and Flavours Such as
Horlicks, Redbull, Milk Tea, Peanut Butter, Bubble Gum, Bailey's and Even Ferrero Rocher(Tartufu)

it's practically on the same Level as Island Creamery.
And it's Just as cheap.
Plus they freshly grind toppings into your ice cream
just like Marvelous Cream at CityLink Mall
Toppings which span from the usual chocolate bars
Kit Kat, Ferrero, Crunch, Oreo Wafers and Cookies
To even stuff like Famous Amos, Pecan Nuts, Skittles
And even Healthy Choices like Granola or Jam

But that's for the Ice Cream Shop
My school area just opened up a Pizzaria and Sushi Bar
by Fortune Centre Which I'm Dying to try in the near future

Besides that, I've entered a Recycling Sculpture Competition with Huiting, Angelica & Gwen
Although we didn't win it was truly a satisfying experience and fun to create that sculpture that we manned on for two days and Nights straight

BTW its almost as tall as huiting herself.. HAHAHAHA
(kena smack by her)

anyways...

I've also happened to get two celebrations for my Birthday one was a not so surprising surprise in school by my beloved friend Angeline, Lina and Asri whilst the other was from my Sec Schoolmates Owen, Jaz, Les, Chee Hong, Danny, Zheng Kai, Kah Leong and Omella

Finally we spent the last few hours at Safra to play Pool after out
meal at Secret Recipe accompanied by a oreo Cheesecake

All in all it was cheeserific birthday with THREE SLICES of DIFFERENT CHEESECAKE
(I'm never eating cheese cake again!)

ahhahahaha...

no seriously... NEVER EVER!!!

on a sidenote I've gotten my Liscence to save lives HOORAH!
the Standard Level First Aid Liscence...
SO the next time Your Choking on a Fishball,
Do it near me :D

...

riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiteee....

Celebrated Justin's Birthday also with A beautiful threesome...

Vanessa me and himself.. for some Jln2, Seoul Garden & Surprise Visits from Alvin & Iggy
oh yeah and I wonder what Huiyan's doing in the US on her NY trip ...
ahahkz must be having lots of fun getting fat on US makan2

oops!! ahahkz

My Crew also managed to conduct themselves with two Performances in Sun Plaza & Tamp
both on the 30th of November and although I wasn't Apart of these performances, I really adore their practice and Hard work I love these people ARGH!!! ahahkz

will post up pics in the gallery for everyone I owe by this week I PROMISE

so check back here by wednesday and again by friday on the "Y" of the word above E M P T [Y]
there's a link there for my Photo Albums Archive so don't miss it...

Well that's it for Now.. oh and finally

Thank you to everyone who's wished me on my Birthday...
And welcome to the new blog =]

Love,
V'ZeuLKiD

Schweppes the Inspirations

2008-10-13T17:47:00.003+08:00

I typed a whole Pinyata of a story but I did the smart thing to click the refresh button HOORAY!!!

Anyways the main points are

- THANK YOUS FURBZ, KIDDO, SAKINA (Hari Raya Home Visits)
- THANKZ FURBZ (Baju)
- DEEPLY LONELY (Heartbeat against the Chest of Ayam Penyet... Don't Ask)
- I feel bad for Mrs Tan Choong Keng She Meant Well She Really DID
- I AM SO GOING TO SWENSENS when it Reopens IN NOV...

The Last Two Points were just added in

I am thankful for having a Family, Food and Friends in my Life

and I need to Find Huiting The Perfect Gift (my Sabotage Version of the Perfect Gift that is)
WAHHAAHAHAHHAA

Peaceful Dying V'ZeuLKiD

PS watch this Vid cos I wanted to post it but accidentally pressed refresh on the page and had to rewrite everything So PLEASE WATCH IT

Inspired my Blog Song

2008-10-07T09:00:00.003+08:00

It's great to be gotten because it happens once in a lifetime...

This is a phrase of which I've come up with ever since watching the good girl starring Jennifer Aniston... It was a movie invovlving regular people like you and me... going through life in a suburban landscape where everyday the same things happen over again without much alteration... But I Digress

One of the feelings I've felt from this movie in comparison to my dancemate's friendster Alvin is that I guess we spend our life waiting to be gotten by someone else... And from initial point of view I view him as someone who's had a rough history and had to go through quite a few obstacles... But thankfully he's made it thus far... I'm not saying that I've totally gotten him... No I don't think I have myself... But it's comforting to know that someone other than yourself whom's had problems in thier life or rather obstacles have been able to overcome those obstacles and reach for a brighter tomorrow...

Makes you feel like there's hope in yourself know what I mean...

But anyways this blog's dedicated to you Alvin hahakz... although he doesn't really know about my blog in the first place....

To a Good Dancer and a Good Friend...

V'ZeuLKiD

PS to all the people from around... NEED TO KILL SOME TIME WATCH YAKITATE! JAPAN one of THE best ANIMES I've EVER WATCHED

2008-10-03T22:29:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA Too all my little muslim friends here are some ketupatt patt pattt don't forget to do a little dance on the kuali and eat some ayam panggang from Sarah's Corner...

Translation: Season's Greetings and Art Students are going Insane...

Ps I have relinked Alif and added Zac to my list of Friends...

I did quite well in general for my First Term Back At School Hoping to do well again for my second term... I think I'll enter the contest Before it ends on saturday weekend will spend my Sunday and Saturday toiling away to complete my Visual Studies and take Flash for Term 2 ARGH!

but I need to Maintain My standard...

SO far this is my considered Results for Term 1

Digital Media - 90/100
Design in Context - 34/40
Advertising - 74/100
Graphic - 76/100
Design Drawing - 80/100
DPM & VS Grades Unknown but definitely passed them above D standard... Probably C and Above for both althought I really Hate those subjects the most...

ARGH!!!

ahahahakz...
anyways.... I LOVE my PHOTOGRAPHY CLASS although it would be fun to see the end results... I need to toil away and force myself on Visual STUDIES and other Subs ASAP If not I will lose out alot... MASCOT MASCOT ARGH!! STUPID MASCOT...

I need to sew a doll or make a clay figurine.. AWESOMEEE!!!
btw that's my newest Catch Phrase... AWESOMMEEEEEE!!!!

Imissmydancemembers Can't Wait for next Lesson!!! AWESOMMMEEE

I'm gonna get murdered if I make Another Awesome Sound Again...

AWESOMMMEEEEEEE

X.X

V'ZeuLKiD

PS like the green ALOT!!! Hoorah... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Rakan2 Muslim

Designer-ish

2008-09-22T05:40:00.005+08:00

In the Name of all that is Good

PLEASE GIVE US LONGER HOLIDAYS DAMN FACTORY SCHOOL!

that is all =]!

V'ZeuLKiD

Carving Anxiety

2008-09-21T23:44:00.005+08:00

Wow .. my template says I've got 200 hundred post so far on my blog... WOW!

anyways... it's been like a week of hols.. and it's not enough

I spent my friday Night correct me if I'm wrong talking to Jei...

(oh wait jei doesn't read my blog) hahakz...

anyways... I got to know more bout him...

and in overall he's a very good person at heart.. although sometimes he irritates the people around him (no names in mention) by asking about their grades.. I mean maybe it's just me but everytime designers seem to do well ... bragging seems to follow.. I'm saying this from observing not only others but myself too... maybe need to be a little more humble la ... hmm..

Oh ya... and I spent my hols equivalent on my 9 days like this:

Sat: Photographing my Assessment Works, Watched Rose's Play

Sun: My ONLY full day of Rest

Mon: Angelica's Place for Group Meeting

Tues: A bit of rest, Some School Work

Wed: Dance Practice, Song Editting

Thurs: Dance Practice, Aching All OVER

Fri: Group Meeting for Project, Dance practice, Aching All Over, Watched Mel's Play

Sat: Collected stuff from Friend, Completed remixing, Got mom Belated B'day Pressie

Sun: Polished Final Remix, U. Alvin's Hse for Dinner with Family & Friends & Dog...

Wekk wekkk wekkkk

My upcoming dance performance is this wednesday around 1 PM

The Venue is my School NAFA Foyer...

For those of you guys who can make it and wanna support come before 1 and enjoy the stuff around then stay for the performance ehehe....

Btw... My school is located in close vicinity from bugis and city hall... ask if your not sure how to get there... but it's nearby Sim Lim very near.. ahahkz Fortune Centre and thsoe huge temple in Bugis Area are pretty close by too ...

Hopefully I can see you guys there hahakz...

Well Guess I'll be heading off for now... in the meantime I'll try my best to post when I can though no promises since my mid Year is coming up in 7 Weeks time... I'll be dying too (BIG SMILE)

Hooray.... GD Luck to PT BF for his F1 Event Carve A Beautiful Ice SCULPTURE K!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

Dreaming my World Away

2008-09-15T13:46:00.012+08:00

Disaster Movie Is definitely the most messed up movie on earth.. Thank goodness I watched it on Movie6 definitely not worth catching in the Cinema.. I think Hollywood is running out of Ideas... hahahakz

From the Spoof of Indiana Jones to Beowulf to the Dark Knight To the Hulk to Iron Man to Amy Winehouse to Jessica Simpson to Night at the Museum to Alvin & the Chipmunks to Justin Timberlake to Juno to Flava Flav to Michael Jackson to Speed racer to Enchanted to .. oh forget it they screwed up too many movies in this one .. hahakz

So ya I'm on holidays now.. and err... it doesn't seem like holidays.. In the next few days I've got dance practice and project meet ups for competitions.. ARGH! my Year 2 is definitely going to the dogs.. YIKES!

I got my first job accepted.. And guess what I made myself my first company's cooperate logo...

Cheap job but the first is usually that way...

Anyways...

Here are some of my assesment works that I decided to photograph...

Digital Photo Media

[Uniquely Singapore Tourism Campaign]

Advertising

[Long's Horseradish]

Design Drawing

[ZoCards for Singapore Youth Fest/CD Artwork Illustration for the Submarines]

Graphic Design

[Mummy's Dirty Little Secret Publication]

Visual Studies

[Youth Olympic Games Logo Design]

So there you have it.. my assessments plus I missed out two Flash project which I don't think I'll be able to upload here... and the last one is Design in Context that has no Assessment thus yet... hahakz... will smile a bit more since I know where my style and direction is heading now..

V'ZeuLKiD

Bonjour Misuree & Mon Cheries

2008-09-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

Cherries and Bubble Pop Turn the Prime Minister of Snorkle City Into Mashed Potato Chowder Sauce...

That's exactly what my mind went through during the past 8 weeks of assesments...

AND I'M BACK!!! FINALLY...

Sometime to just kick it easy..

I'm going out to Nafa Theatre tomorrow to watch a play where rose will be doing 2 plays in a row... wow.. the set changes, rehearsels and yada yada.. I miss those days when I used to play the role of an actor.. ahh the reminiscent memories... (record swings off record player) Oops back to reality... REWINDD!!!!!!!!!!

Ok ok so I Promise I'll post all the missing links to photo that I've missed up on Picasa for all you eager little gundus in the taggy boxers... and Also please do inform which ones you want because I'm kinda getting myself organized and WILL ONLY POST THE PHOTO ALBUMS YOU WANT TO GET!!! ok.. sorry for any inconvenience cause for the sake of my convenience... =]

Hoorah.. what's next.. oh ya will post up assesments Collage for my work of this Years Assesments and hopefully of the past ones too...

There's just too many works la.. My room (just like all NAFA Students) are becoming like Store room of junks aka Assesments Works and Pieces....

ANd oh yes people.. Currently still Single.. I'm Learning Bboying and some Different forms of Hip Hop from my Hot & Ever Achieving Instructor Alif from Just Force It Crew and Studio Wu, don't have anyone on my mind soo no crushing except for the sickening cockroach that is about to be.. ok nevermind job done... Finished eating my Friday Celebration of relaxation for food stuffs.. I am a PIG btw..

I ate 3 Takoyaki Balls + LJS Combo 1 + Sarah's Corner Ayam Panggang + 2 Blueberry Juices + Milo Packet + Sweets = A really Contented Final Day Assessments to a Conclusion WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

And I'm PROUD OF ME

on a Side note.. Happy Belated Birtday to Kiddo, FurbZ & my Friends in September and August Whom I missed so terribly... and Lastly Happy Up and Coming birthday to mommy coming soon....

OH YA!!! and ALIF!!!.. CONGRATS!!! may you stay in this love for good ... the guy is soo lucky to have you and Vice Versa

And WOAH!!! let's end it here.. too much to update so little attention span...

(zoning out at this moment in time)

(drools)

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err...

Oh ya... Dance Peeps do call me if you need dancers for event... And for All Saintz.. Whatever Practice there is do call me...

That's About IT.. SUNTEC DANCE 2008 WAS THE SHITZ this year and so was many other dance events... HOORAY!!!
I LOVE ALIF!!! (my dance instructor)

HEARTZ JUST FORCE IT!!!

V'ZeuLKiD

Time to Get Serious

2008-08-10T08:25:00.007+08:00

Hey Guys.. its Time...

Time for me to tell you

THE WINNER TO SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE 4..

JOSHUA ALLEN!!

I'm SO Glad That America Voted for an Untrained Dancer this Year Becuase really...

Talents what its all about.. Why Wouldn't America Be Happy with Someone Like Joshua who only took classes sideline to sports and other activities in his life and wanted to pursue this as a career... But he is so natural when he's on stage.. it's like you would have never guessed that he's had no proper training..

And it even makes me want to be the underdog in this world.. sure I talk about it all the time but do I ever Act... hmm well.. I will be going for auditions this Following Wednesday to see whether I am catergorized under a Intermediate level Hip Hop Dancer.. for my School's Dance Club.. If i can make it I'll be ever soo fortunate and happy to be a dancer... and I will work even harder than I will for every other area in my life too...

Next is one of the best dances I've ever seen on the show in terms of Hip Hop

And here's a commeration to Katee & Joshua... in One of the best dances I've seen them do....

To my favourite Dancers of the Seasons Combined...

Top Girl and Top Boy

Katee & Joshua

Now According to my Shankman or Skankman as I thought his name was eheheeheh... he said.. that the winner of sytycd 4 will be in Step Up 3D... and I can't FUCKING WAIT MY ASS OFF for The First Ever DANCE MOVIE to be done in 3D!!! WWTF!! FTWW!!!

CAN'T WAIT YOU HEAR ME!!

And with that I'm off to kill myself and work hard on my Flash Presentation tomorrow.. HOORAH and Toodles

V'ZeuLKiD

Hoorah For Short-Term/Subconsious Desires!

2008-08-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

Dreams Do Come True!

Dad's Credit Card + My POSB Savings for one Year ($1890) + Design School Requirements and Expectations + Irritating Fat Bastard Teacher = MacBook Pro

=]

Coming Soon to a Home IN Yishun

ETA: less than 48 hours

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Don't Forget Student Rebate of $470

Dadaistic life

2008-08-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

What's Wrong with Being a DADA!...

err... hahakz.. for those of you that don't get it... then.. err... sad for you =]

Anyways...

Although I hate it... I'm gonna blog it here so that I can get it off my mind.... GRR!!!

There's this sickening thing going around that the world is going to end in 2012... Hoorah.. the year I finally come out from Army... Hoorah... who knows maybe I'll even be on the front lines defending the Island from being burnt to a crisp in a futile attempt... -_-"

Seriously... Even if it's in the bible or many different religious fields... I still don't really believe in it.. I mean please ... If the world's really going to end by then.. then end la.. It's not like Oh I'm going to be the only human left alive.. or there'll be like 10.000 years of Rebirth and my soul will become a new species of evolution.. I mean so what if it happens.. sue me la... hahakz

Might as well Sue me now for not believing in it... SO IRRITATING... it's like those movies where someone screams.. It's THE END OF THE WORLD END OF THE WORLD END OF THE WORLD... and then 100 years later some says it all over again... maybe in a different language maybe in a different religion.. so far someone said to me yes it's true there's scientific fact.. ok ..

so we'll all die?...

Ermm ok.. I'll die anyways right so it's a faster track to heaven... or hell... hahkz

No big deal really.. at least I am fortunate enough to live a life.. and experience so many wonderful things... along with the negatives.. but yada yada...

SO THAT's DONE!! NO MORE!!! I don't want anyone coming up to me and saying.. YOU KNOW AH THE WORLD IS GOING TO... I'll freaking shove some grass in your mouth and say NAH It's Going to END... Grass will become Extinct... SO EAT IT WHILE YOU CAN YOU COW!!!

...

ermm... anyways... I might JUST MIGHT be getting a MacBook Pro... I THANK GOD For Jei.. and Nanda for telling me about the Macbook Having no Graphic Card.. Like WTF is up with that man.. no wonder it's so effing Cheap.. CHEAP TRASH!!!... ahahahahkz..

NOT getting MacBook unless absolutely Necessary... If not VAIO!!

WIll save la. no Choice anymore... HAIZ!!

OK OK OK so ..errr

TRASH CAN!!! TRASH CAN!!

Need to be random abit..

AHAH I need to get some work done So I'll be off... erm.. anyways As you can see My fingers have returned to the happy little typing speed that their normally at and hoorah for my fingers and the speed I'm typing in.. HOOO HOOO!!!!

Waahahahahahahhaahhaahha...

I'm a Happy Boy Again.. although I sound like a Hypocrite In my post in the past.. What Can I say...

Were Human I guess were all natural Hypocrits without Knowing It... =]

V'ZeuLKiD

Dead Man Drawing

2008-08-03T21:31:00.003+08:00

It's sad.. On top of feeling the way I feel, I am also feeling tired
It was Nafa Symposium over the past two days
Friday 1st & Saturday 2nd

And I finally feel Dead...

Although I loved the Comments from Terence and My Peers for telling me that I did a Good Job

I was quite happy to note that I felt like a doormat literally

Not to mention that I knew no one there.. and Had lunch and snack time alone ...
so ya.. I was pretty lonely throughout...

It's kind of a Really big realization that You know It's not Secondary school Anymore and It's not like everyone here knows you... and what makes them feel like they need know you .. It's not like your special or anything .. you know...

But I tried my best not to feel sorry for myself and spent both days doing my best job possible...

Completed about 32 hours so far for my student Assistantship with a combination of about 20.5 hours of work on Friday and Saturday plus all the meetings I had in previous events... so ya Quite satisfying but tiring and boring..

had to fake smile my way thru most of the event too...

Sigh... Dance? lets see..

haven't danced in so long.. don't know what to do...

Next Event?

Kiddo's Birthday... I can't wait .. I need to relax... I really need to relax =[

Sadly though I have to suffer the burden of my assesment projects
* 18 Page Book (including Cover Page and Credits)
* 15 Second Flash Business card of about 400+ frames of work
* Designing my Zo Cards(6 Different Designs) + Cd Album Artwork 10 designs + Poster
* Revising Design in Context Notes
* Starting Collection of Labels and Notes for Visual Studies
* Completing Digital Enhancement of Photographs and Photoshop related Competency Test

Death is my middle name...

So call me Gregory Ezekiel Death Albert Varghese
GEDAV

V'ZeuLKiD

Symptoms of Grief

2008-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

I haven't been myself for a long time coming already

The Worst part of it is that I'm becoming exactly the person I fear the most Turning intO!

and that's my DAD!

he's just.. well Let me say this..

he's the kind of father every child on earth that has led a life without a father Is considered lucky and blessed not to have him...

That's all I can say right now.. And I truly believe that...

I'm not sorry..

Yes this is Gregory (Ezekiel) Albert Varghese... I'm not some spammer that has hijacked my blog to make myself have a bad image or something...

The reasons behind this have exceeded my breaking point.. I will remain quiet in class the next few days.. only responding when necessary.. the reason is as follows....:

-Life is indeed full of ups and downs.. this is one of my Major Downs...
-Dad and Mom are getting older.. I don't know how to support them..
-Money Is becoming a Major Issue...
-Will not pester my dad anymore about anything to do with money Since he's becoming a Major Pain to deal with in any field related to the word money....
-I'm/My Mom is apparently a thief in my Father's House...
-I'm losing my inspiration to GOD KNOWS WHAT! I'm so lost right now...
-I've not heard three words from the people that I consider friends in A Long Long LONG LONG LONG TIME!...

I Love You

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps Fuck Affection... It's Left me... I need peace right now...