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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

{/Solitare --

Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ( 5:53 PM )

Although I don't mind doing what I'm doing at the moment... Staying in school.. And listening to sappy love songs while watching anime and doing research (Hey who says guys can't multi-task)

Sorry today's lecture joke..

but anyways...

I have something to report.. I'm single again.. Yes.. and Available this time..

nope not advertising(although this sounds like a shameless plug)

But I'm just not going to blame the other party for not it being successful.. he's in a pretty messed up situation himself.. so no hate to him..

RIGHT NOW! lets focus on the now.. because it's all that matters..

He says he's sorry things have to be this way.. I say don't worry.. I'm ok.. Daijougou...

Well it's quite obvious I'm not fine with it.. but still I will be alright eventually so I'm going to be thinking long-term..

I'm not going to be in the market for the moment.. I need to concentrate on school.. Why does it sound like I'm like every other gay guy.. when the break up happens/break off (not really a break up eh) or whatever you classify this thing under.. somehow you will think that this is like too bad that person didn't go through with this thing and experience the relationship.. you know those type of .."It's your loss not mine" kinda things.. well I've chosen ever since this ended not to be like that...

It's not to be turned to blame or fault.. it's just an experience.. and I will learn from it..

I remember mummy telling me I'm to Nice...

So What If I am?

Mummy: You will get taken Advantage off easily and be put into a corner...

Me: Well, That's how I choose to live...

(because... I Will come out stronger...)

In a way I feel more mature about the whole thing.. I talked to Jia gui last nite about it.. He's so nice to be like the one telling me that guy is a bad guy (that guy said it himself) but I did tell him he's not.. he's got his own reasons...

In overall.. how am I feeling? how is everything with me? that's one question I've been asked by Jia Gui the only one at this point...

I'm fine

(No I'm not...)

[But I will be]

I will be able to get through this

(I held my own hand last night so that I wouldn't cry)...

[And I didn't]

I have work to concentrate on and final term papers to get through this

(keeping myself busy so I won't have to be depressed over the fact that I wasn't good enough once again)

[But I will learn from this experience]

These thoughts rushed through my head

I will hardly pester you in class to go eat if all I want to do was eat

If I contiuously pester... IT means I need company..

but.. you just thought of yourself and your work.. and I guess you gals just had to leave without even suggesting we eat at orchard or somewhere... nvm.. I understand it's final term .. we need to think what's best for ourselves...

after all we live in an unkind world... where we get to be truly happy on occasion for the reason that too much of a good thing is not a good thing.. so I guess it's time to be unhappy again

(unhappy and stressed)

[...]

I'm on the fence

I WANNA DANCE SAINTS... FADDIES

... LETS GO DANCE PLEASE!!!

I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW!

V'ZeuLKiD

please take note that I'm not against you.. this is my mind speaking as it is.. and my actions do not reflect what my mind thinks.. I'm just absorbing and taking things slow so that I can be better soon so don't worry Joe.. Don't worry..

{/Play at My HeartStrings --

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