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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

{/Solitare --

Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ( 5:53 PM )

Although I don't mind doing what I'm doing at the moment... Staying in school.. And listening to sappy love songs while watching anime and doing research (Hey who says guys can't multi-task)

Sorry today's lecture joke..

but anyways...

I have something to report.. I'm single again.. Yes.. and Available this time..

nope not advertising(although this sounds like a shameless plug)

But I'm just not going to blame the other party for not it being successful.. he's in a pretty messed up situation himself.. so no hate to him..

RIGHT NOW! lets focus on the now.. because it's all that matters..

He says he's sorry things have to be this way.. I say don't worry.. I'm ok.. Daijougou...

Well it's quite obvious I'm not fine with it.. but still I will be alright eventually so I'm going to be thinking long-term..

I'm not going to be in the market for the moment.. I need to concentrate on school.. Why does it sound like I'm like every other gay guy.. when the break up happens/break off (not really a break up eh) or whatever you classify this thing under.. somehow you will think that this is like too bad that person didn't go through with this thing and experience the relationship.. you know those type of .."It's your loss not mine" kinda things.. well I've chosen ever since this ended not to be like that...

It's not to be turned to blame or fault.. it's just an experience.. and I will learn from it..

I remember mummy telling me I'm to Nice...

So What If I am?

Mummy: You will get taken Advantage off easily and be put into a corner...

Me: Well, That's how I choose to live...

(because... I Will come out stronger...)

In a way I feel more mature about the whole thing.. I talked to Jia gui last nite about it.. He's so nice to be like the one telling me that guy is a bad guy (that guy said it himself) but I did tell him he's not.. he's got his own reasons...

In overall.. how am I feeling? how is everything with me? that's one question I've been asked by Jia Gui the only one at this point...

I'm fine

(No I'm not...)

[But I will be]

I will be able to get through this

(I held my own hand last night so that I wouldn't cry)...

[And I didn't]

I have work to concentrate on and final term papers to get through this

(keeping myself busy so I won't have to be depressed over the fact that I wasn't good enough once again)

[But I will learn from this experience]

These thoughts rushed through my head

I will hardly pester you in class to go eat if all I want to do was eat

If I contiuously pester... IT means I need company..

but.. you just thought of yourself and your work.. and I guess you gals just had to leave without even suggesting we eat at orchard or somewhere... nvm.. I understand it's final term .. we need to think what's best for ourselves...

after all we live in an unkind world... where we get to be truly happy on occasion for the reason that too much of a good thing is not a good thing.. so I guess it's time to be unhappy again

(unhappy and stressed)

[...]

I'm on the fence

I WANNA DANCE SAINTS... FADDIES

... LETS GO DANCE PLEASE!!!

I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW!

V'ZeuLKiD

please take note that I'm not against you.. this is my mind speaking as it is.. and my actions do not reflect what my mind thinks.. I'm just absorbing and taking things slow so that I can be better soon so don't worry Joe.. Don't worry..

{/I'll Just Be Right Here Waiting --

Tuesday, March 17, 2009 ( 8:55 AM )

As the posts' title suggest.. I'll just be Waiting...

No I won't be Cliche and mushy and play that song... =] Instead here's a latest track I've fallen in love with

=]and Oh ya Faddies please do check out the new blog I will update when I'm better and more free..

Oh and People I've started opening my businesses with friends... Yup yup.. Namecards/Stickers... You name it.. I can get it done for you at a good rate... and GOOD Quality.. Will upload freelance materials in my deviantart soon so keep on the look out for that soon VERY SOON!!! hahakz.. love youusss

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I Lap You long time.. I don't know why exactly you've taken so long to reply but.. as long as you're able to tell me that you're still around I'll be ok.. hahkz I try not to think too much But need some help from you also hahkz.. give me a little comfort msg from time to time... doesnt have to be everyday but ya.. hahkz you get the picture.. =D

{/WOW.. Updatoooo!~ --

Monday, March 09, 2009 ( 7:34 PM )

Ok OK OK.. SUMIMASENNNNN!!

ok ok...

soo here's what's been goin on...

I have been swamped with work from school... competitions... dance... activities... and social issues

But above all it was assessments week... So I apologize for that... Greatly...

ON a POSITIVE!!!

There's been a lot of blessed things that have been happening to me... And then it's all versus one Big Negative...

So lets start with Positive...

+++++++ =]

OK so for assessments I managed to finish my work and Now all I'm left with as of today is one last assessment and Two Competitions that I've signed up For... SLA ART 09' and Safety @ Work

Other than that I have Furbee's Namecard to design and That's about done.... so I will get everything over with by tomorrow.. and yes that's it and I'll be a freeeeeeeeeeee WILLY!!!!! hahakz lol....

ok so that aside I have a wonderful new gang of misfit pimples that I've gotten to know... They are simply the most horrible, creepy, slimy, disgusting, furry, gangsterish, Anak PKMs on the planet... hahahahahakz....

They are none other than Fad Faction...

They are just soooo adorable la... and I feel like a farmer whenever I'm around them.. Oh wait let me make that CAVEMAN! in accordance to bryan... and LOUIS hahakz the animal Lover...

Thankz to this buncha people they've made my life sooo much more horrible.. or entertaining... or something to do with happiness la but im gonna say creepy... hahahahhahah ...

But ok what's the deal with themmm.. well I was recruited by them for a performance during March just this past saturday... and It was none other than... DANCEWORKS 09'... ZOMG... yes i know.. to all the dancers reading it's the biggest among most popular dance comps in all of SG... and yes now as of that day.. It was my first ever Comp to DEBUT!!!!

ARGH!!!! It was a mixed of emotions all throughout that day but Also Very ENERGETIC cox of the award we won.... SO HAPPY LA SEH...

We didn't win first but We Won MOST Hi-ENERGETIC DANCE along with the Fantastic Kidz.... But stilll we all are going to Improve... and go forward... hahkz...

Well Here's The Vid and also do visit them at Friendster and Facebook.. jUst look up FAD FACTION...

Ok Wait so Don't worry ASC We Will dance together again soon.. hopefully once everyone is settled in your own things.. School... Family.. Friends... Love.. whatever it maybe lets hope for the best and pull through together... Ok...

Now School-wise like I've said I had assessments... And Prospects are looking up... I think I might be able to score high marks for certain modules BUT I was lucky to get to know that I've Already gotten a couple of Bs and stuff here and there... There could be... might Be.. A surprise A Grade somewhere... But that's all good .... Now The Main Game is coming up.. FINAL ASSESSMENTS OF YEAR 2... (imagine the words in capitals flying towards the screen japanese anime style with a hyper Narrator Voice)

Yes... so I'm gonna just concentrate and GO FARRR!!! if i can get things done faster.. then Hoorah... I'll go even further.. hahkz and well ya I guess I'm hoping for the best...

Maintaing Bs are not an easy task in NAFA mind you.. =[ tiring

okok

so....

The last piece of Good News would definitely have to be that in the past few weeks My relationship with different people have been improving and slowly increasing to better heights.. not just on a family level but at different levels too.. I'm also now Cousins with a friend from secondary school ever since my cuz got married to her cuz but altho it may not be blood related we are becoming closer too.. HAHAKZ everyone is getting soo fun to be around lately... and stuff omg.. I wonder why I'm so Hyper.. and it's good to see friends so HAPPY ...

Now lets take a breather....

Let's go to the Negative news..

Well lets start a little happy..

My dear dear dear Joe-kun.. I know we haven't been in contact for a while... and It's been very quiet this Handphone of mine.. Without your name poppin up these days...

I keep asking myself ...why ... no reply ... are you ok?... I even asked whether you're alive..

I know I remember you saying that Your reservice was coming up and you'd be gone for a while.. but without so much as a goodbye to confirm that it would be around this time maybe... I stil don't know whether you're in camp or you're just having problems and don't wanna share it with me... And if circumstances are such that you can't talk with me.. or just don't want to talk to me.. I guess I don't know ... I might be over-thinking again.. but then again wouldn't most people react this way when... ... ..

When the one..

The one you love is not around you for such a long period of time...

I feel like running away right now....

but at the same time I want to be strong because I want to show you that I can be the strong guy that you might want to have holding you tightly in my arms...

Things sound bad but I'm willing to salvage this bond.. we aren't a couple yet I know... but I believe that we don't have to be a couple to have a connection.. We don't need a ring to share a emotion..

All I need.. Right now... is you ...

And that section was just for you Joe-kun..

That's the only negative that I can pluck out right now.. it may seem like im Desperate and possessive but all i really want is your affection... your acknowledgement.. to pet me on my head and say everything is alright like when Misaki is acknowledged by Usagi... And in return I'll be the one to take you by your hand and say I'll be with you till forever..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS thank you to all the avid surporters that came down and helped in the cheering for our crew.. our team.. THANK YOU PIMPLES!

{/Play at My HeartStrings --

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