He Loves Me?
He Loves Me Not?
I Love Him?
I Love Him Not?

(Flower without Petals)

I'll just sit on the empty stalk for the moment and feel numb for a while..

I enjoyed Faddies today.. alot alot alot alot alot.. I learned 2 choreos and It's funnnnnnn, but I hurt my legs real bad.. I hope no one noticed... I can't really walk right now but it's ok... I've got to work harder to stay fit for the sake of my health and for the sake of NS...

Lastly, I got to spend sometime with Man and Nat today.. and they told me more on their History.. It was Fun.. and Interesting.. I had no idea that one Crew Had so much history even though its like 3 months or so old... Anyways.. I really like them all now.. I hope the Choreo ends up so DAMN Coool that it WOWS and Impresses EVERYONE AT DANCEWORKS!!!

hopefully hopefully...

Tonight I made A Confession, and it was to someone I've recently become acquainted with.. It's kinda Intoxicating having my hormones rushing around in my head like this... I kinda want it and I Kinda Don't Want it.. because well

Take this Scenario

Someone I've been trying to be Close to is A* and The Person I've Recently become Acquainted with is B*...

A's Story

I met A* online and we started simply chating... Then A* and Me had a meeting one day and I realised there was so much more to A* then What A* told before... What's more, A* did something that reignited my passion to love... A* gave me Hope... But then.. A* now seems so distant from me.. A has been What I feel, Is Avoiding Me.... So I feel very Lonely everytime A pops into my mind like I'm in a Dark Dark Room with one candle and the light suddenly goes out.. That's How I feel Now...

Then there's B*... B* is someone that Doesn't have much in interest as me but B* knows how to make friends and has met my friends before and been friendly with them... B* is a very nice person that has only had relationships that lasts more than 2 year so and furthermore B* has been giving me pet names for a long time... B* is an Animal Lover like me and B* likes to talk alot like me.. hahkz... When I'm around B* I feel Like We're a Couple but we just don't realise it.. B* has only dated Indian Guys before.. and for some reason B* has been just attracted to them mostly...

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And so I'm in a dilemma now.. I don't wanna hurt anyone.. till my hormones settle and tell me the right way to go...

To Joe-Sama... I know you don't read my blog or go online much these days.. but I just want to put my feelings to you here.. I still like you at this current time and moment.. but for some reason if you really feel I'm possessive towards you or if you think I'm overthinking.. then I'm sorry to say that that's the way I am.. and If you can't accept that part of me.. then I don't think we can be suitable for each other ... (I can't believe I organised my thoughts right this minute..)

V'ZeuLKiD

PS to the Faddies.. I'lll try my best to come down afterwards.. but no promises.. Sorry Kamil If you don't get to see me today... =[