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Waiting for your

I think I'll just sit under a moonlit sky tonight on a hill far away and just have an endless dreams about fairytales coming true...

He Loves Me?
He Loves Me Not?
I Love Him?
I Love Him Not?

(Flower without Petals)

I'll just sit on the empty stalk for the moment and feel numb for a while..

I enjoyed Faddies today.. alot alot alot alot alot.. I learned 2 choreos and It's funnnnnnn, but I hurt my legs real bad.. I hope no one noticed... I can't really walk right now but it's ok... I've got to work harder to stay fit for the sake of my health and for the sake of NS...

Lastly, I got to spend sometime with Man and Nat today.. and they told me more on their History.. It was Fun.. and Interesting.. I had no idea that one Crew Had so much history even though its like 3 months or so old... Anyways.. I really like them all now.. I hope the Choreo ends up so DAMN Coool that it WOWS and Impresses EVERYONE AT DANCEWORKS!!!

hopefully hopefully...

Tonight I made A Confession, and it was to someone I've recently become acquainted with.. It's kinda Intoxicating having my hormones rushing around in my head like this... I kinda want it and I Kinda Don't Want it.. because well

Take this Scenario

Someone I've been trying to be Close to is A* and The Person I've Recently become Acquainted with is B*...

A's Story

I met A* online and we started simply chating... Then A* and Me had a meeting one day and I realised there was so much more to A* then What A* told before... What's more, A* did something that reignited my passion to love... A* gave me Hope... But then.. A* now seems so distant from me.. A has been What I feel, Is Avoiding Me.... So I feel very Lonely everytime A pops into my mind like I'm in a Dark Dark Room with one candle and the light suddenly goes out.. That's How I feel Now...

Then there's B*... B* is someone that Doesn't have much in interest as me but B* knows how to make friends and has met my friends before and been friendly with them... B* is a very nice person that has only had relationships that lasts more than 2 year so and furthermore B* has been giving me pet names for a long time... B* is an Animal Lover like me and B* likes to talk alot like me.. hahkz... When I'm around B* I feel Like We're a Couple but we just don't realise it.. B* has only dated Indian Guys before.. and for some reason B* has been just attracted to them mostly...

ThuS I tod 4 I was qi (I fell asleep here so I have no idea what prompted me to type this)

And so I'm in a dilemma now.. I don't wanna hurt anyone.. till my hormones settle and tell me the right way to go...

To Joe-Sama... I know you don't read my blog or go online much these days.. but I just want to put my feelings to you here.. I still like you at this current time and moment.. but for some reason if you really feel I'm possessive towards you or if you think I'm overthinking.. then I'm sorry to say that that's the way I am.. and If you can't accept that part of me.. then I don't think we can be suitable for each other ... (I can't believe I organised my thoughts right this minute..)

V'ZeuLKiD

PS to the Faddies.. I'lll try my best to come down afterwards.. but no promises.. Sorry Kamil If you don't get to see me today... =[

Wel well WELLL!!!

I know it's been a while Since I've Blogged but I guess I might Going on Hiatus for A While.. Sorry peeps.. School LA!! -___-!

I totally Hate my lects this sem.. they're very do everything yourself now.. and their quite vague too.. wekk wekk wekk.. only wanna concentrate my whole heart For VS, AD, GD, DM and DD not so much to DPM and DC...

Like you guys that aren't in NAFA know what I'm talking about eh..

ok la Here's a Basic Idea for What I'm Learning

Visual Studies, Advertising Design, Graphic Design, Digital Media, Design Drawing, Digital Photo Media, Photography and Design in Context...

Yup that's what I'm learning so Far.. there were different subs back when I was in First Year Like Typography Studies, Digital Art and 2D and Color Studies But that was back then hahkz.. I even did Fine Arts-ish Stuff too so I got to experience my old styles..

But now things are different so hahakz... welll I'm glad things are good study-wise with me... GRR I WANT TO KEEL SOME LECTURERS THOUGH

anyways.. ya The New Sushi Place Near NAFA is good the service is kinda up-tempo and wierd but er food good so go try ok!! hahakz

NEXT THING!!!

Angie's Bdae we went to some wierd BABY ARCADE and I won OLD MAID from collecting tickets.. YEAY i can aim well in the luck game and got 30 Bonus Tickets TWICE LA!!!

hahakz

other than that I think that Other games are wierd... hahakz... I felt tooo damn Young hahakz..

OK OK... time for me to shut my mouth already.. you know why?

Cos I got LOTS of works to do AND 4 PROPOSALS TO TYPE -__-!!!

DIE DIE DIE!!! oh and Bry tagged me so I'll answer these before I leave ok TOODLES ...

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Ehehe my Neck(BUT NO LOVE BITES ARGH)

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
"OH SHIT! I'M LATE TO MEET KIDDO!"

3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Ex-ELDDS Schoolmates

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yes.. And my Warranty has Expired So I can't Be Returned... x.x

5. Would you ever donate blood?
Sure ... If I can ever Get enough off it to donate

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Does Rose Count? (But She's the Same Sex.. Hmmm!?)

7. Do you want someone dead?
At the moment.. YES (Sarcacstically speaking off course)

8. What does you last text message say?
Ayie 2 : Hey People Powerhouse Having it's Last Fabulous Night this Monday Are You Guys Going Or What? Hope To C Ya There!

9. What are you thinking of now?
The Card Games Have Turned So What Should I do Now? (I will not answer anyone whom ask about this)

10. Do you wish someone was with you now?
Very Much... Yes...

11. What time did you go to sleep last night?
erm.. 3 or 4 Am after Alvin's Party

12. Where did you buy the t-shirt that you are wearing now?
Topman (and it's a Sleeveless)

13. Is someone on your mind now?
Yup...

14. Who was the last person to text you?
Ayie LA cannot READ ISSIT... DUMB QUESTIONNAIRE

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUESTIONNAIRE. (and shall be used in the next 9 questions):

1. Rosemary Richardsam
2. Ang Hwee Ting
3. Vanessa Vee
4. Tan Huiyan
5. Sulaiman
6. Owen Tan
7. Omella Foo
8. Asyraff Kiddo
9. Furbee
10. Kamil

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
Her BF that looks Like Ma.... (ok she'll kill me)

16. Is 3 a male or a female?
Female DUH!! (like A Male is called Vanessa)

17. If 7 and 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
She's Already Attached and She's only into Chn Guys... Sorry MIL!

18. What is number 1 studying about?
Theatre!

19. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
I have chatted with all of them recently within the last few days..

20. Is number 4 single?
Nope.. NOT at the moment...

21. Say something about number 5
I got to know him better today so I can say that he's quite cool.. Like the way he Dances and Like his background story... He needs his own background music that's all I can say.. hahakz

22. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?
HAHAHA... She doesn't find him attractive and He is already attached to number 7

23. Describe number 9
A Sexy Woman stuck in a Man's Body... hahakz AND HE LOOKS LIKE A CAT!!!

24. What would you do if number 6 and 8 fought?
It'd Be like really wierd Cause I don't think it would happen... Ever...

V'ZeuLKiD

And So School Begins... and the Year 2 is slowly going to draw to a close... 

FU YOOOOOOOH! OMG!

it's like school tomorrow...

ALREADY!!! I'm not ready yet.. There's still soo much I wanna do and there's not enough time to do it all =[

Oh god .. please help me get everything done... and also at the same time can you Help me Bless the wonderful people that have made my hols and the past few days in Chalet Wonderfully amazing... (maybe some touch of understanding wouldn't hurt)

Thank you to the Fad Faction =] you guys really made me feel welcome... Like I'm a Part of you all... Thank you Faddies ahhakz I can't believe I said that..

Ok next next next few days I'm gonna be dead Busy So please forgive me If I can't find the time to upload all the Chalet Photos Onto my Picasa.. If not I'll let it upload tonight... Plus I will try to upload videos from certain events that have happened to me recently onto youtube... To Show on my blog about things that Have definitely needed some sharing hahakz...

And yes that's about it.. Thank you everyone and especially to you... Joe-Kun...

You've made my hols feel all the more worth it this time round... I'm hoping that everything workks out for the sake of serenity and happiness

There you go.. so I'm just hoping and settling down so Peace Ladies and Gents and all the Uploads I've promised will be up soon kaes

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I need you because I feel like I need to Be Needed.. And I want to you to know that You ..YES every part of you.. is indeed an indescribably endearing need to me... You make me feel... and thank you for that Hug.. it's like A Hug from Heaven that could never Be replaced by any other...

Hey there~

MY BABY BITCH!

V'ZeuLKiD

PS Chalet's Coming Soon HOORAY!

Since I've got some time before 11, I'm gonna tell you a secret...

Today I sorta finished up my friend, Owen's, invitation for his prom night event that he's organising as part of his course or IG I'm not too sure.. but anyways the theme is Masquerade.. and I decided to put my little old retro spin on it.. It's not so great and te images are credited from other authors..

Btw I wanted to show people this blog I made for my aunt... It's called

http://cozy-livingspace.blogspot.com/

and it was made to attract attention to tenants in Singapore that want to purchase rental of my Aunt's flat.. well now that it has been leased I am still keeping it for when the next time she wants to lease it to someone...

So anyways...

About my previous post... there are somethings in there I keep re-reading to myself and think that maybe I think too much.. but then again.. I'm questioning.. what's wrong.. with thinking too much?

Just think about it... ?(pun not intended)

Seriously

Thinking too much eventually gets you settled because you have the comfort of knowing that you put effort into your thoughts.. you make people realise that there's more than one view to yourself as well as to problems, situations and personality... maybe it helps people unearth hidden things about themselves they never knew...

Hmmm.. I just think that maybe, maybe somewhere out there there is someone just like me wondering why their thinking too much... and I guess I wanna let em' know that.. well.. It's ok.. no Biggie...

Thinking too much can be a good thing.. at least your not thinking too little =P

hahakz

oh wells.. I think that's one of the few self-jokes you'll ever see me type hahakz

and ya I am feeling better people.. thank you for your tags Miera, Sulaiman, Oh and thank you Bryan and Kamil...

although you guys aren't in my crew and I've only like recently met you all.. I feel like It's God's blessings on me for once in a long while.. that I've been able to make some good-natured and empathetic friends...

Thank you..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. I still don't know if you read my blog but Greg-kun will be here typing and waiting your free time so we can spend it together .. I Hope to see you soon... :3

I'm stuck right now in between a cyclone of problems.. It all sort of started individually but then they all seemed to collide, mesh and reassemble together in one big mess... at all times in front of my relatives ...

If you have been reading my blog, You'd notice that I want to have a really worth and wholesome year with my goals already set... To save up money... To start a relationship that is meaningful and just emotionally supporting ... To Bring my Crews to a Higher level and my Self experience as well... And to build many more memories with people I Cherish and People I've yet to meet...

But, (and there always will be...)

Today... as I was partaking in a feast by my grandaunt, I received an sms from one of my favourite dance partners and crew mates... saying she has to quit... of all days.. earlier today I was talking to Bryan about how I wanted to bring my crew to a better level and feel the achievement of working together.... And.. then.. This had to happen... At first I thought to myself ... Why don't I ask her why? Why is She going to leave... But then I answered my own questions.... Hakim.. Cheryl.. Furbee.. One by One they're all leaving... Now its Shai... If next Sap decides to go (Shai's BF)... I told myself...

"Greg just get up and leave.. it's going to be you all alone again... eventually after everyone starts getting sick of the way the crew is turning out"...

I am ashamed..

Not at Shai... or Furbee... or Cheryl or Hakim...

I'm ashamed at myself....

For having such thoughts to begin with... I have become so weak...

But this alone is not the bulk of my problems..

I have told my other friend hui ting.. that I feel inferior in my field of VC especially when it comes to being challenged by other students.. How could I lose.... I worked so hard at it and only got that kind of grading.. and yet there are people way younger than me In my Class some in other Classes.. that are getting straight As and even 3.7 and above GPAs...

I can't expect them to get worst for my sake off course.. I can't study to get better than them.. How do you study art? I know there's theory to it but 90% of it is also inborn talent.. in being good with putting things like ideas/colors/layouts/themes/series of works and many other factors together... And I'm not born with that.. I'm learning that...

IT Doesn't Matter How NICE I am... IT Doesn't Matter HOW RICH I AM.. IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER HOW INVITING MY PERSONALITY IS!?

The fact is that I'll never be as good as some people are.. and it hurts me to know that I have things about myself that I can feel that it's a combination of my insecurities of my own nature in combination with a lack of good judgement (Which I totally wish I didn't have right now)...

To make matters worst.. School's starting soon and now that there's someone in my class I'm not very fond of knowing about my personal life more.. I hope he does happen to keep personal matters out of daily matters... and no it's not you fir.. so don't worry ok...

Lastly, I know you still might not be reading my blog since you very rarely go online... But tonight I really needed you but since there hasn't been much of a reply from you through my sms.. I'm guessin that you're tired of me or something.. So I guess I was right..(I've Just only realised this...)

I'm Right that... Somehow.. everyone that gets to know me.. will eventually runaway from me.. And in the end I will have no one to turn to because All i do is push people even further away from me..

I guess that's why Shai Left... I guess that's Why Hakim, Cheryl, Furbee are gonna leave.. I guess that's why my parents don't talk to each other.. I guess that's why I hardly see old friends anymore.. I guess that's why I feel separated from society almost all the time... I guess that's why My lecturers don't see the potential in me to drive me further... I guess that's why I'm talking as though I might die right now...

(I can't believe I just typed that)

But Since it's drove me to think that.. I shall leave it there...Maybe crying it out right now is all I need.. I'll be back when I'm ... Better?

Or rather.. I don't know..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS.. I guess I'm just not good enough to be your Kun/Sama... (crying...)

AS the title suggest, It means exactly what it means...

And Here's the best example to proove my theory...



V'ZeuLKiD

PS To every person in the world whom is like the bully in this video, May you take another look in the mirror before you start to raise a finger to point at others or start to lift up a glass to toast to the bashing or verbal abuse against someone that hasn't done you harm...

SO lets see... here are some updates I missed out on... for my Birthday/X'mas presents for 08'
And here's New Year's at my Uncle's Place... =D
IT always amazes me how he manages to pick the best pizzas to go with some really good champagne... =]

Just spending this New Year With my Family and Relatives was definitely a nice experience... But... I still wanted to spend it, more than anyone else, with you...

That Name You Gave Me...

Greg-Kun-Sama... It's just...Something I'll never Forget

V'ZeuLKiD

PS things have started off really well this year Now All I gotta do is pace myself and Pick up the Pace to start to get myself Ready...

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