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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

{/Symptoms of Grief --

Wednesday, July 30, 2008 ( 11:14 PM )

I haven't been myself for a long time coming already

The Worst part of it is that I'm becoming exactly the person I fear the most Turning intO!

and that's my DAD!

he's just.. well Let me say this..

he's the kind of father every child on earth that has led a life without a father Is considered lucky and blessed not to have him...

That's all I can say right now.. And I truly believe that...

I'm not sorry..

Yes this is Gregory (Ezekiel) Albert Varghese... I'm not some spammer that has hijacked my blog to make myself have a bad image or something...

The reasons behind this have exceeded my breaking point.. I will remain quiet in class the next few days.. only responding when necessary.. the reason is as follows....:

-Life is indeed full of ups and downs.. this is one of my Major Downs...
-Dad and Mom are getting older.. I don't know how to support them..
-Money Is becoming a Major Issue...
-Will not pester my dad anymore about anything to do with money Since he's becoming a Major Pain to deal with in any field related to the word money....
-I'm/My Mom is apparently a thief in my Father's House...
-I'm losing my inspiration to GOD KNOWS WHAT! I'm so lost right now...
-I've not heard three words from the people that I consider friends in A Long Long LONG LONG LONG TIME!...

I Love You

V'ZeuLKiD

Ps Fuck Affection... It's Left me... I need peace right now...

{/RAI~~~~ --

Sunday, July 27, 2008 ( 7:40 PM )

Time Still Flows in My Sleep~

Why the emo Phrase.. Go Figure?

erm Anyways Yesterday Was my Sunday And Boy was I glad I got that Chance to Chill while I still could

Went to the Beach after my LONG TIME BEACH HIATUS!!!
for no reason of course...

er anyways
I'll let the pics do the narration..

A quick moment to tell Rose... YOU SHOULD ENROL FOR SCULPTURE!!!

Following this I did a Quick Change From that outfit you see into my Top Man sleeveless with jeans and toki doki cap! And Lari to meet Mel at Pasir Ris

ahahkz

Then we Chiao-ed to Hanif aka Eli's Swareeee' or Suaree' AIYA!! party la hAhahaha

Haappyy Burps! Eli!

ahahhakz

ya so MY GOD I MET HALF MY MSN BFS CONTACT LIST THERE!!!

there was like lots of Chinese gay Guys but also A few malays here and there and shit even a few recently Converted Ajs hahakz

In case no one realised at this point...

AJ = Gay/Bi

So Ya.. carrying on...

I met Raihan there And God he's Hotter in person than in Msn ... err.. hope he doesnt read this (blushes**) hahakz... then I met his cute friend AshFar (hope I spelt it right) Hahahkz... there was also Dil Syazzie and Jazrul and Soo many other crazeee people that I only imagined existed.. but exist.. err ya I never Knew there we really that many people in Aj society but cool SUPER COOL!

hahahkz

and ya btw.. Raihan said something Super Interesting that is

Whenever He meets someone new and introduces himself, He won't be like having to tell people stuff like Hi! I'm gay.. (smiles) ...

Which is so true Cox like After thinking about it ... Being gay isn't the most interesting in the world.. (btw he said this too)... and ya I agree I think I'd find something else about myself that's equally interesting and being gay shouldn't be the point of the conversation..

There are other things like my course in NAFA or the fact that I'm a mixed Blood or even my Love for Expression and My Dance Life and stuff like family in general ..I would even like to begin a conversation with something like.. "Hi im Greg and I'm an ex-Brooksian"... Even my secondary school is an Interesting topic you know!

Ya so my point from all this jabbering is that I love the fact that being Gay isn't the main thing about me but instead its just a part of me.. and so is all the other little things... ahahkz...

I So think that Raihan is the kind of guy that I'd SOOO DATE and want to go further with!!! (ok please don't read this).. ahhaahakz I'm nervous la what can I say? I mean he's like everything I like in a guy PLUS he's intellectual (from my point of View)... AND he's just drop dead HOT!

Am I falling for Someone?

err.. ahhkz maybe.. ooo CRAP!! This is new!! hahakz... It's Been A while...!!!!

A LONG!!!! WHILE!!!!

WOAH!

hahahahahahhaah

ya soo I guess err..(awkward moment)

errr

BYE!!

V'ZeuLKiD

{/I'm Going to Change My Blog as Soon as I Get the Hang of HTML! --

Thursday, July 24, 2008 ( 11:44 PM )

Don't mind the long blog names..

How to read them? DON'T TELL YOU!!! AHAHA!!!

lol

ok anyways..

I spent the other day aka Day 3 in the New School Year...

With an ok lecture...

The Lecturer was A FEMALE AGAIN!!! that's 4 female lecturers in 3 days... GOD

and not to mention one of them has PMS problems... its Bloody Monday Blues Comes True!

Ya soo.. err... well

I had the Start of an EXTREMELY cold Day 3 ... and whatta DAY!

Here is how beautiful the Sky looked before Hell broke loose!

Seriously, I was freaking FREEZING the day before...

It's so cold you can't believe that it isn't Hailing Yet!

hahakz

but ya.. so on and so forth... Day 4 is GREAT!!!

my Lecturer Mr Jit Hwang.. IS HOT!!! HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!!

hahakz but not only that he's passionate... and a little soft but ahakz I've heard he's married... so PEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!! sorry Mr Greggy noo oogling!! hahaahahakz

-_-!

ANYWAYS!!!

(gulps)

We have to do... ZO POSTCARDS !!! HOORAYY !!!!!

I've JUST JUST JUST!! THOUGHT OF THE BEST THEME!!!!

Singapore Youth Festival.... CAN!!!

it's to do with all kinds of Arts and the best thing about it all is that I don't have to like focus on one or two things I can do Anything I want related ... Jit is also very open about art topics and tries to give us as much freedom as he can... I love his teaching Methods... similar to that of Khim's and I love these two lecturers ... Think I'll do well for their Modules...

YESSSSS!!!

ok so I came home today from a chilly evening of waiting for no good reason from another failed attempt at a so called new programme at my school... Student Assistantship Programme.. Which again the school has done too well to screw up with meeting place... grr!!

How can the teacher not take the initiative to come and find the students when they are not where they're supposed to be? its just ONE room away WHATSMORE!!! best part in the WORLD!!! Is that... throughout the whole meeting we had like the opportunity to be called Ambassadors ... FUNNY!! We were told to go dressed in Black and meet at the particular Conference Room and this is What we get.. "ermm sorry (after 1.5 hours not to mention) your in the wrong room you've got to find Mr. Chew..." WTF!?

sial.. if i'm not able to complete all my hours in this semester on time.. I'll quit before next semester.. after completing the full 150 hours for this one!...

serious Siol!

God Bless the other 8 of us who suffered..

ANYWAYS!

Me Gotta Go get Started on my HmWK! before it starts piling up!!!

Oh And Brazil.. Please Trash Singapore to the Point of NO return! Thankz!...

V'ZeuLKiD

{/Ok Xinhui NAH!~ --

Tuesday, July 22, 2008 ( 11:13 PM )

hahakz.. this is in response to XinHui!

From the Emo Teen Grego

V'ZeuLKiD

{/Simon WATCH OUT! ahahahah --

( 9:44 PM )

Hellloooo sexy bitches... haahahakz

ok so here's the deal

Today's officially the end of my second day at school soo I've had my first ever 12pm lesson HOORAH! and I could sleep in extra hours YEAY! hahahakz...

In fact my time table quite glamorous

And also I have the same class as my previous Semester..

Everoyone seems ok but somehow I guess everyone's kinda bored with another soo class was like... Hi... erm.. ya..

I saw effey's AHAHKZ!! Year 2 effey's all looking slightly different now.. more mature somehow.. EXCEPT SIMON!!! looks like some poor --- 40 YEAR OLD --- kid just escaped from mental hospital and is seeking revenge on cigarettes by BURNING THEM AND PUTTING THEM IN HIS MOUTH!!! hahahahahahahaha

Now my turn to laugh at you!!! (in response to Simon's Last Tag)

EHEHE

soo ya I have met two new friends today.. one of which is an indonesian guy who's quite mellow ... aditya..

and the other is a girl who's super funky... she literally dressed herself up like those show dolls you can find at collector conventions and All I could think off was OMG!!! KILLER DOLL!!! but she's a HOttie that's for sure... hahakz Alif's Classmate Constance..

And so I've realised that I have to find my internship this year.. WHERE OMG!!! I DON'T KNOW!!!!

And I've applied for Student Assistantship with abt less than 0.1% of the school population... abt 10 of us ahahhahha

But ya that's gonna help me earn some financial stuffs so hooray!! 2.4 K is alot but hopefully I get the full amount.. I'm officially working for NAFA!!! YES!

Ok so I've got my first assesments on Day 1 and it's to Create an E-Business card.. OMG!

First of all I Know SHIT abt flash

Second The teacher is a **** ... I'm sorry she nags.. and acts like she knows everything and teaches us like we're tape recorders getting everything right on the first try.. THANKS especially for repeating 6 to 7 times DO YOU KNOW 3 LATES = ONE ABSENT !!! ahahahahkz... she said that like literally 7 times and the latest person in my class had hell from her.. CMON It's The First DAY LA GOD DAMMIT!!!

Third The next lesson on Monday Was iLearning Design in Context .. the teacher literally told us the following throughout the 2 hour lesson:

-Her life story

-Birthdate

-Bloodtype

-History

-School

-Medication

-Children's birthdays

-Working Experience

-Her Tendency to Forget What she Wants to Say in the middl.... What was i Saying?

Oh ya btw I saw her today again Although I didn't Have her Lesson and she was fCukING FunnY! the Design and Media Lecturers wanted to see what the assitants that were going to be working for them looked like and Hehee.. she suddenly popped her head out of the corner of the doorway and looked like some kinda super mario mushroom with white hair and the face of a disgruntled pig on heroine! HAHAHAHAHAHAH sorry that just flashed through my innocence-deprived mind LOL!!! hahakz

so anyways today I had Advertising Design AND I LOVE THE LECTURER... she knows what to say when to say it When Breaks are needed and What to show her students to get them interested.. and YES it's all GOOD KNOWLEDGE.. I might just change my mind to take Advertising in the End if it continues to excite me this much.. hopefully my Graphic Design Class tomorrow Is as EXCITING or EVEN MORE!!! YES!!!

And after school I met Cheryl to go gett some stuff at Bugis Sorry though that you had to wait a while due to the stupid cock up my school made AGAIN! Nvm.. I forgive them hahhakz...

oh and I got myself a shawl.. YES!! SHAWL BEBE!!! AHAHK!

so here's the overall short version of todays blog

Fuck FLASH!

Love Today
Hated Yesterday

Mario Pig On Drugs

Shawl is Sex

Simon is Cigarrette Psycho (Laughs again)

Visualist rocks my Socks (thanks for Taggginnnnggg)

Rebecca (YOU ROCK FOR READING ALL MY POST!!!)

Kiddo (I'm not going for your birthday)

Greg (SHUT UP MAN THIS IS A BLOG NOT A MAILER)

Conscious Living Greg (Sorry LA!!!)

V'ZeuLKiD

PS saddened that There's no more Naruto Shippuuden Fansubs!!! wekkk wekkkkk wekkkkkkk!!!!

{/HairCUTE! --

Saturday, July 19, 2008 ( 10:55 AM )

Today I'm going to get a haircut... so My hair will look HAIRCuTE!

errr ... ok bad joke LOL!

anyways...

meeting Vaneeo-O at 12 then heading over the her sister salon at Kallang... YUPS
can't wait been Ages since i chopped my hair mcm ade keluarga semau kat dlm eh?

LOL! GOD NO!!! hahakz kidding kidding...

anyways I'm gonna be leaving soon and after the cut I'll meet Kiddo for some
MUCH awaited Dance practice which I really REALLY can't wait to go for Cox
for some reason I was looking at Wawan's redone blog today and I realised he put my name as

" Greg (all saint's) "

Never would I even dreamt of the day I would get sorted in someone's blog links section with a dance crew as part of my name SERIOUSLY!!!

but still that made me think

"Am I a dancer now?" :\

well,...

I certainly don't feel like one =[

GOD I wish things were easier

You see everyone in my crew.. Hakim, Cheryl, Aida, Sap, Shai, Nab, Saf, Reb & Kiddo
have been busy with School, IG, CCA, injuries or Sick over this past month

attendance for practice isn't good and we only have two places for conducive dancing one of which is dark and dirty... and it's a CC rooftop somemore...
haiz

but then again I want to have practice with you all la no MATTER WHAT
I can't believe I haven't danced in weeks My mind is screaming GREG DANCE LA FUCK!!! DANCE!!!

and yes Wherever I go the only thing on my mind is dance

I'll be in the train and grooving to my iPod
I'll be in the bus and chest popping in my seat
I'll be on my bed and moving like im Possessed by the music from mine and others Blogs

hahahahahhha...

I'm OBSSESSED

I'm really freaking OBSSESSED!!!!

tolong la... I miss dancing la...

Guys I know u don't read my blog but please read my heart at least I miss you all
I wanna dance with you all again =[

It's been so long la!!

I MISS ALL SAINTZ CREW!

V'ZeuLKiD

{/ENCounters! --

Friday, July 18, 2008 ( 11:18 PM )

Hey someone anyone.. please tolong

I've just had a wierd awkward moment at home

I was just talking to Kiddo and Rebecca and Clement online
when suddenly I had this very innate sense to learn Apologize on the piano

So I left to play then after I play awhile I realised that I wanted to do my own version of it
So I played just chords and And Sang my Heart out.. God I can't sing but I felt I could for that moment

THAN IT HAPPENED

While I was singing and being so caught up in the whole piece I felt this heat or something was around me like wierd considering it was raining and stuff

And ya so I continued playing for Fear in me increased and I suddenly kept playing wrongly but quickly corrected myself.. I was thinking abt that time Rose told about her friend Bernice..

She sang Ave Maria in her Home while playing the Piano and while that happened this portrait of Mary looked at her and smiled GOD!! i know it's a sort of blessing in a way but It's freaky
Then I realised that Just above my Piano is A Portrait of THE LAST SUPPER ... so can You imagine how I felt when I realised that there are 12 Disciples including Jesus looking down on me... I felt like Ok this is either wierdly awkward or awkwardly wierd

I still feel wierd.. CALL ME PLEASE SOMEONE I'm alone at home right now

Argh Hate being a only child...

NONSENSE MAN!!!!

freaking out tau!! waliao I guess I'll listen some tunes and try chat up some msn ppl..

V'ZeuLKiD

PS I think this is my First Official E.counter

{/Island Creamery --

Thursday, July 17, 2008 ( 9:53 PM )

I'm making a list in my mind on places to take someone I like/stead in future hahakz
got quite a few already but then I'm also got a good idea of one place if that person is in the mood for Ice Cream.. ahkz AnD THAT IS....................(drum roll please)..........................

ISLAND CREAMERY!

Yeaps...

Me and Rebecca recently went here to have some Ice Creams hahkz And we Camwhored Like TOOT!! hahkz

Then here are the flavours that we indulgded in..

Rebecca's Choice Threesome

Pulot Hitam

Very Berry

Apple Pie

Verdict:

She Really Liked the Apple Pie And the Pulot Hitam. After trying hers I say the Verdict is the same Pulot Hitam my Fave of hers.. hahkz

NEXT ME ME ME!!!

Greg's Choice Threesome

Burnt Caramel

Cookies and Cream

Nutella

Verdict: OMG NUTELLA FREAKING OWNS ALL THE REST!!!! The Burnt Caramel was ok la gave me a stomach ache actually I think I prefer caramel in the topping form then compared to the Burnt Ice Cream Version.. The cookies and Cream was Ok la hahkz nice cox got Oreo Chunks

AND listen all This is All homemade Ice Cream.. Not From factory It's made there at the shop.. AND ITS AFFORDABLE MAN!!!! Plus Let me tell you some of the other flavours..

Horlicks, Soursop, Tek Kahlua(whatever that is), Bandung, Reverso and they even sell brownies, Baked Alaska which is a REALLY GOOD american desert and last BUT THE BEST AND NEVER THE LEAST... ICE CREAM MUD PIE OMG!!! lol

hahakz Go go Go

ISLAND CREAMERY! (btw we drew that before leaving)

How to get there?

Toa Payoh MRT take Bus 153

Then when you see the White L-shape Building that says Serene Centre as the sign below DROP.. there's a MACDonalds at the side Get off at that bus stop.. And the Island Creamery Shop is in the Middle when The bus Turns at the Corner of the Junction

IT is near a Major Junction and also near JLN Serene..

PS From Yishun got one Bus... err can't remember it right now but i think it's 851 ya hahkz also I think the stop name is Opposite Lutheran Towers.. Check out the Pictures the name is there.. Something TOWERS!

Ok but anyways ya Enjoyed my day with Rebecca and got some Stuffs frm Bugis Street!!!

Enjoyed Ourselves and I'm gonna get me a Shawl tomorrow from Bugis Like those Cowboys but not sure

Hot Pink or Black... HMM!!!!

Oh and did I mention I might be getting assistantship subsidies from Nafa.. MAYBE MAYBE!!!

hahakz

yeaps so see you guys =]

Take care all and Enjoy my Pictures..

REBECCA the Picture link for the rest of the Pictures are HERE!!!

ISLAND CREAMERY OUTING

V'ZeuLKiD

{/Play at My HeartStrings --

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