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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

{/How I was Brought Up and Digimon --

Friday, June 29, 2007 ( 11:37 AM )

I wanted to make this post abt two points..

Firstly, How I was Brought up... I was a teen brought up by two loving parents. One day, ard when this young life was in primary , The parents made mistakes with one another.. and resultantly they stop trusting and loving each other.. the teen still brought down by this, stayed strong in life and tried to lead his own life away from family.. and he did later on in his secondary sch life he made many new friends and established a name for himself... From then on, Life for him revolved around his friends and all the Loving people he had met.. It still does....But was that enough.. we'll it had to be cox that was all he had going for him... and somehow it's strange... but this young soul learned a moral along the way..

His life moral... : To see only the beauty in people... And treat and every living being with love... Never hold a grudge with anyone and forgive the mistakes That they've done unto you...

It may be a dangerous moral but he sticks by it.. and continues with it till today...

The second point I'd like to talk abt is Digimon... Digital Monsters...

hahah not something to be trifled with no.... you see for the past two weeeks I've watche the entire season of Digimon Tamers Season 3 from Episode 1 to 51 and I tell you.. it's been one heco of a ride... on youtube finding all the links and stuf.. It has reminded of the importance of friendship in life and the morals we learn along the way... Building bonds with one another is a hard process and when you lose a friend, a part of them stays with u forever in ur heart...

I miss being the kind of person that was very stuck by this value.. Im gonna be that person again.. Im already working hard to be that person... So I can easily flow in that direction once more...

The ending of the Season 3 was really sad.. the saddest cartoon ending i've seen ina long time..U know it mad me cry... How precious life really is no matter if its a Cartoon, a Relative, a family Memeber, the Cat below your block called Mimi That I Dearly Miss so much taking care off.. or even just a friend... all the same, they are lives that u interact with and do in some way cherish... Once you've lost it, U regret and think over how u could have made ur time with themmore special then it was... :(... now i feel kinda lonely again..

Off tto go visit my lonely den... till then its the Lone Angel signing Off

G.

{/Just another DAY --

Wednesday, June 27, 2007 ( 11:47 PM )

Well Todae I woke Up.. knowing that kak harani Daughter is Sick.. Poor gerl she so young already go hospital.. Sigh... why is god so cruel sometime to let sucha young and innocent child.. Well anyway I really do hope she gets better and hope that harani doesnt suffer so much anymore.. with her husband and her children and work .. :) love u KAk...

I replaced Kak rani todae for work cox she need to take urgent off for taking care of her daughter.. It wasnt particularly busy at all... i just mistook one order (rump steak for ribeye) and one of the guest at table 13 left without paying the bill that's about it...Plus there is this guest i like to call the Diva.. she is so Diva'ish but she is just fascinating... a real character.. She was talkin to me abt Azmi and how he changed jobs and talking to me abt money and love ahahah ... OH YEAH AND THE STUPID GUEST AT TABLE 1 Spill his Ice lemon tea FROM KFC all over the floor until it can reach table 2 feet area ... NABEY... i hate guest like tt.. had to clean up the spill.. but anyway overall after reachin home till this point im quite ok... haha

Notice somethin else...? ... Everythin Im typing is in paragraph form now... much shorter and easier to read rite.. hehe... LAwL... hmm dont know maybe cox i got lots of energy to type so just keep on typing... and typing and typing....

HAHAHAH

Welll anyway... Wanna tell anonymous in the tag board whoever u are.. that... you can confide in me if you want.. I'm no judge I won't judge you I can be there for you If you need me in anyway.. I'm a straightforward and open person at heart.. Share with me your thoughts.. I'll help you dear... to my best... =]

till then if anyone needs me.. you know how to reach me..

G.

{/Lethargic ... need SLEEP --

Monday, June 25, 2007 ( 1:15 AM )

I'm home now..
was out...

Worked todae...

REALLY wanted to go see alif and sidek at the Cheer Nationals for Secondary School Category but couldnt cox worked ended ard 5 to 6 plus... Haix.. I really am tired.. started work ard 8 and ended ard 6 almost half a day never worked like that before.. sian...

Got to thinkin that.. haiyz.. dont know wad to do with my life anymore.. im gonna be a hell of a lot sad nowadays... cox of some reasons... i know this is true.. but tryin to stay as apositive as possible

Saw Shahrul, fie and Khai ytd with some of the gang(Thankx For saying hi btw, cheered me ups...:) ) on my way back from meeting Craig and Susan for dinner which was accompanied by NDP fireworks by the bay for performance rehearsels rite outside the resaurant we were dining at.. SPAGGEDIES @ Marina Square Got great Pasta and ITalian Sodas Yummy....must go try ok..

BIG ThanX Craig for the treat once again... misses my closssest relatives.. much...And guess wad i realised something else that's sadder.. I am not close to any relatives except my uncle Craig.. not even my own cousins... So sad... makes being an only child kinda... Much Lonelier...

Oh well.. so after my work todae... I realized that ... Hmm i kinda... Miss lots of things.. So i decided to do a list... Here goes:

Top Ten things I MISS SOO MUCH
10. Pecan pies and Fireworks
9. Studying and Flexing my Mind ant Complicated Maths Examples
8. Going Out With My Gay & Les Compatriots
7. Lots of Birthday Celebrations and Parties... Sorry I couldn't be there :(
6. Work
5. People at WORK
4. 5 ARDENT and 4 DISCIPLINED
3. The Days we guys hanged out (LOG),(DB),(TOR),That Airport Trip with Karnan, Ronald and Jia Gui, Clubbing, Prom, Northbrooks Events, DAy to Day School Life, CCA, ELDDS, Library, teachers....
2. All My ex's I Admit I do miss Them and To all the People I Dream About... Friends, Family and Relatives...
1. Miss The Old me... :((((

G.

{/Heavy Heart --

Saturday, June 23, 2007 ( 4:22 AM )

NOTE ... PLEASE DON'T READ THIS POST... UNLESS YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW... KNOW ALL ABOUT MY DEPRESSING SIDE OF LIFE...!!!

Spring Cleaning Is over..
I'd like to describe it but...
I'm just not gonna tell u the short story..

here's what I did:

Marked all the tables..
Moved all the tables out of Store with Eng Kiong, Siti and Fizah..
Cleaned the nook and Crannies of The Cieling..
Cleaned the Display Sign Outside Of Delifrance..
Supervised some portions of Spring Cleaning For the Servers..
Cleanned Stereos outside
Took out all the Kitchen Items on Shelves
-Pepper to Peaches
-Butterscotch To Baked Beans
-Mayonaise to Thousands Island Dressing
-Oil to Soya Sauce
-Cutlery To Pottery
-Cooking Utensils to Display Items
-And Even those little Kids meal Smily faces
Then I cleaned All of the shelves while on top of a Ladder That is as Stable as A Plate on A feather...
Put Back Air vents Filters Fitted in Ceiling
Cleaned Panel Outside
Cleaned and arranged Back The tables
Carry and Lifted the Tables above polished floor
Went For supper
((rolls Eyes))

Just Found out the truth about abang Sultan there and then at the Spring Cleaning From Jamin...

That Abang Sultan was Really a criminal and that he laundered money from the Store
TO see Jamin tell us that was inbearable..
He was such a nice guy too
Pity..
to think that someone with sucha nice face, smile and service style
Trained in under a Month by JAMIN herself and put str8 to Manager position..
Gone.. in under three months Cox he stole money and didnt admit it till He was Brought to HQ...
I'm speechless
...

Later, After spring Cleaning Ended,
Me, Harani, Baby, Mamat, Kumar, Nathan, Nurill and Linda Headed to supper..
Linda wasnt feelin too well....
After a while she started crying
dont know why??? she didnt eat and hardly drank anything that she was given...

Later Mamat and Baby Started Smoking...
I couldn't take the smoke so I went to the Sheltered area nearby to Sit down..
I turned on my iPod and just played the Latest Tunes I downloaded...
turns Out, It played the first song Randomly.. And it was
the song ur listening to now.. on my blog..

And after tt I took a look at Linda who wasn't smokin..(strange)..
She took a seat adjacent to me at the other End of the same sheltered area..
She put her HP Headphones on and just listened to her Music..
A Part of me knew that Linda Could very well be like Abang Sultan..
as what many people say...

But... Deep down I realized...
She is just like U, Me, the Next door Neighbour.. the lady Across the Street.. The President of the USA(although its hard to believe) in that..
we
Are
All
Human...

No one deserves to be feelin sad..
I wanted to Give her a Hug so bad..
but then,

It was like a Gunshot Triggered at my Emotional Side OF my Brain..
BANG!!!

I was Out of it...
I started tearin Up..

I imagined the things that She and Everyone was feelin Right at that moment..
I was Flushed By emotions.. being tossed IN my Mind's Eyes...
I didn't Feel Like I was In my Own Will anymore..

Past Memories Raced Back ... Back into my Heart, My soul, My Plane of emotions...
I started Tearing up... and Soon after I left With the rest for home..

Harani: Where are You Going Greg?
Me: I'm going home in a Different Direction..
Harani: Why not Go home with Kumar Darling?
Me: ( waves goodbye and walks Off ) Bye darling...

No Dont mistake I wasnt Personally angry with Kumar or anything..
I just needed to be alone...

Later Harani Msged Me
Harani: Are You Ok dear?
Me: Ya
Harani: If anything u can talk to me dear.. Im here for you..

Sweet ain't it..

well..

Haiz..
Just can't believe How Sad I actually felt later...
It was emotion Point again

I went home listening to a Song
Beautiful- Mandalay...

It is a song that reminds oneself that your Beautiful..
Self- Beauty is impt.??

Yes it is.. Self Acknowledged beauty Is self confidence at times...
Where was my self-Confidence?

I went up to the same place again
Outside My house, The staircase...
listening to the end of the song your listening to on my blog once more...
After the song,
I switched my iPod off.. and then...
about 3 minutes later...

I cried...

wanna Know what I cried about?

My family
My friends
My Dearly Departed
My job
The Facts...

I was sad For My parents will never stop fighting, never will they get back together again

I was sad for everyone that smoked, they're killin their friends more than themselves

I was sad I saw Eng Kiong smoking, I thought he was someone that I respected

I was so Scared of being Tricked By someone like Abang Sultan Again
I was really so scared

I knew I was going to stop workin there soon, would I cry the way Azmi Cried when he left?
Would anyone remember Greg.. Would I have made a Good enough impression..?

I was Sad For Rose.. I remember the time she got her O level results and she was so sad she cried, Cried like there was no tomorrow for her.. I'd never seen her cry before.. She was the one I thought I'd end up crying to.. but.. she was the one Crying.. I couldn't do much to help her...

I was sad that Owen, jazlyn and Leslie Cox In my heart I know I'll never be as close to them asfter school starts.. It be like making new friends around the next time I see them.. what would be BP then?

I was Sad that I couldn't see leslie.. Cox he's in Army I miss him...

I was sad that I'd probably never be included in TOR cos Im gay..

I thought about The entire Class and every single person.. I regretted so much that we ALL Just Had to have that fight in the last year of school.. I really wish I could Have done something to avert that... but what?

I was Sad that Jamin had Diabetes and that She Isn't taking care of herself.. altho she knows it is bad for her to take sweet stuffs..

I was sad for people like Baby Butch, Mamat, Harani, Kumar, Rose, Suyati...
Cox I know What they go through Life
ITS HORRIBLE..
to be living a life that Is dictated by other people and Not having much to cherish..
but Your family.. and the few friends that dwell around you...

I was sad For Linda... She didnt have many friends and her immediate friends are all pretending to be friends with her cox she actually pisses them off..

I was Sad, Cox i kept thinkin how much I hurt My Ex's ... ALL OF THEM.. and howw much I still miss them and wish they were still mine.. Huggin me... tellin me that they loved and cherished me.. I hurt Fadli, Wei Cheng, Mirul and maybe just maybe even Luke, Filafi and Fade...And Maybe even a whole lot of people out there That I never knew I hurt... I feel Soo bad...

I was sad Cox I was so unsure that I had made the right Choice... Nafa or maybe its another mistake in life... Maybe I might end up finding enemies rather than friends... Maybe I might even get enemies.. I'd just be A loner...

I was Sad... I remember Ms Eng's Words to me.. abt sort of betraying ELDDS and not going back to help them... Is my irresponsibility to not helping ELDDS the Cause to them getting BRONZE this year... was that my fault?

I felt that Craig, My uncle, who knew that I am gay... was actually disappointed and that he actually wants to tell everyone I'm gay.. although he told me he's actually ok with it.. and that he supports me no matter what.. I'm so afraid...

I felt that My Grandma Agnes perera.. would be lookin down on me ... I missed her so... She'd probably be lookin down and thinking What has my Grandson become..

I just Cried... And Cried... and then I tought oF all my dearly departed relatives lookin down on me.. and wondering.. Why? Why is that queer aquaintance of ours botherin to live a life like that?

I wondered that too..? why? Why?
I looked at the railin beyond...

I could imagine... Putting on leg over it.. and then the other... turning my body towards the edge and then

Plumetting

Down..

Down...

I could just imagine the feeling ... The feeling of free-falling....

And then soon the fear.. The Fear That will encompass u just before u hit rock bottom...

And then .. everything..

Gone...

But I was a coward.. I knew better than to take my own life.. + I was too scared to do it...
I couldn't imagine dying.. and then

I cried again:

I Guess If i Died no one would care..
No one would remember that guy
Maybe someone would,
But it probably be because I did smth bad to them
And they didnt forgive me for it..
or maybe i owe them smth..
I dont know..
I dont know...

Who am I?
What am I?
Am I fated to exist of this plane?
Was I meant to walk this Road down Life?
Was I meant to Live? for this?
Will I ever .. find.. Love?

Why?

I can't Help.. But Only Ask...

Why?

G.

And I was Probably sad for you... Whoever is reading this... Cox Of all the possible problems That U face... in ur life... i want to help.. but i feel... that I Might end up hurting you... and I've Probably done it already.. :'(

{/Well Nothing Much --

Friday, June 22, 2007 ( 9:02 PM )

Went Out with daddy today...
Ate at Sakae...

he says he loves it.. I say ...
well he treatin so.. I say nothing hehe

so anyway
after I got home Watched a WHOLLE lotta youtube on Digimon tamers Season 3 Episode 1 to 10... FUYOOOOOOOOOOOH dead tired now.. but then again Ive got Spring Cleaning at delifrance in... oops half an hour... gotta burn some midnight oil...

See You

G.

{/Haiz --

Thursday, June 21, 2007 ( 11:18 AM )

I dont know... i keep thinkin tht smth impt needs to happen...
Todae...

but i just cant figure it out..

what's so impt that i had planned on the 21st of June...

Its like... haiz ...Am i growin a tumor..

Maybe there's a cancer in me..
eating me up from the inside

And someday this boy with the happy smile will be gone from this planet..
most likely you'll never know..

you
will
never
know

G.

{/The Free Movies --

( 2:52 AM )

Went out with owen omella and jaz todae..
we went to watch a free movie courtesy of my Cuz Aka Selene...

The Fantastic Four 2 movie...

Actually it was nice la..
Just that the ending was a bit dissapointing...
could have ended with more complication but it ended to soon...
must've been budget cuts...

oh well

anyway...

After the show we went to the Fountain of wealth... Owen dedicated this short message to Omella at the fountain and it was like omella's first time watchin the light show...

She, Me and Tan later went to the centre of the fountain and did three rings.. around the centre.. it was wet and owen didnt help by SPLASHING WATER ON ALL OF US... EyeeeeeeeaH... (slap)

hahah good thing i rubbed my wet hands all aver u later HAHAH.. stupid pimpled faced idiot...hahaha

anyway it was ok la... after tt headed back to yishun and helped jaz with her RJ on the way back..it was fairly easy nothing particulary difficult sometimes i feel like if i went RP it be like no kick(no insult to anione just my own beliefs hehe)... CANT WAIT FOR NAFA TO START... WOOOOOT... yeababy... hahaha..

Im fallin in love with all the dancers ard me... tell U hahaha ... its just the physique of malay guys and thier dancing bodies sweatin its like having melted chocolate whilst getting a folliating scrub and some sensual rush from heaven... OMG.. haha talk abt my orgasmix thoughts...

OH NO STOP hahaha

thats abt it...

o yea a cat followed me back later at nite... im so glad the cat was so cute too will upload the vid soon...

G.

{/My turning Point --

Tuesday, June 19, 2007 ( 10:07 PM )

Well turns out fade And i Werent meant to be...
So I'm out there in the sea once again...

But i'll be Searching Silently...
Not for "Another one"(person)

Cox I Get that Thought off
I don't want to be with someone that's like not committed or str8 away committed

This year I've made peace with all my Ex's in my mind

1st
Fadli- at his farewell and on other occasions
2nd
Wei Cheng- Online and at his workplace
3rd
Mirul- At the Dance Xplosion 2 with Muiz
And said bye to Fade

From now on i feel like im totally clean..
No grudges...
No Sins..
Just a plain canvas

A canvas In need for an aritst to paint his portrait on...

And not any old portrait...

A picture that fits a reminiscent soul of Lavenderian Sincerity...

And There goes ...

{/A clubbing day --

( 9:13 PM )

Well guess wad for leslie's farewell party...

I, Rose, Jaz, Owen, TOR and Les

WENT CLUBBING @ MOS

Just wanna say that I had A great time Dancing...

First time me seeing Rose Dancin... WOOOT.. my good she can groove.. haha

Kok Xiong tried getting close to her But rose ended up embarrassing him by dancin him and pushin him away with one hand AHHAAH... STUPID IDIOT KX... LAWL.. he got burnt on dancefloor by(of all PPL) rose HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okok so anyway i dont think i did dance the best of my life.. but anyway... i enjoyed myself.. they were all right Altho id hate to admit they were rite... I AM A CLUBBING PERSON ... and i really love the atmosphere at a club.. the begining was kinda boring with all the aimless competitions and shows.. but later when the dancefloor opened up FUYOH... IM UNLEASHED... didint care abt any guys... there werent any hot ones at all btw... yuck... just kept close to rose... and WENT FOR THE MISSION...

GRIND JAZ hahaha

that was everyone's mission

COX she WOULDNT DANCE...

so me jaz rose owen les and morier all grind her LAWL..

this was the funniest thing all nite... after we did that..

let me try and let u picture the scene...

(Jaz is sittin on her stool near the table near the Bar at The Smoove R&B room )

Greg: Jaz Dance NOW...

(I pull a 1/3 Excited 2/3 CONFUSED Girl onto the dancefloor)

(Right outside the cage of the dancefloor)

Jaz: I dont know how to dance(in a paiseh Voice)

Greg: just Shake ( i shake her shoulders with my hands according to the beat...)

(she shakes like a retard)

(me and rose wink to each other)

(WE PUL JAZ INTO THE CROWD OF OUR FRIENDS)

JAZ: .... !? WAT THE...!?!?!?! AHk...!!?!!?!??!

She is totally caught off guard...

Me, Rose, Owen, Les and Morier all start dancing ard her AHAHHA

Five of us in one circle around her...

She covers her face and gets Really PAiseh...

LAWL

this part

The Song is endin soon...

SO we Break out o our Circle...

She Runs to the nearest friends thats sittin on the chair...

And Screamss..

Jaz:

OH MY GOOOOOD STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA (All of us Laugh)

Wad a NITE haha.. Took lots of pics but havent get from JAZ yet.. waiting... as alwaes.. so

here are the Fotos:

i got a video too of the main hall but i'll upload it some other time... ok...

Well That's about it..

Clubbing is fun and all BUT

with the right ppl...

SO it was Fun For my first time...

{/A Dae Of SweetnEsss --

( 6:03 PM )

This blog is off a day i Spent abt a week ago...

hehe im onli blogging now cox im bored and sick at home

and I wanted to share with you all the wonderfull day i had...

So me and rose had to do some research on possible outing locations

we spent the day gg to delifrance ard noon..

there we researched the prices of Chalets and resorts as well as possible locations for our outings..

I kept routing for the Beach loaction East Coast Park

I want to plan a small party there just like how fadli's farewell went ...

and u know wad ..

I felt that fadli had realli sporting friends.. I mean they were all so outgoing no paiseh people.. everyone did things that normal ppl Wouldn't do in the outdoors and open public but I love ppl that are lioke that.. So fun to be ard... I envy them ehehe .. I wanna hang out with u guys more... erhmm oops .. let myself linger.. tehheee.. so anyway..

after that me and rose went to KFC to makan.. and we ate some original flavoured chicken.. DAng i still remember they didnt have ribs my ONLY favourite part of KFC chicken... well i used to like drumsticks when i was younger bt then ribs got lots more flavour.. So .. erhmm.. Lingering again.. LAWL... okok...

SO .. later after eating i checked my hp and there was this msg from Fade.. he said he saw me eating with a gal at KFC.. and i was lioke.. UH.... YES??? hehe didnt even come in and say hi to me.. well nvm.. its ok.. haha.. then later after me and rose left, i got another msg..

Fade: We walked right by each other..
Greg: Really ... eh where?
Fade: Earlier... My freind Ginny saw you..
Greg: she did?
Fade: she says she knows u and she saw u pass me earlier
Greg: Oh ok.. haha should have said smth la.. where are u now?
Fade: Bishan Already...going to catch a Movie...

O.o

(take note parts of this sms conversation was editted for entertainment purposes without affecting the content or flow of the story...LOL...XD)

anywaes...

ROSE WANTED me to tell him that she would never go for me to clear out the misconception of us having lunch togeda at KFC...

Actually ud be surprised how many ppl actually think were (me and rose) are a couple...

MY GAWD..

Colleagues

Aunty Alice
Ija

Nurill
Nas

Haikal

Yumei

Shafiqah

Zakiah

Nathan

Abang Herman (ex manager)
Kak Nor

Rose's Aquaintances

Almost all of Rose's aunt's and Unc's i've Met

Rose's Godma(1st and Original)

Rose's Cousins

My Aquaintances
Some of my Aunts and Uncs

AT ONE POINT MY OWN MOTHER... LAWL

thank gawd i dont share this parts of my life with my cuzz's

anyway

Rose = Les
Greg = Gay

can u believe a person saw me with her outside and called to tell her 2nd godma (aka our store manager Jamin) that rose was going out with and Indian guy LAWL...

hahaha

I was flattered but At the same time DISGUSTED hahaha ( rose slaps me.. )
But I mean come on la... WTH...

Nvm

only rose and I know the pain and consequences we go thru.. haiz..

wad to do .. when u look good u look good...

HAHAHA ok wait that has nothing to do with anything lawl..

ROFLMFAOxxxXXXXxxx.... XD

gaaAHAHAhahahaa

okok enuff im crying with laughter here... ok ok.. phew (pant) breathe !!! breathe~!!

Haiz(sigh)

so where was I.. Oh yea I was with Rose and she decided to go to ( OF ALL PLACES ) Bishan ..

and in case none of u know this... My beloved stays at Bishan... he then msged me that he was gg for a movie and tt he was gg with his friend.. so ok.. then later me and rose took a walk ard bishan...

AND FINE ok.. i was there looking out for him.. cox u know the onli movie place in Bishan is.. well.. Junction8 which is rite next to the mrt .. so chances are(sarcastic) He's there!!!... lawl... so Here's a direction of stores Rose and I toured whilst I kept a look out for things to do...

btw we went to Bishan to get sutffs for kim's bdae as well.. our gay compatriot lawl... Go lesbians... and gays... and Bi's ahahaha

Our Journey

went up escalator near swensens to second floor

(told rose abt the time mrs chia treated us to swensens and cafe cartel.. her re-Xtion.. SHUDDUP stop telling me abt all the treats she's been giving...hehe jealous much!!! :p)

----->

Went to the Technology block of J8(the new block) saw some guys there wearing JC uniform.. thought Fade was one of them... but... hehe my mistake.. got nervous for nothin...Rose kept wanting to go closer and teasin me idiot...
----->

Next we went thru some Cd Areas and an appliance store selling accessories and systems for Mp3s and laptops... ( thinking to myself I need to ask owen to get me one of those portable laptop carrier bags that are sponge coated on the outer layers and rather smooth and handy to carry around...)

----->

Went to some Clothes shops... Past by those hermit crabs things.. went up another level and then another and looked ard... went to this shop opposite the Cinema called Action City ( i think ) .. they were sellin this obscene pig cushion masager that vibrated lots... like hehehe... when the guy told me it was on offer i was lioke.. er... ok .. and left HAHAHHA

----->

Then went to popular to look ard.. saw series of unfortunate events... and OO YEA must get the new second series entitled the beatrice letters... cant wait.. oooo .. realized i lost my love for harry porter.. dont know why.. i used t know lots bout it at one point but oh wel... then... rose saww the Singapore Scary Storie book Vol 14 and 15 and called her mom and sis to check whether they wanted it.. the whole family's into the paranormal LAWL.. Maybe they ARE PARANORMAL ((rollseyes)) [I THANK GAWD ROSE DOESNT READ MY BLOG!!!! ]

ehehehe

----->

well then after that went to that Home appliance Store (best Denki i think) on the third level.. walked ard went in the back.. saw some movies stayed in the movie area for a while... and looked ard .. they were playin music and lyrics it was nice.. ehehe...Saw a bit of Moulin rouge (STILL THE BEST LOVE STORY-MOVIE EVER!!!!) and then went to HAAGEN DAAZ.. this is where i let the pictures tell u what happen..

Hey THAT's Right.. IMMA CAMWHORE... oh yea... and here's a funny thing... wanna see sex at Haagen Daaz.. just look at thier Menus:

Lioke.. Could U GET A ROOOM with that spoon... LAWLI call this... The 3SOME... LAWL...

OH yea btw I ordered a Machiatto...expecting a big caramel machiatto like drink the same way stabucks serves coffee.. but as it turns out.. This is what i GOT....

Rose Proudly Shows Off my MINUTE cup... with like two shots of expresso and like almost next to nothing foam... must be to hide the insecurity of the drink LAWL.. but anyway we ordered Ice Cream later ... and FUYOH WAS it GOOD.. anyway no pics cox we talked so much when our Ice-Cream arrived that it melted lots and I didnt want to waste time with the camera and decided to just EAT haha ... Oh yea and the reason y the Ice Cream melted was Cox of this...
Rose's Aunty Came by...

SO to hide her presence from being seen with me (a Hunk :P) She Wore her shoal to pretend to be a hot Indian Bollywood Sari Princess Actress...BUT...

Turns Out, Her Aunt is A GENIUS and she finds out and Starts lecturing Rose abt the Dangers of hanging out with hunks like me... LAWL.... XD

In the End, She turns into a Saint.. I PRESENT TO YOU "The Next Generation Mother Theresa"

Well anyway, later on we leave with paying the bill of course... $34.00 NABEY... Argh that was my one days salary... -.-! ahaha thank gawd we split it.. haha... ok so

Later we went back up to continue the hunt for kim's Present and we got it... a loveley gold bag to store the present in... and then we had an idea... me rose and kay were gonna make her a friendship sketch book... with our fotos inside for memory... so sweet rite.. ehe...

And Yes with that before we left, we saw fade.. but we didnt say hi... Don't really know why, A feelin came over me and I just couldn't go forward... so we saw him and his friend walk out and away from us... a Green Day song played in my head "are we the waiting"...

Me and Rose then got some last min bites and headed back to Northpoint where we met Kay later at nite and took some fotos with my Lappy... hehe...

Here let me leave u with the last few fotos... to such a great and wonderful day... Thank you for reading if u have read to this point... and I treasure ur friendship... (sounds corny i know) but .. I just want u (whoever's reading this) to know that...

And Lastly,

And I love you all...

{/Growing Wings --

Thursday, June 14, 2007 ( 10:08 AM )

A short dedication to you ...

Crimson lights the sky, the bird still asleep
Like a dream it shines, from heaven's safe keep
Childrens songs we sung, as soft as the breeze
Endless fields, our home, I long for those days

I call out these prayers to the sky, heavy with thought, see your face
I carry these memories inside, thoughts of a soul colored by love
See me grow wings and fly high, passions will die down below
I burn in a basin of fire, watchers look on as they dance in their merciless sky
Watching me, watching you

Silent black, the dawn, and time tell its tale
Darkened blood, it flows, the forest receives
Look within the dark as deep as you dare
There inside you find destruction you seek

I call out these prayers to the sky, heavy with thought, see your face
I carry these memories inside, thoughts of a soul colored by love
See me grow wings and fly high, passions will die down below
I burn in a basin of fire, watchers look on as they dance in their merciless sky
Watching me, watching you

{/The Video Edition --

( 9:56 AM )

Well All ,

Here are the Videos I pRomised....
:D...

Enjoy

This is the Dumb me trying to figure out how to get to East Coast Muiz and I Are Noobs at MAps.. LAWL...
kidding

The Winners At LVL UP Comp

Fadli's Farewell Gathering...

And thats abt it ... there was more but didint have the time to record it all... oh well

:)

G.

{/Fadli's farewell --

Monday, June 11, 2007 ( 1:08 AM )

Ahkz.. aites..
sorry for not bloggin fer a while... been lazy hehe...

Anyway there was nothin much to blog abt but I'll show u wad happened the last couple of days... via videoo

Ive got lots of em.. hehe

coming soon

LAWL

ok ok but seriously todae was sooo uBER FUN...

Went out with Muizz to go get his stuff at Uhmmm
Uh... actually he went to get some of the bBQ Food for his
MI Class gathering... and then, he met me at the MRT later...

MY goodness... he bought like 6 or 7 packs of Pita Bread which actually amounts to abt 30 slices...but turns out that later, when were gg back home he confesses that they onli ate one.. ONE SLICE not even a packet.. hehe that bad arh?? oh well... lol kecian...

OH yea so anyway we went to far east to catch the finale of the LVL up Dance Competition...
Bill CAlhoun Was there WOW... Amazin haha saw the baldie in person...

and The Finalist were

- Def Crunk
- White Hoods
- NUS dance team
- Lil Nuts
- Lush
- AND.....

drum rolllllllllllll please...

THE WINNERS :

FREEKZY NUTZ..

WOOOOOOO WOOOOOOOOOOT

amazing la thier routine soo much energy and excitement...
will post that video too...
sooon

hehe

anyway

continuing ...

after seeing the winners and everythin was over,
Me and Muiz headed over to Bedok Mrt where we saw this woman being wheeled out in some kind of upright stretcher..

She Loooked like she had an asthma attack...
poor lady.. me and Muiz were staring at her cox she was alwaes being wheeled in our direction ...

anyway... after bitching abt the long journey and the bus ride and AMAZINGINGLY LONG WALK back to the East Coast Pit, We reached..

oh yea i went with muiz cox Well Fadli's Bf invited me to this little get together with some of his frenx to say fareweelll to the baby haha

He's gg NS u see.. soo sad.. some tearful moments.. speeches and LOTS OF cakE IN PPL FACES were the highlights of this event...

Now i remember almost everyone's name..

Pan, Zaf, Shahrul, Fie, A'an, Syahril, Fafa, Melamir, Shawn aka Shahril if im not wrong.. haha, Khai, Yusof, Fiqa, Zack, Sufi.. and some more guys... hehe sorry im one person trying to remember soo many nice ppl.. haha SoRRy if ur name not here...

so moving on as i said,
There was cake in everyone's face..
including mine.. GRRRR FADLI... ARGh..
hahah u knw it was ironic...

Kinda...

to have fadli's bf invite me ... doesnt anyone think that's kinda ironic.. but anyway... the guy's nice.. after finally meetin him... I couldnt be happier for fad..

BUt THE BEST PART was the gameSSS... haha i think it was so funny when i did the "Om chi chi OM Chi TONGKAK TONGKAK tukie tukie" game ... haha dang funny especially when i sabo mel's two friends i even say maaf hahaha so sarcastic and dumb rite.. haha

Anyway it was cool la.. Muiz and i kept msging and calling each other asking when the other was finishing up... Lawl.. kinda funny... but i was in no rush to go... the ppl were just tooo nice to leave... i regret not staying though... hehkz...

but fun ends along with certain things.. haiz. oh well u can have too much of a good thing and tht could be bad..

I was thinkin Fie didnt look to happy when he said he didint like Rp all that much... and that he was there ... so i thought maybe i could keep him company and stuff la.. just in case he feels down in da dumps... i know too many friends in rp plus... its like my fourth home la... considering that I went there soo many times..

TOO MANY TIMES in fact.. probably more regularly then some students .. hahaaha ... LAWL... so fie.. if ur reading this feel free to hit me up.. i'll gladly keep u company.. thats wad friends are for...

hehkz sooo... considerin the day after leaving later ard 945 with muiz.. IT was a good day..
a real fun one.. and lis day i wont forget anytime soon

I also heard some distressin things today from fadli abt a certain someone and the things tht he is doin.. Somethin which im invovled with but kept quiet abt it cox it was his day and i didnt want to spoil it.. he was soo emotional at that point.. so i wanted the best for him...

yup bt to anyone out there im the kind of person that doesnt realli care abt what grudges ppl have against one another... as long as im there ill help u out no matter which side of the schism ur own.. im lyk the guy that sits on the fence and throws support in to anyone who needs or wants it... but make no mistake im no welcome mat to step on...

I onli allow this for certain ppl.. so dont u dare take advantage of me... u'll get what u have coming to you...

so basicalli my last message to fadli would be this...
erhhmm

Dear Fad,

Thank you..
Thank you for being there for me when I needed it...
Thanks for being the first one to approach me when we started work together
Thanks for covering me when I was Unable to work...
Thanks for opening up to me
Thanks for letting me open up to you
Thanks for lettin me into your world and Vice Versa
And Lastly Thanks.. for being part of my life..

Ill miss u and Im SURE U'll be missed by a heck of a lot of ppl...
in northpoint
in sphyntrix
in dmax
and in ur family...

no matter wad grudges have occured/or are occuring
no matter who ur angry at/with at the moment
no matter what problems you face in future

Know that you're deeply loved by lots of loving friends and appreciated for who u are...

:)

Well thats all i have to say ...
till the next time we meet bro

G.

PS after seeing fadli and aan together, I feel that love is sucha wonderful thing...
I want a real-ationship like that...not a relationship bUT a REAL- LATIONSHIP
u get wad i mean... yup.. so i miss u fade.. wonder when u'll stop playing hard to get and fall with me in lovely love.. hmm someday soon i hoppe...

{/Rooms in a MESSss --

Monday, June 04, 2007 ( 10:33 PM )

Rooms In a MEss working tomo..
dang tired...
just got better slightly...
from flu and horrible sore throat...
Love my new sleeveless top from Top man.. btw my first top man purchase...

Can I here an AMEN...
( Covers side of ear to here respnse )

AMEN

ok good...
hahaha

Went out the day before sun ( 03.06.07 ) Tocatch some friends in The Hip Hop LVL UP dance Competition...

Wow Just watching them made me wanna dance even more... Definitely gonna keep training...

I went with Muiz Owen and Omella actually i just met with muiz but ended up bumping into the Two O's

HAha

Sounds Catooney i know..

Muiz had to go meet with a hot indo guy later so i bid him farewell at borders and went off to meet owen and omella at paragon...

Can You Say "Lightbulb?" -.-! I love being thiers and They Love it TOOO.. hehekx... :D

Oh ya btw my friends we went to Bugis later and I GOT THE FIRST EVER TOPMAN SHIRT IN MY LIFE WOOOOOOT WOOOOOT

Can I hear Another Amen...

AMENNN...

AHHHAHAHAA...

here it is.. on me

Hawtttttatatatataaaa TAMALE... LOL

doncha thinks so... heheX

hahaks anyway need my sleep for tomo im working 9 to 3 at deli.. misses friends and bros and kawans of all sorts... and hopet o jumpe with Fade real soonies.. :)

Get your own Poll!

C ya and I'll update soon...

G.

{/Tired DAMN TIRED --

Saturday, June 02, 2007 ( 8:29 PM )

Need A break...

Am Sick

VERY SICK

See What I Mean???

The guy im missing is away in M'sia for 4 days with his family...

so miss him.. LOTS...

and furthermore...

erhmm

Here is the photo Mr/Ms. Anonymous wanted to see of him.. heheks with hsi permission as he granted on the tagboard...

Cute rite...

yups he's been away

Ive been lonely...

and another thing I've been is unsure..

I've been so unsure of things that When my new Ikea Tromso Bed arrived

see pic...

IT was TOOO HIGH UP... my goodness

Here's a before and After of my room...

BEFORE

AFTER

gawsh... :

well anyway i've called the company or rather my mother has called the company up and they said it was ok If I wanted to Change the bed.. SOOO.. I'm Getting... A.... :D...

SOFA BED... WOOT WOOT ... yeay... in blue... WOOT WOOT... YEAY...

And i guess in the mean time... It back to this...

awrite

i plan to also get a table but that is in future... im gonna think of a whole new layout for my room

and furthermore.. Im gonna be a thinker so I dont end up getting the wrong stuff all over again...

Yupyup

other than that I've just finished my PHS Drama Camp it was fun.. lots of games and stuff although I had to Leave half way.. i Still had fun at work and at the schoolmet up with some old folks did some nonsense and did umm lots more nonsense... HAAHA

awrite

BUt ive felt lethargic as of late...

tired of being something...

tired of being someone...

I guess Im SCREAMING for a change but i'm just not so sure what it is yet....

Physical... Emotional... Mental...

whatever it may be I hope I can make it Happen At the Right Time...

other than that...

UHmm everything's same old same old...

And i Miss u Fade... :(

{/Play at My HeartStrings --

... For A Better Feel ... With Me ...

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